newbie-kathy-shaken

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I haven't been posting because I have very, very limited time on the

internet right now. I have from time to time read some of the posts.

I decided not to have my younger (16 months) son get his vaccines (my

older son, I believe suffered a long-term vaccine injury), and, since

we live in TX, I've been able to have him legally exempted. He has

a very good homeopathic physician, but we have to drive about 100

miles to see him, and driving around in the big city for us is

terrifying, especially with a sick baby in tow. My baby got an

upper respiratory virus late in December. The homeopathic Dr. gave

him a remedy and sent some home with us " just in case " . He was

doing a lot better when his newly sick cousin arrived at our house,

and he got that illness on top of recovering from the other one (also

brought by a sick cousin). We didn't have the option of avoiding

being in a house with them because we have to live with my parents

until my husband graduates from college next spring. A day or two

after the 2nd sick cousin left, my baby woke up gasping for air. We

almost took him to the hospital because we couldn't get ahold of his

homeopathic Dr. on the phone. I was so terrified that he was going

to be taken away from us as soon as they found out he hadn't had any

vaccines since he left the hospital after birth (he was 5 wks and 2

days " premature " , btw). The Dr. called us back before we went to

the hospital, however, and told us to give him the 2nd dose of

homeopathic remedy he sent with us. The wheezing (it had changed

from gasping to wheezing on its own) stopped. He continued to be

sick for a while after that, but the gasping/wheezing never returned.

Now, after a visit from a cousin (who has a slight cough), he is

waking up with a little of the same " scary " sounding (croupy) cough

he had when he initially got sick. I am nearly paralyzed with fear.

I never want to wake up to a gasping baby again, but it looks like

that could very well happen. His cough hasn't really been that bad

or frequent, and he isn't running fever or acting lethargic. Yet I

am still terrified. What if he suddenly takes a turn for the worse?

I don't know what to do, and that scares me even more.

How I wish I were one of the uninformed masses who can just blindly

put their trust in the medical profession and vaccines and just let

someone else be responsible for this. I'm so very, very

frightened. I can feel the stress in my body and it actually

hurts. We've kept his Medicaid in case we're in a car accident, he

needs emergency surgery, etc. I can't wait until we at least don't

have to have him on medicaid anymore (after my husband graduates and

gets a good job... almost a certainty in his field and graduating

from that particular school). Maybe we'll be able to move closer to

a large city that has another good homeopathic physician.

This whole thing probably seems rambling and nonsensical, but, like I

said, I'm terrified. I could most certainly use a " pep talk " if

anyone has time.

Thanks,

Kathy