I need to vent....

[Guest guest]

I am 23yrs old, dx with CML April 2006 just a few days after my

son's first birthday. I have had to deal with a lot of medical

issues since he was born. I got DVTs in both legs while I was

pregnant, but they weren't discovered untill I was in lobor. I had

to take blood thiners and was on pain killers for a little over six

months. I'm free of blood clots (for now...)and I was able to enjoy

Thanksgiving and Christmas that year drug free! But now I am trying

to deal with CML. I feel tired all of the time! I think it's a

little from the Gleevec(400mg)I take and a little from the

depression I feel. Well I'm not sure if it's depression as much as

it's frustration. I think I have bad blood or something. I want to

beat this, but I am afraid that something else life threatening will

happen to me! I just want to focus on my son. I lost most of his

first year because I was over medicated, and so I have been lying to

my family and doctor about my pain as to avoid the same thing from

happening. I try to take over the counter drugs for pain...it helps

but the pain comes back before I can take another dose. My doctor

says that I feel tired because I am a mother of a (almost)2yr old.

But my husband helps out all of the time, so I don't think that's

it. I am sorry about the " complaining " I just feel I have to be

brave for my family so this was all kind of built up for the past 7

months.

Thank you for your time and for listening.

in Reno, NV