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Hi all. I am really enjoying this group. reading all the post and learning that I am not the only one that feels the way I do! I want to lose this weight so much that I just feel like I am failing myself with every thing I put in my mouth. I get on the scale several times a day, it really does keep me from wanting to eat more then I need.. because I hate to see the number going up.. even though I know it does that during the day and fluctuate from day to day... I can't look in the mirror at myself. I can't stand to undress in front of my husband.. it's really hard to act sexy when I don't feel it. ya know? today I had two hard boiled eggs, (one with the yoke, one without) two slices of whole grain, sugar free, toast with homemade strawberry jam lunch I had a cup of french vanilla cafe coffee. umm (sugar

free) and just a bit ago I had two small pieces of chicken fingers.(left over from Zaxby's) to make up for no lunch.. ) I took my puppy for his 1/2 mile walk.. he tried to drag me and trip me most the way.. and it's cold today! even for us southern folks. don't have a clue what I'll have for supper tonight.. I really have no urge to eat anything at all. it's so hard to be patient with losing the weight. I am tired of feeling worthless and being so down on myself... Anyway... Thank you all for being so open. it really helps me and I am sure everyone else here, to know we are not alone! even when we feel like we are.. __________________________________________________

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Just be careful and be sure to eat enough. You don't want your body to go into starvation mode.

-HeidiOn 2/9/06, helovesmethin <helovesmethin@...> wrote:

Hi all. I am really enjoying this group. reading all the post and learning that I am not the only one that feels the way I do! I

want to lose this weight so much that I just feel like I am failing

myself with every thing I put in my mouth. I get on the scale

several times a day, it really does keep me from wanting to eat more

then I need.. because I hate to see the number going up.. even though I

know it does that during the day and fluctuate from day to day... I can't look in the mirror at myself. I can't stand to undress in front of my husband.. it's really hard to act sexy when I don't feel it. ya know? today I had two hard boiled eggs, (one with the yoke, one without) two slices of whole grain, sugar free, toast with homemade strawberry jam lunch I had a cup of french vanilla cafe coffee. umm (sugar

free) and just a bit ago I had two small pieces of chicken fingers.(left over from Zaxby's) to make up for no lunch.. ) I took my puppy for his 1/2 mile walk.. he tried to drag me and trip me most the way..

and it's cold today! even for us southern folks. don't

have a clue what I'll have for supper tonight.. I really have no

urge to eat anything at all. it's so hard to be patient with losing the

weight. I am tired of feeling worthless and being so down on

myself... Anyway... Thank you all for being so open. it really helps me and I am sure everyone else here, to know we are not alone! even when we feel like we are..

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I am really glad you are liking the group. dont beat yourself up, just take baby steps and one day at a time. Walking the dog was great!!

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I can't look in the mirror at myself. I can't stand to undress in front of my husband..it's really hard to act sexy when I don't feel it. ya know? For a long time I had a hard time looking in the mirror. I still don't really like what I see when I look in there, but I don't avoid mirrors any more. I took my puppy for his 1/2 mile walk.. he tried to drag me and trip me most the way..and it's cold today! even for us southern folks. I just love puppies. I have a cat, but if anything ever happens to her then my husband and I might consider getting a puppy. In my apartment building we are only allowed to have one dog or up to two cats. We just have one cat. She doesn't like other animals. She is spoiled and wants all the attention. I am tired of feeling worthless and being so down on myself... I know the feeling. I have felt so worthless and put down on myself most of my adult life. I just don't want to feel this way any more. 340/300.8/299

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It is nice to know that others share and understand our feelings. I do my morning weigh ins to keep 'aware', I don't let it make me crazy though. ooooooo Zaxby's - when I visit my sister in SC - I have to go there for wings LOL. I have to wait about 5 months before I I can hopefully go visit Please let the negative feelings go - they're only getting in the way. Find something positive to say about yourseelf today and focus on your good points.helovesmethin <helovesmethin@...> wrote: Hi all. I am really enjoying this group. reading all the post and learning that I am not the only one that feels the way I do! I want to lose this weight so much that I just feel like I am failing myself with every thing I put in my mouth. I get on the scale several times a day, it really does keep me from wanting to eat more then I

need.. because I hate to see the number going up.. even though I know it does that during the day and fluctuate from day to day...I can't look in the mirror at myself. I can't stand to undress in front of my husband..it's really hard to act sexy when I don't feel it. ya know? today I had two hard boiled eggs, (one with the yoke, one without) two slices of whole grain, sugar free, toast with homemade strawberry jam lunch I had a cup of french vanilla cafe coffee. umm (sugar free) and just a bit ago I had two small pieces of chicken fingers.(left over from Zaxby's) to make up for no lunch.. ) I took my puppy for his 1/2 mile walk.. he tried to drag me and trip me most the way.. and it's cold today! even for us southern folks. don't have a clue what I'll have for supper tonight.. I really have no urge to eat anything at all. it's so hard to be patient with losing the weight. I am tired of feeling worthless and being so down on myself...

Anyway... Thank you all for being so open. it really helps me and I am sure everyone else here, to know we are not alone! even when we feel like we are.. Live, Love, Laugh