Battle Fatigue

[Guest guest]

I returned from the VA hospital about two hours ago. It was good that I came

home because I had battle fatigue. I was ready to take on the whole hospital

staff and my dear husband.

I almost lost him twice after he had lung cancer, needle therapy. His lung

collapsed and air seeped into his body cavities. They put an air pump in his

chest. This worked for a few hours and then the air flooded his body, after the

pump clogged from coagulated blood. My dh's face grew to three times its normal

size.

He began gasping for breath. They gave him an air treatment and left. Within

an hour my dh was almost dead. He had major air leaks and his throat closed to

near death. I ran for the nurse and emergency treatment. They caught him in time

and his life was saved.

Saved? I think not....yet. After he stabilized today I had a nice chat with

him. I told him that he can go on the immune building system eating plan with me

as I cannot be put under such stress much longer when I know there is a better

option for him. I told him he had to " Go or get off the pot. " He isn't happy

about my new boundaries for myself but he is agreeing...somewhat. I bought him

his coke and he drank it.

I left him with the hospital foods which had three desserts on the tray each

meal.

There were a lot of gooey pasta dishes and 1/4 cup of vegetables.

He never ate in front of me so they brought him Ensure and other goodies like

that.

It sounds controlling but what am I to do when his food choices almost kill my

good health?

I told him that if it was only disabling him I would not complain but I am

exhausted from not being able to eat properly. I am exhausted from sleeping all

night in a waiting room chair. I am exhausted from having people tell me that I

must let him eat whatever he wants and dedicate myself to taking care of his

illnesses. I am exhausted from this happening to my husband and many around me

who will not listen. I am exhausteed from them wanting me to nurse them back to

health.

I am going to get tough and tell them unless they follow the immune building

eating plan that I am unable to enable them. They now think I am a cold type

person but hey....I think y'all understand.

I have had to go into neutral in my caring because when a person gives so much

sympathy then the ill one tends to be nurtured on the sympathy rather than

solutions.

AGain...thanks for letting me rant. I also need help in drawing a line and not

allowing it to go squiggly. I am ready to head off into the woods and live with

the black bears. They seem to have more sense about what to eat.

Mz Violet