C2, Day 1

September 8, 2003

so today is the first day of my C2. (so that i can use my excel progress

reports my real day 1 is tomorrow- so i'm calling today Day 0 =)

i've eaten really clean and just hit the gym, i picked up a really cute

shirt from the good will that's just a *leeeetle* bit too small.

hopefully it will fit in a few weeks.

my goals for C2 are (1) to really adjust to eating cleanly and to adjust

to free days. right now i'm still so completely stoked on free days that

i'm making myself sick. i mean...it's the first time in years i've told

myself that i'm allowed to eat anything i want without feeling guilty,

eating less than 200 cals a day for a week afterwards, purging, abusing

laxitives, or generally ripping myself to shreds over it. so basically,

i keep eating myself to the point of pain on my freeday. i have to

remind myself that after my freeday i'll still be allowed to eat, that

another freeday will come next week, that i dont have to eat everything

i've deprived myself of for years in 1 day and then go back to

deprivation. i have to not only remind myself, but forgive myself, and

keep giving myself that space, until i really...you know...believe it.

my other goals are (2) to lose more fat. i'm really hoping to see a

continued loss of inches in my hips and thighs, those are the 2 areas i

feel are real sticking points- they seem to be the last place the weight

comes off. i think i've got about a total of 15 lbs of fat left to get

rid of before my body looks like i'd like it to.(3) to continue working

on strenghtening my balance and core stability, (4) continue building my

burly arms, and (5) to continue on my quest for visible ab definition.

i think that's it. i'll be taking photos tomorrow.

i'll revisit these every couple of weeks to see how i'm doing.

hope everyone had a great sunday!

-cera

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