Guest guest Posted March 11, 2004 Report Share Posted March 11, 2004 Hi ya Brynn ~ ~ So glad you responded !!!! What you wrote has been very helpful for me and I appreciate your openness and honesty in trying to help us all *smiles* !!!!!!! About the Lexapro causing the inability to put sentences together and wrecking havoc with cognitive abilities, I agree totally !!!! I was supposed to take a telephone test today for a potential position and I declined for fear that I could not make myself understood. I do better with the written word tests, gives me time to think. I feel, for the most part that my mind is vacant. I am used to a frenzy of thoughts all at one time and I could organize and think things through but now......... I am like ......... dumbo the elephant. I have been creeping down on my Lexapro (against doc's orders) and so far I am eliminating the daytime sleepiness (YAH) and getting back some of my cognitive processes (YAH) and feeling like a human being and not just a giant pill factory and my driving is not soo scary now. I have been thinking of the Strattera alot and so may approach my doc about that one. Thank you for your recommendation. If I wasn't actively looking for a job I might start on the Lamicatl but I can't tolerate new drugs and a new job all at the same time. That combo, as I have found in the past, doesn't work. Somedays I can seem to get a hugh amount of organizational work accomplished but that is one out of 10 or more days. Zyprexa and I don't get along, way to sedating for me. The drugs that did a wonder job for my mind and clears out the cobwebs are: Risperdol, Lithium, Celexa but I can't tolerate the sides. I know the Celexa was far better for my mind than the Lexapro. For me, there is a hugh difference between the Celexa and Lexapro. I would be on the Celexa for about 3 days and I would get soo much done and them boom..... the sides would hit me. So, when I felt dis-organized I would take some Celexa and be able to get alot done. I did this dance for about 3 years. Agreed, I have to live on medication, like I have to live in therapy and all probably for the rest of my life. This has taken a long time to come to terms with. It would be easier if I had a broken leg and lived with a limp the rest of my life than to try to mend a broken mind. I told my therapist the other day that I was soo tired of being me and soo tired of all this stuff I have to deal with. It is just not fair, not fair, not fair, not fair, not fair. After 53 years of dealing with all this, it get's to ya. It seems I have tried every medicine known to man and nothing works !!!!!!!! Sigh. What is depressing is that .... will I have to deal with this for the remaining days of my life and when will I get a chance to enjoy life ????? Dana Rose Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 11, 2004 Report Share Posted March 11, 2004 Hey Dana.. glad to be of help I know i've been through the ringer and i am only 21 years old.. so i figure might as well share what i have learned so that others can benefit from it . and i can totally relate 100% with the being tired of being me statement.. and what sucks is that i've got sooooo long to go.. it's so hard living in a mind you can't' stand... or is it my mind that can't stand me? i dunno.. either way it's a poopy way to live and i've got a wayys to go yet. .haha i'm gonna try and make the best of it.. unfortunately the brain seems to get worse as the years slip by.. at least that's been the case for me perhaps it also comes with growing up and having more responsibilities as well.. enough to drive even a sane person nuts.. haha.. but yeah, i've struggled with this stuff since as far back as i can remember... age 5?? enough of my babbling.. haha It's funny that you should mention tapering off of lex.. and finding success.. because i have been doing the same.. i am now at 5mg.. and so far so good.. i am actually functioning again.. leaving the house.. it's weird though cause i did the same thing this last summer.. i had such a terrible time with lex.. that i just decided to boot it all together and at first i felt ok.. i wasnt depressed and i wasn't all lethargic... but then i guess when it alll got out of my system i went loopy again.. like literally loopy (panic attacky and stuff and crying tons and racing brain).. it was crazy.. so i guess if i just try and keep a bit in my system at a time i will be okay... I would really like to try wellbutrin.. it's a norepinephrine and dopamine reuptake inhibitor it's for depression, but tends to be better for ADD type people who have cognitive probs witht he SSRIs.. but i guess you have to be careful cause it causes alot of people to get really anxious and jittery at first... and my doc told me it is contraindicated with Strattera.. meaning that taking both of them at the same time is okay, but not necessarily recommended because they both have similar mechanisms... ugh.. so here i am tootin along on my three draiining meds.. haha i think i could use the stimulating action of the wellbutrin right about now. haha.. like you, i get pretty zonked on the zyprexa... it's interesting that you like celexa.. i really dont know. i didnt have such a good time with it.. but i dont have a good time with any of these SSRI's when using them without something to keep my stabilized.. but anyhow.. you'll have to keep me updated.. are you planning on just trying to keep a small dosage of lex? or are you going to taper off completely? what about the stabilizer? are you gonna ask your doc about lamictal?? sorry for all of the questions. haha i am just curious to know how you are doing *Brynn* In a message dated 03/11/2004 2:49:05 PM Pacific Standard Time, danarose1950@... writes: > Hi ya Brynn ~ ~ So glad you responded !!!! What you wrote has been > very helpful for me and I appreciate your openness and honesty in > trying to help us all *smiles* !!!!!!! > > About the Lexapro causing the inability to put sentences together and > wrecking havoc with cognitive abilities, I agree totally !!!! I was > supposed to take a telephone test today for a potential position and > I declined for fear that I could not make myself understood. I do > better with the written word tests, gives me time to think. I feel, > for the most part that my mind is vacant. I am used to a frenzy of > thoughts all at one time and I could organize and think things > through but now......... I am like ......... dumbo the elephant. > > I have been creeping down on my Lexapro (against doc's orders) and so > far I am eliminating the daytime sleepiness (YAH) and getting back > some of my cognitive processes (YAH) and feeling like a human being > and not just a giant pill factory and my driving is not soo scary now. > > I have been thinking of the Strattera alot and so may approach my doc > about that one. Thank you for your recommendation. If I wasn't > actively looking for a job I might start on the Lamicatl but I can't > tolerate new drugs and a new job all at the same time. That combo, as > I have found in the past, doesn't work. Somedays I can seem to get a > hugh amount of organizational work accomplished but that is one out > of 10 or more days. > > Zyprexa and I don't get along, way to sedating for me. The drugs > that did a wonder job for my mind and clears out the cobwebs are: > Risperdol, Lithium, Celexa but I can't tolerate the sides. I know > the Celexa was far better for my mind than the Lexapro. For me, there > is a hugh difference between the Celexa and Lexapro. I would be on > the Celexa for about 3 days and I would get soo much done and them > boom..... the sides would hit me. So, when I felt dis-organized I > would take some Celexa and be able to get alot done. I did this > dance for about 3 years. > > Agreed, I have to live on medication, like I have to live in therapy > and all probably for the rest of my life. This has taken a long time > to come to terms with. It would be easier if I had a broken leg and > lived with a limp the rest of my life than to try to mend a broken > mind. > > I told my therapist the other day that I was soo tired of being me > and soo tired of all this stuff I have to deal with. It is just not > fair, not fair, not fair, not fair, not fair. After 53 years of > dealing with all this, it get's to ya. It seems I have tried every > medicine known to man and nothing works !!!!!!!! Sigh. What is > depressing is that .... will I have to deal with this for the > remaining days of my life and when will I get a chance to enjoy > life ????? > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 12, 2004 Report Share Posted March 12, 2004 Hi Brynn ~ ~ Since my job market is picking up and I feel that I will be able to go back to work very soon, it is too late to start on any new meds The two don't mix well - new job and new med. But I have the prescription of the Lamictal and am going to hold onto it just in case. Right now I am down to 1.25 mg of Lex, 1 mg of Pamelor and .25 mg of Klonopin, plus my asthma meds and Zantac. Since I am ultra sensitive to any medication my theraputic range is significant low. The Pamelor was added for control over my panic and anxiety, it works on norepinephrine and is being considered as part of the new dual medication for Lexapro which works on serotonin. The combination is working very nicely right now, no sides at all. Yesterday I was able to go on a job interview and make myself understood, stay in the present and not get nervous. I also went grocery shopping without any problems and felt relaxed which was a first. I too have had this since I could remember, age 5 ??? LOL. My mom drank and smoked all the way through her pregnancy but that was back in the 50's and who didn't back then ?? I grew up with ADHD, OCD, panic attacks and severe anxiety, migraines, dizzy spells, breathing difficulties (which later was diagnosed as asthma), seizure activity, cognitive and learning difficulties. To comment on my learning difficulties, on one of my report cards, my teacher commented that when he called on me, I just stared at him as if I was vacant minded. This, I think was also part of dissociation due to my childhood trauma and abuse. My grades were D's and F's all the way through school, lots of summer school and tutoring all year round. However, when I went to college, I sat in the front row and could hear and see the board that the teacher wrote on. My grades rose to B's and some A's. When I was in grade school, my maiden name caused me to be in the back row. I could not see the board as I had an eye problem no one picked up on until college, as well as hearing. Also the smell of books gave me migraines and headaches/nausea. Then I was always put beside a window and my ADD kept me dreaming all day long. At home, my ADHD caused my mom to abuse me and I was just called the weird one and the dumb one and so I accepted that, as how would I know any different. The drug of choice back in the 50's was phenobarbitol, in the 60's was valium, in the 70's was another drug I have forgotten, in the 80's was Pamelor and in the 90's and 2000's are all the drugs I am currently on. So, psychiatric drugs and myself are no stranger, sadly. Dana Rose > Hey Dana.. glad to be of help I know i've been through the ringer and i am > only 21 years old.. so i figure might as well share what i have learned so > that others can benefit from it . and i can totally relate 100% with the being > tired of being me statement.. and what sucks is that i've got sooooo long to > go.. it's so hard living in a mind you can't' stand... or is it my mind that > can't stand me? i dunno.. either way it's a poopy way to live and i've got a > wayys to go yet. .haha i'm gonna try and make the best of it.. unfortunately the > brain seems to get worse as the years slip by.. at least that's been the case > for me perhaps it also comes with growing up and having more > responsibilities as well.. enough to drive even a sane person nuts.. haha.. but yeah, i've > struggled with this stuff since as far back as i can remember... age 5?? > enough of my babbling.. haha > > It's funny that you should mention tapering off of lex.. and finding > success.. because i have been doing the same.. i am now at 5mg.. and so far so good.. > i am actually functioning again.. leaving the house.. it's weird though cause > i did the same thing this last summer.. i had such a terrible time with lex.. > that i just decided to boot it all together and at first i felt ok.. i wasnt > depressed and i wasn't all lethargic... but then i guess when it alll got out > of my system i went loopy again.. like literally loopy (panic attacky and stuff > and crying tons and racing brain).. it was crazy.. so i guess if i just try > and keep a bit in my system at a time i will be okay... I would really like to > try wellbutrin.. it's a norepinephrine and dopamine reuptake inhibitor it's > for depression, but tends to be better for ADD type people who have cognitive > probs witht he SSRIs.. but i guess you have to be careful cause it causes alot > of people to get really anxious and jittery at first... and my doc told me it > is contraindicated with Strattera.. meaning that taking both of them at the > same time is okay, but not necessarily recommended because they both have similar > mechanisms... ugh.. so here i am tootin along on my three draiining meds.. > haha i think i could use the stimulating action of the wellbutrin right about > now. haha.. like you, i get pretty zonked on the zyprexa... it's interesting > that you like celexa.. i really dont know. i didnt have such a good time with > it.. but i dont have a good time with any of these SSRI's when using them > without something to keep my stabilized.. but anyhow.. you'll have to keep me > updated.. are you planning on just trying to keep a small dosage of lex? or are > you going to taper off completely? what about the stabilizer? are you gonna ask > your doc about lamictal?? > > sorry for all of the questions. haha i am just curious to know how you are > doing > > *Brynn* > > > In a message dated 03/11/2004 2:49:05 PM Pacific Standard Time, > danarose1950@y... writes: > > > > Hi ya Brynn ~ ~ So glad you responded !!!! What you wrote has been > > very helpful for me and I appreciate your openness and honesty in > > trying to help us all *smiles* !!!!!!! > > > > About the Lexapro causing the inability to put sentences together and > > wrecking havoc with cognitive abilities, I agree totally !!!! I was > > supposed to take a telephone test today for a potential position and > > I declined for fear that I could not make myself understood. I do > > better with the written word tests, gives me time to think. I feel, > > for the most part that my mind is vacant. I am used to a frenzy of > > thoughts all at one time and I could organize and think things > > through but now......... I am like ......... dumbo the elephant. > > > > I have been creeping down on my Lexapro (against doc's orders) and so > > far I am eliminating the daytime sleepiness (YAH) and getting back > > some of my cognitive processes (YAH) and feeling like a human being > > and not just a giant pill factory and my driving is not soo scary now. > > > > I have been thinking of the Strattera alot and so may approach my doc > > about that one. Thank you for your recommendation. If I wasn't > > actively looking for a job I might start on the Lamicatl but I can't > > tolerate new drugs and a new job all at the same time. That combo, as > > I have found in the past, doesn't work. Somedays I can seem to get a > > hugh amount of organizational work accomplished but that is one out > > of 10 or more days. > > > > Zyprexa and I don't get along, way to sedating for me. The drugs > > that did a wonder job for my mind and clears out the cobwebs are: > > Risperdol, Lithium, Celexa but I can't tolerate the sides. I know > > the Celexa was far better for my mind than the Lexapro. For me, there > > is a hugh difference between the Celexa and Lexapro. I would be on > > the Celexa for about 3 days and I would get soo much done and them > > boom..... the sides would hit me. So, when I felt dis-organized I > > would take some Celexa and be able to get alot done. I did this > > dance for about 3 years. > > > > Agreed, I have to live on medication, like I have to live in therapy > > and all probably for the rest of my life. This has taken a long time > > to come to terms with. It would be easier if I had a broken leg and > > lived with a limp the rest of my life than to try to mend a broken > > mind. > > > > I told my therapist the other day that I was soo tired of being me > > and soo tired of all this stuff I have to deal with. It is just not > > fair, not fair, not fair, not fair, not fair. After 53 years of > > dealing with all this, it get's to ya. It seems I have tried every > > medicine known to man and nothing works !!!!!!!! Sigh. What is > > depressing is that .... will I have to deal with this for the > > remaining days of my life and when will I get a chance to enjoy > > life ????? > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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