Feeling Inside -- wrote

June 3, 2006

Hi Everyone,

Below is what emailed me. She wanted you to see it. It may help

you understand how your child may feel and how they deal with thing's.

Robbin

This world is so big

but yet I've seen most of this world

through TV or by plane or car

But I know I am lucky in someway's

I understand why I am lucky, I'm alive and I am able to move

There are kids even adults are just their not able to see or move, or even

feel

Don't get me wrong I have my days where I have been in their place even worse

But I don't think about the days I am in a wheelchair ,a bed or even a

hospital

All I think about is what I haven't seen

and what I have missed or been missing

I love places far a way to me it's as close to heaven I wanna be right now

All I want to do is live life to the fullest

Animals are most dearest to me because all they care about is your love for

them

Not that you can't walk or even what you look like but that you are there

for them

I have 4 cats and when I am in pain they know just what to do to make me

feel better

People don't Know how animals affect people like me

It's a feeling we can't explain

just like the pain

You can feel it but you sometimes can't say how it feels and all you know is

that it hurts

just like some one told me once

You can feel the wind, But yet you can't see it

It's kind of like the pain I have

I can feel it but no one can see it

People feel in closed when they feel pain

They feel as if they are the only ones with pain

But I know how this works

I have been there a few times

but I have found a place of peace of mind

and that is to fight back

Because living life weak is feeling

Angry,Self in closed and Depression

People have to fight Emotions, Pain, And even doctors

People have to try and make pain work in your life and that takes time

Pain is something people don't like and they don't like seeing or watching it

You have to be strong to fight the pain

One thing I hate the most is to feel helpless

I think that most kids and people feel the same way

I hate it when I can't do nothing for myself

You get angry at yourself when this happens

How I sometimes avoid this is by music and god's earth and animals

I love watching birds fly, To me birds are the symbol of freedom

Horses are a symbol of freedom and spirit of courage and strength

A Deer is a symbol of peace. You ever wonder why we get caught looking into

a deer's eyes

it's the feeling of freedom

Just like other animals every animal has a meaning of something or a symbol

It's whats inside of the animal that draws you to it

All of this leads to something I don't know why animals are there for us but

whatever it is works

All I can say about having pain is that it's not easy and it gets worse as

the years go by

I used to be able to do a lot of things like play football, skate, play

baseball, volley ball,a whole lot more then this but now all I can do is sleep,

walk around a little, watch animals and listen to music and swim every day.

Something new happens to me and If i walk or do something big like going to a

concert i will be in pain for days or even weeks but I get up I walk a little

even if I am in pain and basic stuff i normally do until my JRA knocks me

down But my main saying is STAND- which means stand until you can't stand

anymore

I have seen people that are dying and have cancer and are dying they have

all said to me never give up

Stand for what you believe in

Always,

June 3, 2006

Robbin:

I printed this off and had Hannah read it. She is not feeling so great

tonight and in fact read it while she was getting her nebulizer treatment. She

LOVED it! She wanted to thank for describing so well how she often

feels.

Beth

Happy Thoughts..Be Well

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