I'm Back Online

[Guest guest]

Hi Everyone

Just wanted to let you all know that I am back online and didn't

forget you all. Everytime we move I always end up offline for 2

weeks because of line faults etc with the stupid telephone company

that they try to blame on my equipment.

Anyway the kids and I are all moved into our new home and it feels

good and safe and is a wonderful spot near the water with pines and

a walking track and play area for the kids.

I still miss Carl heaps and have some tears daily but it is easier

and I have received lots of answers to questions about things I

wasn't sure on a spiritual level. I have a beautiful close friend

(sister) who I've shared tears and laughter with only trouble is she

lives far away too but we are very close and our connection is

unbelievable.

Carl's family have been wonderful but his mum is a bit of handful -

very demanding.

Carl has been gone for 8 weeks now and it is getting a little easier

and I am getting on with my life without feeling guilty because I

know he would want me to be happy. Kids and I play at the park and I

swing and slide with them and I've even been riding Dylan's bike

around.

I'm slowly getting my eating back on track although I have a long

way to go but have made great improvements. I am weight training

daily and boxing too punching and kicking the every morning. It's

almost like I have my own personal training angel because I'm really

getting into it.

For my 38th birthday in early September Mum and Dad bought me a gold

heart locket with a four leaf clover on it and pictures of Carl and

I inside - now that made me cry.

My little princess had her first birthday n Friday 22nd

September too and we had a party for her on Saturday.

Well that's about it doing OK and working my way back to raw.

Love

Tracey