Re: i suck

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In a message dated 7/4/2006 1:38:51 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time,

mbeyzay@... writes:

//It is 4:30pm and I already had 1500 cals. //

Beyza,

You answered the question to your problem yourself, 1500 calories is too

much and it was only 4:30 and you probably still had dinner to add on to that.

Is your band properly filled? I can tell you with my band being properly

filled there is no way I could possibly eat that many calories unless I was

eating liquid calories, it just could not go down any other way.

Since my last fill I have been fighting the food demons. I am not hungry,

but my head tells me I need to be munching on something and with my fill it

has been interesting to say the least. I have done ok, but I am not perfect

Today we had friends over for a pool party. I made tons of food (do you ever

feel like you are killing your friends with food?!? I couldn't help thinking

that while I was preparing everything...) but I did not feel deprived of

anything. I took a bite of this and a bite of that and I was done and it was

ok.

I also have that feeling of not really knowing when to stop eating and when

the last bite should be the last bite. I found that if I removed the food

from my face it is out of sight out of mind. I NEVER leave food on my plate

for later, it gets scraped off into the garbage immediately so I do not tempt

to go back to it, because trust me I will.

Keep truckin! You can do it!

Kim

401/250 DS 5/5/02

250/210/140 Banded 1/16/06

pre/now/goal

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Beyza, you know all the things you need to do. Now you ned to figure

out why you can't or don't really want to do them.

I believe ALL of us could benefit from some good counselling from a

therapist. WE all have eating issues , or we would not have become so

fat. we need to look honestly at them, understand them, and choose

other pathsto meet our emotional needs.

The psychological stuff is, imo, by FAR the hardest part of banding.

we all ate to meet emotional needs, and we have to change that if we

hope to do well longterm with the band.

The band will never make us stop eating the foods that made us fat in

the first place, and we don't emphasize that nearly well enough.

In my own case, Guided Imagery was a huge help with all the emotional

issues. It's a proven way to make behavioral changes, and - just like

the band - is well-used in Europe and many other countries, but

poorly utilized here.

more info on this website, if you're interested: .

www.BandsterME.com

Please email me, and I'll send you other info too.

These issues are very hard, for sure.

Sandy R

>

> Here is what is going on with my band. I am at 7.5cc with my SWAGB.

> I was banded on Dec 14/ 2005. I was 330 pre-op and now am yo-yoing

> between 296 and 300lbs. I am stuck at 300lbs since March almost. A

> trip to Boston and a cottage, both involved drinking, messed my

> weight loss up big time.

>

> Now I am trying to get back on track. I still eat fast and end up

> pbing at least once a day. I feel my eyes are not calibrated to my

> stomach. Even if I am full, I end up reaching for that last bite.

>

> I was drinking lots of Ice Tea and stopped that. The only thing I

> can't give up is my morning coffee with 1 cream, 2 sugar. I hate

> aspartame, splenda, and all that stuff. I just drink water instead.

>

> BUT, I still don't loose. I do yoga once a week. I know I have to

> start doing cardio exercise. That might be the reason I am not

> loosing. Right now I get no exercise other than yoga and walking

> twice a week.

>

> Everything bad goes down smoothly throught the band. Donuts,

> cookies, soft drinks, fatty cheeses. Oh, but the moment I get my

> lean protein, it sure as hell gets stuck. That pisses me off too.

>

> I was using fitday religously. I gave up for awhile. Now I am back

> on it again. It is 4:30pm and I already had 1500 cals.

>

> I am extremely frustrated with myself for not following the rules

> properly. This is why all my diets failed so far and looks like I

am

> messing up this one too.

>

> I just wanted to share it with you.

> Thanks

> Beyza

>

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Hello,

Thank you very much to all of you for your replies and

encouragements.

I am back on track as of today. Last night, after going home, I

closed the day with 3000cals. Way over my goal. Today I have been

more careful. I was 296lbs when I woke up this morning. It is 4:30pm

again and i had 800 cals so far.

I have to focus on my choices and focus on eating slow. I know that

already. The hard part is actually doing it.

I don't blame the band for my failure. The band is not able to do

its job because of my lack of dedication. I guess I always thought

the band would end my worries about food and eating and I would

never have to think about weight loss, band would do it for me. I

now understand that that is not the case. I actually have to work on

it.

I have been dealing with depression since I was 17 and am minor-

moderate bipolar. I have been on anti-depressants since I was 17. I

am also seeing a psychiatrist regularly. I would think that should

help with the emotional eating but it is not. Other than Yoga and

trying to relax and meditate, I am not sure how to deal with

emotional eating, to be honest.

I know you all have done it and all your success is a great

inspiration. I need to get out of my vicious cycle...

I haven't seen my doctor for awhile. I talk to Kathy P. at TLBC and

the support groups on the groups. I haven't been to support

meetings due to my work schedule. So far, everyone I talk to, tell

me its not the band, its me. I understand that and am working on it

but it is really hard when dealing with depression,

hyperinsulinemia, hypothyroid and a hectic work schedule.

Thanks again.

Beyza

> >

> > Here is what is going on with my band. I am at 7.5cc with my

SWAGB.

> > I was banded on Dec 14/ 2005. I was 330 pre-op and now am yo-

yoing

> > between 296 and 300lbs. I am stuck at 300lbs since March almost.

A

> > trip to Boston and a cottage, both involved drinking, messed my

> > weight loss up big time.

> >

> > Now I am trying to get back on track. I still eat fast and end

up

> > pbing at least once a day. I feel my eyes are not calibrated to

my

> > stomach. Even if I am full, I end up reaching for that last

bite.

> >

> > I was drinking lots of Ice Tea and stopped that. The only thing

I

> > can't give up is my morning coffee with 1 cream, 2 sugar. I hate

> > aspartame, splenda, and all that stuff. I just drink water

instead.

> >

> > BUT, I still don't loose. I do yoga once a week. I know I have

to

> > start doing cardio exercise. That might be the reason I am not

> > loosing. Right now I get no exercise other than yoga and walking

> > twice a week.

> >

> > Everything bad goes down smoothly throught the band. Donuts,

> > cookies, soft drinks, fatty cheeses. Oh, but the moment I get my

> > lean protein, it sure as hell gets stuck. That pisses me off

too.

> >

> > I was using fitday religously. I gave up for awhile. Now I am

back

> > on it again. It is 4:30pm and I already had 1500 cals.

> >

> > I am extremely frustrated with myself for not following the

rules

> > properly. This is why all my diets failed so far and looks like

I

> am

> > messing up this one too.

> >

> > I just wanted to share it with you.

> > Thanks

> > Beyza

> >

>

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Wednesday, July 5, 2006, 2:21:05 PM, you wrote:

> I have been dealing with depression since I was 17 and am minor-

> moderate bipolar. I have been on anti-depressants since I was 17. I

> am also seeing a psychiatrist regularly. I would think that should

> help with the emotional eating but it is not.

Most psychiatrists are NOT experienced, or even particularly

knowledgable, with eating disorders. How do I know? Spending over a

thousand a month in 1980 dollars for a shrink for my then wife, who

was and still is anorexic/bulimic/alcoholic/cutter. He fouhd out all

the reasons she had those issues....but didn't know diddly about

helping to solve them with behavior changes.

But, in general, you need to find a counselor who is experienced with

eating disorders....and if your doctor can't help you with one(I would

surely hope that s/he could), then start the search through phone

book, whatever.

And part of it is emotions, part of it is just plain habit....

dan

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Dr. Ortiz, Tijuana, 4/28/03

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