Guest guest Posted December 12, 2004 Report Share Posted December 12, 2004 Hang in there. We are all here for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 12, 2004 Report Share Posted December 12, 2004 Things are really bad at the moment :-( I can manage to eat about 3 sandwiches a day and that's it. I have lost 8 pounds in two weeks and I know I have to call my doc again. But it is freaking me out though ! My last stay in the hospital is still very fresh in my mind and the only thing I can do when I think about a repeat is cry ! I cry all day long :-( I cannot understand why this is happening to me........why can't I enjoy life and esp, enjoy my young family !!! My little boy is celebrating his first birthday this thursday and I cannot even take a bit of his birthdaycake !!! Why am I robbed of special moments like that !?!?!?! It is just not fair. I have sooo many questions and no-one can answer them ! Having achalasia is so frustrating. I really thought that the Heller would improve my life and I could start being a mom for my little boy and start taking care of him. But no ! Horrible achalasia is ruining things once again !!!!! All my dreams & hopes are just shattered !! Well, here I go again.........the tests, probably dilation.......maybe 2nd heller or removal of my esophagus. Oh, how wonderfull ! NOT !!! I cannot see any of those things bringing any improvement anymore. I am just sooooooooooooooooooo scared !! I wanna scream HELP but there is no-one out there who can help me ! I feel so lost. I just wanna crawl into a corner and fade away. Just disappear. I'd better go. Edwin will be home soon. Jasper is staying at his grandparents 'till wednesday. I feel like calling my mom now. Hugs, Biancka Attachment: vcard [not shown] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 13, 2004 Report Share Posted December 13, 2004 Biancka wrote: .... I cannot see any of those things bringing any improvement anymore. .... Hello, Biancka. I believe the day is coming when you will be better. I believe there will be a treatment and you will be better. Sure, it is easy for me to say. Even so, I do believe. notan Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 13, 2004 Report Share Posted December 13, 2004 Hi Bianka Sorry to hear that things still arent going so well. Hang in there you will get through it, try to be positive. I know it is so hard. Things are going down hill for me as well. My symptoms are getting worse, I still dont have a surgery date, my husband broke his foot and I have to look after our three kids all by myself while he is on the couch and to top it all off I feel like I am coming down with a cold. I just keep telling myself that it cant get worse and that things have to get better. Look after yourself Bianka. Biljana > Things are really bad at the moment :-( I can manage to eat about 3 sandwiches a day and that's it. I have lost 8 pounds in two weeks and I know I have to call my doc again. But it is freaking me out though ! My last stay in the hospital is still very fresh in my mind and the only thing I can do when I think about a repeat is cry ! I cry all day long :-( I cannot understand why this is happening to me........why can't I enjoy life and esp, enjoy my young family !!! My little boy is celebrating his first birthday this thursday and I cannot even take a bit of his birthdaycake !!! Why am I robbed of special moments like that !?!?!?! It is just not fair. I have sooo many questions and no-one can answer them ! Having achalasia is so frustrating. I really thought that the Heller would improve my life and I could start being a mom for my little boy and start taking care of him. But no ! Horrible achalasia is ruining things once again !!!!! All my dreams & hopes are just shattered !! > > Well, here I go again.........the tests, probably dilation.......maybe 2nd heller or removal of my esophagus. Oh, how wonderfull ! NOT !!! I cannot see any of those things bringing any improvement anymore. > > I am just sooooooooooooooooooo scared !! I wanna scream HELP but there is no-one out there who can help me ! I feel so lost. I just wanna crawl into a corner and fade away. Just disappear. > > I'd better go. Edwin will be home soon. Jasper is staying at his grandparents 'till wednesday. I feel like calling my mom now. > > Hugs, > > Biancka Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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