Re: update/yesterday

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update/yesterday

I did fantastic Tuesday--and blew it yesterday. But did you blow it in a Huge way, or just enough to make you feel bad and guilty but not enough that you can't throw in some exercise and cut out some bread away from your meals today to recover from it? It was my son's 5thbirthday and I was doing sooooo well until we went up to visit with mymom and dad. In fact, I did wonderfully until my mom took us todinner. She insisted on this new sandwich place (Jimmy 's?) and Istill managed to do alright. I was *at* my calorie limit when weleft, though.Great so you was just fine till then! So then we take the boys to Chuck E Cheese to play afew games (why is that *the* place for kids?) and they bring Connor afree slice of birthday cake...my mom decides that's a huge injusticeto Ben so off she goes to get an order of cinnamon breadsticks. Thatis a very large order for $2.49--really, it should serve 6-8 people. Well, I licked my fingers after putting one onto Ben's plate and thatwas the end. I didn't eat even half of what I normally would have,but I'm just upset with myself for making such poor choices. I cannot and do not have the right to tell you shouldn't have done that. Let me share with you what I did yesterday. My son has been trying to close a deal on buying some land. Well yesterday she calls and says she has the deed ready to be signed. So we go pick it up and take it to outr lawyer to be looked over before signing. By the time we get done it is 11:30 and still another 30 minutes before we get home. So we decided to stop and get some Arbys burgers. They have the 4 for 5.00 deal going on. Well I order 4 burgers. There was 4 of us here. My son decides to buy 4 burgers. What we don't eat he takes for his lunch. We get home and I was famished. I eat one burger and just a very, very small handful of chips. Boy, oh Boy, ......I was watching those chips like a hawk. It is a weakness of mine. But I grab the second burger and scarfed it down. Now I ask you how dern stupid was that? Watched the chips and then ate a second burger. I havent totaled up yesterdays calories yet but I feel sure I went over. I just hope it didnt put me WAY over. And Ididn't exercise yesterday because I was so sore I could barely walk. I did some stretches, but I had not missed a day in well over a week,so I didn't feel too bad about it until I counted up the calories I havent done any structured exercise where I count the minutes or reps or anything like that in a long time. I have been however getting out in the yard and working and walking though the stores and what not.The day before yesterday hubby and I moved a slew of bricks we had piled up by our tree from where we took down a chimmney in the house.But you know its hard to count stuff like that as exercise to write in the journal because it's not constant.Now that my son has this property I'm sure I'll be getting more exercise soon then I ever wanted. It has a bunch of woods and brush on it that has to be cleared and it is about 700 ft. deep so there will be a lot of walking going on.And as a side note, my mom is always complaining about how she hasn'tlost weight on this plan...well, DUH! She's always cheating--always.Every time we're together, she cheats. Do we have the same mom? Most all my stuff i got from my mom. She gave me my first treadmill. She gave the foodmover, she has giving me diet books. She buys this stuff, opens it and uses it for a week while cheating on it daily then gives it to me. A lot of the time she comes home from a doctors appointment and will say the doctor told her not to walk on the treadmill or not to walk outside and stuff. I hate to say it but I have never believed her. She isn't in what I call bad health. I think she just uses excuses just like most people do to get out of putting in the effort. She starts to sweat sitting in the chair typing at her computer and it almost kills her. She will refuse to do anything that makes her sweat and out of breath. I don't think I have very good will power at all and I do cheat and make excuses but I can usually get in a week before I do.I dunno, I think we all do that to some degree or another. But mom just dosen't seem like she can get though one day.Of course she is a lot older and maybe that plays into it too. I just hope I can do better and I don't follow completely in her foot steps. I love her to death. She is so kind and generous but she just can't get though a day on a diet or fitness plan. And to be honest...Sometimes it scares me that someday soon I will be the same. I already slack so much. Although I have loss weight I can see myself slipping a bit more with each passing week. I somedays know when I'm slipping and I don't stop myself. Then I'll have to go the next 3 days to try and make up for it.I think for the most part now I know when I am cheating. I just need to be able to control myself. Most of the time I manage toresist. Next time she complains about how she's not losing, I'mtempted to tell her that I'm not surprised. :PYou know if you did it in a nice way she might appreciate it. Sometimes hearing something like that coming from someone you love helps. She may not even realize how much she is cheating. Anyway...here I go again--my new week starts today. No excuses, novisits with my mom ending up badly, no going out to eat, etc. In theend, I'll be fine (But I wouldn't turn down some positive vibesthrown my way )Good Luck Girl! All I can say is we are all hoping the best for you as we do our own struggles. You have been one that I love to keep a watch on in this group as I think you have been doing so good. You inspire me when I feel low. You will get over the small bumps in the road soon and will be on the straight downhill run soon.

As a last note. One of my goals was to fit into a smaller pant size. Where as I can get into those smaller size pants now they still don't "fit" and are way too tight. I feel as if I have failed that goal because I wanted to get into the smaller size before having to purchase more clothes. Well, That isnt gonna happen. I noticed last night my Jeans have worn holes in the inner thigh(of, course....where else) so the next time I'm out I have to purchase another pair of jeans and in my same size I have been. Almost made me wanna cry. But I tried to remind myself it's my fault. I'm the one who isnt being stricter with myself to get this weight off. I sure wanted the next time I bought jeans to be able to go one size smaller.

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From: " brgk44 " <brgk44@...>

> to Ben so off she goes to get an order of cinnamon breadsticks.

Argh. Those things are hard to resist. You've been doing so great. You're

just stumbling a bit and you need to get back on track. You can do it!

Ann

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Hey Bonnie~

Hang in there. You are doing a great job and I think if/when we all master the relatives, stress, etc things will go so much easier for all of us! Mom needs to learn to quit doing that to you. In the meantime, just say "no thank you" best you can and make some semblance of good choices while you are at it. And, your baby only turns 5 once LOL.... ;-)

Mine will be 10, 12 and 14 this year... growing like weeds.