So sick

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Traci

So sorry to hear you havent been well, i really hope you get better from the

stomach bug soon! And on top of everything else, too, you poor thing, how

did it go with the rheumatologist the day before that happenned? Was she

any more understanding? Love Kate xxx

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>Subject: So sick

>Date: Mon, 20 May 2002 04:02:37 -0000

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>I just wanted to let everyone know I am still alive. I have been very

>sick- caught a stomach virus and started getting sick Friday night-

>tried to just deal with it but finally went to the emergency room

>today. I couldn't keep anything down, and I couldn't take any of my

>medicines, so I started going back into a flare- rash and all. I got

>really scared when my bowel movements started turning to blood.

>Anyway, they did some blood tests, and all came back ok, so they just

>gave me some fluids, some anti-nausea and anti-diarrhea medicine,

>some pain medicine, and pumped me full of steroids through my IV to

>get me straightened out. I am feeling some better, but am still very

>weak and puny feeling, so I am just going to try to take it easy and

>get to feeling better.

>

>Smiles to you all... Traci

>

x Kate x

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Dear Traci,

Your still being alive is great! It sounds like you felt like you

felt quite awful. You did the right thing by getting to the ER.

At least you got a " flare " turned around. Try to rest as much

as possible, I am sure this took almost every bit of reserve

energy you had.

bad enough you are suffering the pains, fatigue and just plain

feeling 'crappy " from the disease without getting something

else yet. Thanks for letting us know sweety. Hang in there!!

You should be hearing from SSDI soon right? Praying that this

time it's " good news! "

Love and gentle hugs, tricia

Please visit the Stills Disease Web Site at:

www.stillsdisease.org

-- So sick

I just wanted to let everyone know I am still alive. I have been very

sick- caught a stomach virus and started getting sick Friday night-

tried to just deal with it but finally went to the emergency room

today. I couldn't keep anything down, and I couldn't take any of my

medicines, so I started going back into a flare- rash and all. I got

really scared when my bowel movements started turning to blood.

Anyway, they did some blood tests, and all came back ok, so they just

gave me some fluids, some anti-nausea and anti-diarrhea medicine,

some pain medicine, and pumped me full of steroids through my IV to

get me straightened out. I am feeling some better, but am still very

weak and puny feeling, so I am just going to try to take it easy and

get to feeling better.

Smiles to you all... Traci

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How can you tell if you are just normal sick and when it is not normal?? I have

been nauseated for two days but so far not throwing up. I'm not concerned about

that. But this evening my stregnth / weakness has tanked. In just the last

coupla hours I can't even stand up. Trying any exhertion ( walking to get drink

) is too much: I get much more nauseated and faint feeling. This is only week

two so I don't know if this is just how it is or how to tell if something more

is going on. I hope this made sense.

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Trudy,You made perfect sense and yes it's just from the meds. You are describing exactly what I went thru and what ny is going thru now. Unfortunately it doesn't look like you're going to have an easy ride with this treatment but at least you're only looking at 24 weeks. Sleep as much as you can, drink as much as you can and please try to eat. I know the nausea feeling well. That's why I didn't eat during treatment. I couldn't tell if I was hungry or had to throw up and since I hate to throw up I wouldn't eat in case it was that. The doctor kept telling me to eat and see which it was so I would at least eat something.. Try to sleep thru it sweetie. I know how tough it is. Hang in there,

you're going to be okay. I promise.Hugs... big hugs,Teri From: "trudykinsey@..." <trudykinsey@...>Hcv < >Sent: Sun, September 26, 2010 10:36:44 PMSubject: [ ] So sick

How can you tell if you are just normal sick and when it is not normal?? I have been nauseated for two days but so far not throwing up. I'm not concerned about that. But this evening my stregnth / weakness has tanked. In just the last coupla hours I can't even stand up. Trying any exhertion ( walking to get drink ) is too much: I get much more nauseated and faint feeling. This is only week two so I don't know if this is just how it is or how to tell if something more is going on. I hope this made sense.

http://facebook.com/people/andTrudy-Kinsey/1340460877 "

"A well- behaved woman never made history"...Mae West

http://oktravels.wordpress.com

http://allrecipes.com/cook/TrudyK/profile.aspx

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visit greenworkscleaners.com Hello everyone. I'm sorry that I haven't posted lately. I am just so sick. I'm having severe trouble breathing and my heart pounds then stops. I have just let my home fall apart around me. I have no energy. I feel sick and in pain, always. I have had 2 pest control companies out. Both heard and looked at the bugs, etc, but don't know

what they are or how to treat. They have now infested my walls. Easy to see them. I called the department of agriculture. They sent a specialist out yesterday. He took 2 samples with him. He said the insect I see, appears to be in the fly family. The other 2 were, one from my wall and one from my nose. He mentioned that some looked like fibers, which he thought may be a fungus. He offered no help. Said to try diasater company to look. My spit is thick and bubbles. When I spit, it is buggy looking and hardens. Everything I touch or glasses I drink from become covered in a gray slime, that hardens. My nose gets a thick discharge. It comes out on a Q-tip, as a slime ball, with brown spots inside. It seems to grow and wrap around the Q-tip, then gets hard. I have fibers everywhere. I shaved my head again and what is growing on my head now, is fluffy

white, red and blue fibers. My body is covered. I not only hear popping and crunching now. There are so many on me, it sounds like hissing now too. This stuff, film, etc. has covered every inch of me and my surroundings. I am dying very soon, alone. I can feel it. I am alone. This stuff is petrifying my organs. I am going to the ER today, to beg them again to look. I hope they will try at least, before I die. Please, anyone who is new to this, use every resource you can to get help, early. I feel that it is too late for me 8 years. This is the other reason that I no longer post. I can't help anyone here, not even myself. I'm just too sick now. So I pray, but it is not going to keep me alive. I believe that I will die very soon. My mucous, urine, tears, everything is becoming hardemed by this. I am so alone and terrified. Thank you for

your concern. I wish the best to all of you.

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Dear Cee Cee,

Can you tell us what you have done for the internals? Maybe there is still some hope out there. Don't give up. Did you ever try the MMS? It isn't too late to continue trying. You have severe Morgellons and probably co-infections and a slime mold (I have too). Did you try using anything for Lyme or co-infections? You may have tested for Lyme and it was called negative, but that means NOTHING. Have you looked at any protocols lately? I'm doing the teasel which does help post using antibiotics for a long time. What is your living situation? I have all those fibers too all over the house and on me. I believe a component of this bioweapon is fungal. Are you doing anything for the fungal? I also believe the recipe for spreading these bioweapons varies from area to area so it makes it so difficult to give a global formula for getting well for any of us. It is all hunt and peck, trial and error.

My prayers go out to you Cee Cee. Where do you live? There is a good doctor in San Francisco who has treated over 500 Morgellons patients, some just as ill as you. Ginger Savely...

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Hello everyone. I'm sorry that I haven't posted lately. I am just so sick. I'm having severe trouble breathing and my heart pounds then stops. I have just let my home fall apart around me. I have no energy. I feel sick and in pain, always. I have had 2 pest control companies out. Both heard and looked at the bugs, etc, but don't know what they are or how to treat. They have now infested my walls. Easy to see them. I called the department of agriculture. They sent a specialist out yesterday. He took 2 samples with him. He said the insect I see, appears to be in the fly family. The other 2 were, one from my wall and one from my nose. He mentioned that some looked like fibers, which he thought may be a fungus. He offered no help. Said to try diasater company to look. My spit is thick and bubbles. When I spit, it is buggy looking and hardens. Everything I touch or glasses I drink from become covered in a gray slime, that hardens. My nose gets a thick discharge. It comes out on a Q-tip, as a slime ball, with brown spots inside. It seems to grow and wrap around the Q-tip, then gets hard. I have fibers everywhere. I shaved my head again and what is growing on my head now, is fluffy white, red and blue fibers. My body is covered. I not only hear popping and crunching now. There are so many on me, it sounds like hissing now too. This stuff, film, etc. has covered every inch of me and my surroundings. I am dying very soon, alone. I can feel it. I am alone. This stuff is petrifying my organs. I am going to the ER today, to beg them again to look. I hope they will try at least, before I die. Please, anyone who is new to this, use every resource you can to get help, early. I feel that it is too late for me 8 years. This is the other reason that I no longer post. I can't help anyone here, not even myself. I'm just too sick now. So I pray, but it is not going to keep me alive. I believe that I will die very soon. My mucous, urine, tears, everything is becoming hardemed by this. I am so alone and terrified. Thank you for your concern. I wish the best to all of you.

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NEW HERE...THoughts and love to you!From: Cee Cee <ceeceesmith50@...>bird mites Cc: ceeceesmith50@...Sent: Wed, December 1, 2010 10:35:34 PMSubject: Re: So sick

visit greenworkscleaners.com Hello everyone. I'm sorry that I haven't posted lately. I am just so sick. I'm having severe trouble breathing and my heart pounds then stops. I have just let my home fall apart around me. I have no energy. I feel sick and in pain, always. I have had 2 pest control companies out. Both heard and looked at the bugs, etc, but don't know

what they are or how to treat. They have now infested my walls. Easy to see them. I called the department of agriculture. They sent a specialist out yesterday. He took 2 samples with him. He said the insect I see, appears to be in the fly family. The other 2 were, one from my wall and one from my nose. He mentioned that some looked like fibers, which he thought may be a fungus. He offered no help. Said to try diasater company to look. My spit is thick and bubbles. When I spit, it is buggy looking and hardens. Everything I touch or glasses I drink from become covered in a gray slime, that hardens. My nose gets a thick discharge. It comes out on a Q-tip, as a slime ball, with brown spots inside. It seems to grow and wrap around the Q-tip, then gets hard. I have fibers everywhere. I shaved my head again and what is growing on my head now, is fluffy

white, red and blue fibers. My body is covered. I not only hear popping and crunching now. There are so many on me, it sounds like hissing now too. This stuff, film, etc. has covered every inch of me and my surroundings. I am dying very soon, alone. I can feel it. I am alone. This stuff is petrifying my organs. I am going to the ER today, to beg them again to look. I hope they will try at least, before I die. Please, anyone who is new to this, use every resource you can to get help, early. I feel that it is too late for me 8 years. This is the other reason that I no longer post. I can't help anyone here, not even myself. I'm just too sick now. So I pray, but it is not going to keep me alive. I believe that I will die very soon. My mucous, urine, tears, everything is becoming hardemed by this. I am so alone and terrified. Thank you for

your concern. I wish the best to all of you.

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Hi Cee Cee,I can so relate to your condition and think of you often--I think the people that hear the popping and cracking noises within their walls might just be in a separate category, dealing with a different kind of airborne GMO bug and seem to be the most sick with this illness. Think those who were sick before getting morgellons have the most difficult time too, so there are many more hills to climb before seeing the progress that others have experienced.I also think it has a lot to do with the fungus that might be building up in your walls too. This is not an easy fix, especially if you live alone like I did [and still do, essentially]It is an overwhelming feeling, when so many things are going wrong all at once, plus I know how long you have been dealing with this--stands to reason that it just wears you down--even explaining to people what you have already done is overwhelming. So I can relate to how you are feeling. I too, felt as if I was dying last year and if you saw a photos of me, you would agree. I couldn't post for over a year and felt the same as you--that I had nothing to offer, since nothing suggested that was helping others, was helping me. I found I had to do my own experiments...leaving cups out with different things suggested to kill your particular organism , showed me--and is still giving me more clues as to what works to kill it and how to beat this down. I know this sounds like a daunting task, especially since you are so weak and alone--believe me, I have been there. I will have to think about what the priorities are for you, since you are in a difficult situation. Is there anyone who can help you with the high heating idea? Do you have money to hire someone? If so, then you could use more of your time to concentrate on YOU, and taking the steps to get rid of that fungus you have inside your body. I am still battling this so I don't claim to have all the answers for you...I still am eliminating the fungus, bacteria, insects etc as this is a numbers game and ongoing battle. I have had the fungus so badly, that it forms a resin type of film on my bathtub that I cannot remove!!! I do have some things that have helped tho, which might be of interest to you. I have seen tons of different fungus ooze out of me, ranging from yellow mustard looking stuff, to brown, to orange. Some looks actually like algae and my nails were a mess with this fungus and constantly looked like they were being eaten alive. My nails look much better now and I can now go out without having to hide them but it took an entire year to gradually get this out...my hands continue to shed but this too, is much better. My head and the stages it has gone through have been a constant ongoing nightmare...while some may see that just a few times of shedding would do the trick, I think this depends on how long you have been sick and how many layers of the onion you have to peel. I have been shedding skin for over two years now. BUT, the skin I am shedding now is much thinner, in smaller pieces and I am now starting to see that it has TOTALLY covered every hair shaft and can be scraped off when using certain steps of things you put on your head..but this too also happens in different stages of healing. I think I might have missed my opportunity to scrape this off the other morning because I saw that it had loosened somewhat, but hope that i am close to getting to this layer off for good. We have to get this fungal manufacturing machine to stop in its track for creating new layers. I am not telling you anything new when I say that this is not easy to eliminate when you have it this bad, but I am seeing some progress and this keeps my hope going strong...it is not fun nor an easy process--very painful but I think if we keep at it, then we will prevail! GET MAD!!! Anger is not usually my style, nor is it usually a good thing to keep inside, but if you unleash it, it can be a tremendous energy booster to keep going and a motivator to win this battle. Get mad that this has been a personal assault on your body that you are no longer going to tolerate!! Don't let these perpetrators win!!!Another thing I have done is too get in prayer--some days I lived in constant prayer and felt very close to death. I would light a candle and in silence count whatever blessings I could come up with and then ask for answers and guidance--and signs to show me if I was on the right track or not with protocol. I would practice visualizing myself as I used to be, in whole mind and body...how I wanted to look etc. For example, jogging with my body strong, hair blowing in the breeze...actually try to 'feel' the experience yor are creating in your mind. Try and think up your own scenarios that would please you. One time when I was very weak and sick, I visualized the beach at night, with the moon beaming down on it...each star sparkled brightly as it washed upon the beach onto the sand...anything that will produce a good feeling in your body will have a healing effect in itself. Remember to thank your body for working so hard with you to beat this infection. Think of your healthy cells working in tandem with you for the ultimate goal of all operating normally. I still do this and also think it is important to keep asking for a positive energy to surround us...this helps I think as well as asking God / Jesus or whatever your faith is, to surround you with a positive white light and energy that protects you from all harm. But am also believing that we have to co-create this positive energy by doing anything you can think of to give you a happy thought. I created a list of words...yes, just words, that would denote a positive energy. Make your own list...like the word 'happy' --this only gives off positive thought and energy. Same with 'triumphant', 'rejoice'...use one of these words or words of your choice as a mantra. This is hard to remember when feeling so sick, so write them down and post them places!!! I believe this will help give you mental strength. I know we have a huge army of Angels and God on our side to help us through this. What I noticed is that when herxing, or detoxing badly, you lose this communication or connection because your thoughts are so hazy so there will be days that you feel lost and alone. But try to remember that you are not really alone--think BIG...you might feel alone in our dense small physical world, but you are not really alone in the spiritual realm. So my advice would be to keep practicing this, because I would have not made it this far had I not had gained strength from spiritual communication, prayer and meditation. I still have my days where I feel lost, but I am always boosted soon, with hope through prayer and of course through the many wonderful people here and from other forum members who want to see you get better! This is a blessing in itself.There is still a lot that is not clear to me yet, as it is an ongoing process to unveil and unravel all of this. But I think it can be done and others have given us hope. If you want to email me privately, maybe we could come up with some steps to take to rid you of this fungus. I have some enzymes I have just started that are specifically for biofilm that might be helpful for you. I haven't posted this yet, since I just started them and I don't want to give false hope and ill advice on something that may only work for a short period of time. But my theory is that when you tear down a layer of the fungus, then you also need to hit the infection at this time with an antibiotic, antifungal and something to kill off any insects which may be forming and/or ready to hatch. The biofilm harbors many of these organisms and when released, have to be eliminated. The biofilm apparently can also create some of these new organisms, according to what I have read and readily exchanges DNA to form new types of pathogens. So I believe it is the biofilm that you have to assault and break down especially wen you have the fungus as bad as we do. I also have a different theory than most in that I feel that the toxins that we experience are actually created by the infection itself. So when you break down the network of the biofilm, you will be getting rid of a lot of the toxins it creates. Anyway, know that I am with you in thought, and wish you well, whatever course you choose to take. Love

PdiditOne more thought: I recently chose to try and do something positive to help in our battle with this illness. I decided to start a thread in the Lymebusters site and here is the link if you are interested in learning more.What State do you live in? I am posting my thoughts and explanation of what is going on with this in another thread in this forum. Don't know exactly where to put this topic so that all will see it, but hope people will take notice.

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My love and prayers to You Cee Cee I wish I could be there holding Your hand and taking care of You Hugs and love RoseFrom: S <pshannon9@...>bird mites Sent: Thu, December 2, 2010 7:37:52 AMSubject: Re: So sick

Hi Cee Cee,I can so relate to your condition and think of you often--I think the people that hear the popping and cracking noises within their walls might just be in a separate category, dealing with a different kind of airborne GMO bug and seem to be the most sick with this illness. Think those who were sick before getting morgellons have the most difficult time too, so there are many more hills to climb before seeing the progress that others have experienced.I also think it has a lot to do with the fungus that might be building up in your walls too. This is not an easy fix, especially if you live alone like I did [and still do, essentially]It is an overwhelming feeling, when so many things are going wrong all at once, plus I know how long you have been dealing with this--stands to reason that it just wears you down--even explaining to people what you have already done is overwhelming. So I can relate to how

you are feeling. I too, felt as if I was dying last year and if you saw a photos of me, you would agree. I couldn't post for over a year and felt the same as you--that I had nothing to offer, since nothing suggested that was helping others, was helping me. I found I had to do my own experiments...leaving cups out with different things suggested to kill your particular organism , showed me--and is still giving me more clues as to what works to kill it and how to beat this down. I know this sounds like a daunting task, especially since you are so weak and alone--believe me, I have been there. I will have to think about what the priorities are for you, since you are in a difficult situation. Is there anyone who can help you with the high heating idea? Do you have money to hire someone? If so, then you could use more of your time to concentrate on YOU, and taking the steps to get rid of that fungus you have inside your body. I am still

battling this so I don't claim to have all the answers for you...I still am eliminating the fungus, bacteria, insects etc as this is a numbers game and ongoing battle. I have had the fungus so badly, that it forms a resin type of film on my bathtub that I cannot remove!!! I do have some things that have helped tho, which might be of interest to you. I have seen tons of different fungus ooze out of me, ranging from yellow mustard looking stuff, to brown, to orange. Some looks actually like algae and my nails were a mess with this fungus and constantly looked like they were being eaten alive. My nails look much better now and I can now go out without having to hide them but it took an entire year to gradually get this out...my hands continue to shed but this too, is much better. My head and the stages it has gone through have been a constant ongoing nightmare...while some may see that just a few times of shedding would do the trick, I think

this depends on how long you have been sick and how many layers of the onion you have to peel. I have been shedding skin for over two years now. BUT, the skin I am shedding now is much thinner, in smaller pieces and I am now starting to see that it has TOTALLY covered every hair shaft and can be scraped off when using certain steps of things you put on your head..but this too also happens in different stages of healing. I think I might have missed my opportunity to scrape this off the other morning because I saw that it had loosened somewhat, but hope that i am close to getting to this layer off for good. We have to get this fungal manufacturing machine to stop in its track for creating new layers. I am not telling you anything new when I say that this is not easy to eliminate when you have it this bad, but I am seeing some progress and this keeps my hope going strong...it is not fun nor an easy process--very painful but I think if we keep

at it, then we will prevail! GET MAD!!! Anger is not usually my style, nor is it usually a good thing to keep inside, but if you unleash it, it can be a tremendous energy booster to keep going and a motivator to win this battle. Get mad that this has been a personal assault on your body that you are no longer going to tolerate!! Don't let these perpetrators win!!!Another thing I have done is too get in prayer--some days I lived in constant prayer and felt very close to death. I would light a candle and in silence count whatever blessings I could come up with and then ask for answers and guidance--and signs to show me if I was on the right track or not with protocol. I would practice visualizing myself as I used to be, in whole mind and body...how I wanted to look etc. For example, jogging with my body strong, hair blowing in the breeze...actually try to 'feel' the experience yor are creating in your mind. Try and think up your own

scenarios that would please you. One time when I was very weak and sick, I visualized the beach at night, with the moon beaming down on it...each star sparkled brightly as it washed upon the beach onto the sand...anything that will produce a good feeling in your body will have a healing effect in itself. Remember to thank your body for working so hard with you to beat this infection. Think of your healthy cells working in tandem with you for the ultimate goal of all operating normally. I still do this and also think it is important to keep asking for a positive energy to surround us...this helps I think as well as asking God / Jesus or whatever your faith is, to surround you with a positive white light and energy that protects you from all harm. But am also believing that we have to co-create this positive energy by doing anything you can think of to give you a happy thought. I created a list of words...yes, just words, that would denote a

positive energy. Make your own list...like the word 'happy' --this only gives off positive thought and energy. Same with 'triumphant', 'rejoice'...use one of these words or words of your choice as a mantra. This is hard to remember when feeling so sick, so write them down and post them places!!! I believe this will help give you mental strength. I know we have a huge army of Angels and God on our side to help us through this. What I noticed is that when herxing, or detoxing badly, you lose this communication or connection because your thoughts are so hazy so there will be days that you feel lost and alone. But try to remember that you are not really alone--think BIG...you might feel alone in our dense small physical world, but you are not really alone in the spiritual realm. So my advice would be to keep practicing this, because I would have not made it this far had I not had gained strength from spiritual communication, prayer and meditation. I

still have my days where I feel lost, but I am always boosted soon, with hope through prayer and of course through the many wonderful people here and from other forum members who want to see you get better! This is a blessing in itself.There is still a lot that is not clear to me yet, as it is an ongoing process to unveil and unravel all of this. But I think it can be done and others have given us hope. If you want to email me privately, maybe we could come up with some steps to take to rid you of this fungus. I have some enzymes I have just started that are specifically for biofilm that might be helpful for you. I haven't posted this yet, since I just started them and I don't want to give false hope and ill advice on something that may only work for a short period of time. But my theory is that when you tear down a layer of the fungus, then you also need to hit the infection at this time with an antibiotic, antifungal and something to

kill off any insects which may be forming and/or ready to hatch. The biofilm harbors many of these organisms and when released, have to be eliminated. The biofilm apparently can also create some of these new organisms, according to what I have read and readily exchanges DNA to form new types of pathogens. So I believe it is the biofilm that you have to assault and break down especially wen you have the fungus as bad as we do. I also have a different theory than most in that I feel that the toxins that we experience are actually created by the infection itself. So when you break down the network of the biofilm, you will be getting rid of a lot of the toxins it creates. Anyway, know that I am with you in thought, and wish you well, whatever course you choose to take. Love

PdiditOne more thought: I recently chose to try and do something positive to help in our battle with this illness. I decided to start a thread in the Lymebusters site and here is the link if you are interested in learning more.What State do you live in? I am posting my thoughts and explanation of what is going on with this in another thread in this forum. Don't know exactly where to put this topic so that all will see it, but hope people will take notice.

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Cee Cee,

Your post is so heartbreaking and I kept wishing I could offer words of comfort and suggestions, but nothing I could say would ever be as meaningful or helpful as this message from Pdidit. She has been a respected member of this forum for quite sometime as you know, and, although she speaks from experience, I sure wish she didn't. You will be in our prayers and perhaps more of us can provide a measure of support to you each day. In the darkest days of our battle, I had similar thoughts, but somehow, things got better for us. There is hope.

Pdidit,

Your message is of strength, hope, courage, wisdom, and the warmth of a pure and compassionate heart. Your observations and input have always been so insightful, and you often shed new light and perspective - you give us hope! I pray you reach total healing soon!

Judy

Re: So sick

Hi Cee Cee,I can so relate to your condition and think of you often--I think the people that hear the popping and cracking noises within their walls might just be in a separate category, dealing with a different kind of airborne GMO bug and seem to be the most sick with this illness. Think those who were sick before getting morgellons have the most difficult time too, so there are many more hills to climb before seeing the progress that others have experienced.I also think it has a lot to do with the fungus that might be building up in your walls too. This is not an easy fix, especially if you live alone like I did [and still do, essentially]It is an overwhelming feeling, when so many things are going wrong all at once, plus I know how long you have been dealing with this--stands to reason that it just wears you down--even explaining to people what you have already done is overwhelming. So I can relate to how you are feeling. I too, felt as if I was dying last year and if you saw a photos of me, you would agree. I couldn't post for over a year and felt the same as you--that I had nothing to offer, since nothing suggested that was helping others, was helping me. I found I had to do my own experiments...leaving cups out with different things suggested to kill your particular organism , showed me--and is still giving me more clues as to what works to kill it and how to beat this down. I know this sounds like a daunting task, especially since you are so weak and alone--believe me, I have been there. I will have to think about what the priorities are for you, since you are in a difficult situation. Is there anyone who can help you with the high heating idea? Do you have money to hire someone? If so, then you could use more of your time to concentrate on YOU, and taking the steps to get rid of that fungus you have inside your body. I am still battling this so I don't claim to have all the answers for you...I still am eliminating the fungus, bacteria, insects etc as this is a numbers game and ongoing battle. I have had the fungus so badly, that it forms a resin type of film on my bathtub that I cannot remove!!! I do have some things that have helped tho, which might be of interest to you. I have seen tons of different fungus ooze out of me, ranging from yellow mustard looking stuff, to brown, to orange. Some looks actually like algae and my nails were a mess with this fungus and constantly looked like they were being eaten alive. My nails look much better now and I can now go out without having to hide them but it took an entire year to gradually get this out...my hands continue to shed but this too, is much better. My head and the stages it has gone through have been a constant ongoing nightmare...while some may see that just a few times of shedding would do the trick, I think this depends on how long you have been sick and how many layers of the onion you have to peel. I have been shedding skin for over two years now. BUT, the skin I am shedding now is much thinner, in smaller pieces and I am now starting to see that it has TOTALLY covered every hair shaft and can be scraped off when using certain steps of things you put on your head..but this too also happens in different stages of healing. I think I might have missed my opportunity to scrape this off the other morning because I saw that it had loosened somewhat, but hope that i am close to getting to this layer off for good. We have to get this fungal manufacturing machine to stop in its track for creating new layers. I am not telling you anything new when I say that this is not easy to eliminate when you have it this bad, but I am seeing some progress and this keeps my hope going strong...it is not fun nor an easy process--very painful but I think if we keep at it, then we will prevail! GET MAD!!! Anger is not usually my style, nor is it usually a good thing to keep inside, but if you unleash it, it can be a tremendous energy booster to keep going and a motivator to win this battle. Get mad that this has been a personal assault on your body that you are no longer going to tolerate!! Don't let these perpetrators win!!!Another thing I have done is too get in prayer--some days I lived in constant prayer and felt very close to death. I would light a candle and in silence count whatever blessings I could come up with and then ask for answers and guidance--and signs to show me if I was on the right track or not with protocol. I would practice visualizing myself as I used to be, in whole mind and body...how I wanted to look etc. For example, jogging with my body strong, hair blowing in the breeze...actually try to 'feel' the experience yor are creating in your mind. Try and think up your own scenarios that would please you. One time when I was very weak and sick, I visualized the beach at night, with the moon beaming down on it...each star sparkled brightly as it washed upon the beach onto the sand...anything that will produce a good feeling in your body will have a healing effect in itself. Remember to thank your body for working so hard with you to beat this infection. Think of your healthy cells working in tandem with you for the ultimate goal of all operating normally. I still do this and also think it is important to keep asking for a positive energy to surround us...this helps I think as well as asking God / Jesus or whatever your faith is, to surround you with a positive white light and energy that protects you from all harm. But am also believing that we have to co-create this positive energy by doing anything you can think of to give you a happy thought. I created a list of words...yes, just words, that would denote a positive energy. Make your own list...like the word 'happy' --this only gives off positive thought and energy. Same with 'triumphant', 'rejoice'...use one of these words or words of your choice as a mantra. This is hard to remember when feeling so sick, so write them down and post them places!!! I believe this will help give you mental strength. I know we have a huge army of Angels and God on our side to help us through this. What I noticed is that when herxing, or detoxing badly, you lose this communication or connection because your thoughts are so hazy so there will be days that you feel lost and alone. But try to remember that you are not really alone--think BIG...you might feel alone in our dense small physical world, but you are not really alone in the spiritual realm. So my advice would be to keep practicing this, because I would have not made it this far had I not had gained strength from spiritual communication, prayer and meditation. I still have my days where I feel lost, but I am always boosted soon, with hope through prayer and of course through the many wonderful people here and from other forum members who want to see you get better! This is a blessing in itself.There is still a lot that is not clear to me yet, as it is an ongoing process to unveil and unravel all of this. But I think it can be done and others have given us hope. If you want to email me privately, maybe we could come up with some steps to take to rid you of this fungus. I have some enzymes I have just started that are specifically for biofilm that might be helpful for you. I haven't posted this yet, since I just started them and I don't want to give false hope and ill advice on something that may only work for a short period of time. But my theory is that when you tear down a layer of the fungus, then you also need to hit the infection at this time with an antibiotic, antifungal and something to kill off any insects which may be forming and/or ready to hatch. The biofilm harbors many of these organisms and when released, have to be eliminated. The biofilm apparently can also create some of these new organisms, according to what I have read and readily exchanges DNA to form new types of pathogens. So I believe it is the biofilm that you have to assault and break down especially wen you have the fungus as bad as we do. I also have a different theory than most in that I feel that the toxins that we experience are actually created by the infection itself. So when you break down the network of the biofilm, you will be getting rid of a lot of the toxins it creates. Anyway, know that I am with you in thought, and wish you well, whatever course you choose to take. LovePdiditOne more thought: I recently chose to try and do something positive to help in our battle with this illness. I decided to start a thread in the Lymebusters site and here is the link if you are interested in learning more.What State do you live in? I am posting my thoughts and explanation of what is going on with this in another thread in this forum. Don't know exactly where to put this topic so that all will see it, but hope people will take notice.

[Guest guest]

Thank you Pdidit very muchFrom: Judy Reynolds <jreynolds009@...>bird mites Sent: Thu, December 2, 2010 9:42:33 AMSubject: Re: Re: So sick

Cee Cee,

Your post is so heartbreaking and I kept wishing I could offer words of comfort and suggestions, but nothing I could say would ever be as meaningful or helpful as this message from Pdidit. She has been a respected member of this forum for quite sometime as you know, and, although she speaks from experience, I sure wish she didn't. You will be in our prayers and perhaps more of us can provide a measure of support to you each day. In the darkest days of our battle, I had similar thoughts, but somehow, things got better for us. There is hope.

Pdidit,

Your message is of strength, hope, courage, wisdom, and the warmth of a pure and compassionate heart. Your observations and input have always been so insightful, and you often shed new light and perspective - you give us hope! I pray you reach total healing soon!

Judy

Re: So sick

Hi Cee Cee,I can so relate to your condition and think of you often--I think the people that hear the popping and cracking noises within their walls might just be in a separate category, dealing with a different kind of airborne GMO bug and seem to be the most sick with this illness. Think those who were sick before getting morgellons have the most difficult time too, so there are many more hills to climb before seeing the progress that others have experienced.I also think it has a lot to do with the fungus that might be building up in your walls too. This is not an easy fix, especially if you live alone like I did [and still do, essentially]It is an overwhelming feeling, when so many things are going wrong all at once, plus I know how long you have been dealing with this--stands to reason that it just wears you down--even explaining to people what you have already done is overwhelming. So I can relate to how you are feeling. I too, felt as if I was dying last year and if you saw a photos of me, you would agree. I couldn't post for over a year and felt the same as you--that I had nothing to offer, since nothing suggested that was helping others, was helping me. I found I had to do my own experiments...leaving cups out with different things suggested to kill your particular organism , showed me--and is still giving me more clues as to what works to kill it and how to beat this down. I know this sounds like a daunting task, especially since you are so weak and alone--believe me, I have been there. I will have to think about what the priorities are for you, since you are in a difficult situation. Is there anyone who can help you with the high heating idea? Do you have money to hire someone? If so, then you could use more of your time to concentrate on YOU, and taking the steps to get rid of that fungus you have inside your body. I am still battling this so I don't claim to have all the answers for you...I still am eliminating the fungus, bacteria, insects etc as this is a numbers game and ongoing battle. I have had the fungus so badly, that it forms a resin type of film on my bathtub that I cannot remove!!! I do have some things that have helped tho, which might be of interest to you. I have seen tons of different fungus ooze out of me, ranging from yellow mustard looking stuff, to brown, to orange. Some looks actually like algae and my nails were a mess with this fungus and constantly looked like they were being eaten alive. My nails look much better now and I can now go out without having to hide them but it took an entire year to gradually get this out...my hands continue to shed but this too, is much better. My head and the stages it has gone through have been a constant ongoing nightmare...while some may see that just a few times of shedding would do the trick, I think this depends on how long you have been sick and how many layers of the onion you have to peel. I have been shedding skin for over two years now. BUT, the skin I am shedding now is much thinner, in smaller pieces and I am now starting to see that it has TOTALLY covered every hair shaft and can be scraped off when using certain steps of things you put on your head..but this too also happens in different stages of healing. I think I might have missed my opportunity to scrape this off the other morning because I saw that it had loosened somewhat, but hope that i am close to getting to this layer off for good. We have to get this fungal manufacturing machine to stop in its track for creating new layers. I am not telling you anything new when I say that this is not easy to eliminate when you have it this bad, but I am seeing some progress and this keeps my hope going strong...it is not fun nor an easy process--very painful but I think if we keep at it, then we will prevail! GET MAD!!! Anger is not usually my style, nor is it usually a good thing to keep inside, but if you unleash it, it can be a tremendous energy booster to keep going and a motivator to win this battle. Get mad that this has been a personal assault on your body that you are no longer going to tolerate!! Don't let these perpetrators win!!!Another thing I have done is too get in prayer--some days I lived in constant prayer and felt very close to death. I would light a candle and in silence count whatever blessings I could come up with and then ask for answers and guidance--and signs to show me if I was on the right track or not with protocol. I would practice visualizing myself as I used to be, in whole mind and body...how I wanted to look etc. For example, jogging with my body strong, hair blowing in the breeze...actually try to 'feel' the experience yor are creating in your mind. Try and think up your own scenarios that would please you. One time when I was very weak and sick, I visualized the beach at night, with the moon beaming down on it...each star sparkled brightly as it washed upon the beach onto the sand...anything that will produce a good feeling in your body will have a healing effect in itself. Remember to thank your body for working so hard with you to beat this infection. Think of your healthy cells working in tandem with you for the ultimate goal of all operating normally. I still do this and also think it is important to keep asking for a positive energy to surround us...this helps I think as well as asking God / Jesus or whatever your faith is, to surround you with a positive white light and energy that protects you from all harm. But am also believing that we have to co-create this positive energy by doing anything you can think of to give you a happy thought. I created a list of words...yes, just words, that would denote a positive energy. Make your own list...like the word 'happy' --this only gives off positive thought and energy. Same with 'triumphant', 'rejoice'...use one of these words or words of your choice as a mantra. This is hard to remember when feeling so sick, so write them down and post them places!!! I believe this will help give you mental strength. I know we have a huge army of Angels and God on our side to help us through this. What I noticed is that when herxing, or detoxing badly, you lose this communication or connection because your thoughts are so hazy so there will be days that you feel lost and alone. But try to remember that you are not really alone--think BIG...you might feel alone in our dense small physical world, but you are not really alone in the spiritual realm. So my advice would be to keep practicing this, because I would have not made it this far had I not had gained strength from spiritual communication, prayer and meditation. I still have my days where I feel lost, but I am always boosted soon, with hope through prayer and of course through the many wonderful people here and from other forum members who want to see you get better! This is a blessing in itself.There is still a lot that is not clear to me yet, as it is an ongoing process to unveil and unravel all of this. But I think it can be done and others have given us hope. If you want to email me privately, maybe we could come up with some steps to take to rid you of this fungus. I have some enzymes I have just started that are specifically for biofilm that might be helpful for you. I haven't posted this yet, since I just started them and I don't want to give false hope and ill advice on something that may only work for a short period of time. But my theory is that when you tear down a layer of the fungus, then you also need to hit the infection at this time with an antibiotic, antifungal and something to kill off any insects which may be forming and/or ready to hatch. The biofilm harbors many of these organisms and when released, have to be eliminated. The biofilm apparently can also create some of these new organisms, according to what I have read and readily exchanges DNA to form new types of pathogens. So I believe it is the biofilm that you have to assault and break down especially wen you have the fungus as bad as we do. I also have a different theory than most in that I feel that the toxins that we experience are actually created by the infection itself. So when you break down the network of the biofilm, you will be getting rid of a lot of the toxins it creates. Anyway, know that I am with you in thought, and wish you well, whatever course you choose to take. LovePdiditOne more thought: I recently chose to try and do something positive to help in our battle with this illness. I decided to start a thread in the Lymebusters site and here is the link if you are interested in learning more.What State do you live in? I am posting my thoughts and explanation of what is going on with this in another thread in this forum. Don't know exactly where to put this topic so that all will see it, but hope people will take notice.

[Guest guest]

Well said Judy and Pdidit. Let me know if there is anything I can do Cee Cee.

Re: So sick

Hi Cee Cee,I can so relate to your condition and think of you often--I think the people that hear the popping and cracking noises within their walls might just be in a separate category, dealing with a different kind of airborne GMO bug and seem to be the most sick with this illness. Think those who were sick before getting morgellons have the most difficult time too, so there are many more hills to climb before seeing the progress that others have experienced.I also think it has a lot to do with the fungus that might be building up in your walls too. This is not an easy fix, especially if you live alone like I did [and still do, essentially]It is an overwhelming feeling, when so many things are going wrong all at once, plus I know how long you have been dealing with this--stands to reason that it just wears you down--even explaining to people what you have already done is overwhelming. So I can relate to how you are feeling. I too, felt as if I was dying last year and if you saw a photos of me, you would agree. I couldn't post for over a year and felt the same as you--that I had nothing to offer, since nothing suggested that was helping others, was helping me. I found I had to do my own experiments...leaving cups out with different things suggested to kill your particular organism , showed me--and is still giving me more clues as to what works to kill it and how to beat this down. I know this sounds like a daunting task, especially since you are so weak and alone--believe me, I have been there. I will have to think about what the priorities are for you, since you are in a difficult situation. Is there anyone who can help you with the high heating idea? Do you have money to hire someone? If so, then you could use more of your time to concentrate on YOU, and taking the steps to get rid of that fungus you have inside your body. I am still battling this so I don't claim to have all the answers for you...I still am eliminating the fungus, bacteria, insects etc as this is a numbers game and ongoing battle. I have had the fungus so badly, that it forms a resin type of film on my bathtub that I cannot remove!!! I do have some things that have helped tho, which might be of interest to you. I have seen tons of different fungus ooze out of me, ranging from yellow mustard looking stuff, to brown, to orange. Some looks actually like algae and my nails were a mess with this fungus and constantly looked like they were being eaten alive. My nails look much better now and I can now go out without having to hide them but it took an entire year to gradually get this out...my hands continue to shed but this too, is much better. My head and the stages it has gone through have been a constant ongoing nightmare...while some may see that just a few times of shedding would do the trick, I think this depends on how long you have been sick and how many layers of the onion you have to peel. I have been shedding skin for over two years now. BUT, the skin I am shedding now is much thinner, in smaller pieces and I am now starting to see that it has TOTALLY covered every hair shaft and can be scraped off when using certain steps of things you put on your head..but this too also happens in different stages of healing. I think I might have missed my opportunity to scrape this off the other morning because I saw that it had loosened somewhat, but hope that i am close to getting to this layer off for good. We have to get this fungal manufacturing machine to stop in its track for creating new layers. I am not telling you anything new when I say that this is not easy to eliminate when you have it this bad, but I am seeing some progress and this keeps my hope going strong...it is not fun nor an easy process--very painful but I think if we keep at it, then we will prevail! GET MAD!!! Anger is not usually my style, nor is it usually a good thing to keep inside, but if you unleash it, it can be a tremendous energy booster to keep going and a motivator to win this battle. Get mad that this has been a personal assault on your body that you are no longer going to tolerate!! Don't let these perpetrators win!!!Another thing I have done is too get in prayer--some days I lived in constant prayer and felt very close to death. I would light a candle and in silence count whatever blessings I could come up with and then ask for answers and guidance--and signs to show me if I was on the right track or not with protocol. I would practice visualizing myself as I used to be, in whole mind and body...how I wanted to look etc. For example, jogging with my body strong, hair blowing in the breeze...actually try to 'feel' the experience yor are creating in your mind. Try and think up your own scenarios that would please you. One time when I was very weak and sick, I visualized the beach at night, with the moon beaming down on it...each star sparkled brightly as it washed upon the beach onto the sand...anything that will produce a good feeling in your body will have a healing effect in itself. Remember to thank your body for working so hard with you to beat this infection. Think of your healthy cells working in tandem with you for the ultimate goal of all operating normally. I still do this and also think it is important to keep asking for a positive energy to surround us...this helps I think as well as asking God / Jesus or whatever your faith is, to surround you with a positive white light and energy that protects you from all harm. But am also believing that we have to co-create this positive energy by doing anything you can think of to give you a happy thought. I created a list of words...yes, just words, that would denote a positive energy. Make your own list...like the word 'happy' --this only gives off positive thought and energy. Same with 'triumphant', 'rejoice'...use one of these words or words of your choice as a mantra. This is hard to remember when feeling so sick, so write them down and post them places!!! I believe this will help give you mental strength. I know we have a huge army of Angels and God on our side to help us through this. What I noticed is that when herxing, or detoxing badly, you lose this communication or connection because your thoughts are so hazy so there will be days that you feel lost and alone. But try to remember that you are not really alone--think BIG...you might feel alone in our dense small physical world, but you are not really alone in the spiritual realm. So my advice would be to keep practicing this, because I would have not made it this far had I not had gained strength from spiritual communication, prayer and meditation. I still have my days where I feel lost, but I am always boosted soon, with hope through prayer and of course through the many wonderful people here and from other forum members who want to see you get better! This is a blessing in itself.There is still a lot that is not clear to me yet, as it is an ongoing process to unveil and unravel all of this. But I think it can be done and others have given us hope. If you want to email me privately, maybe we could come up with some steps to take to rid you of this fungus. I have some enzymes I have just started that are specifically for biofilm that might be helpful for you. I haven't posted this yet, since I just started them and I don't want to give false hope and ill advice on something that may only work for a short period of time. But my theory is that when you tear down a layer of the fungus, then you also need to hit the infection at this time with an antibiotic, antifungal and something to kill off any insects which may be forming and/or ready to hatch. The biofilm harbors many of these organisms and when released, have to be eliminated. The biofilm apparently can also create some of these new organisms, according to what I have read and readily exchanges DNA to form new types of pathogens. So I believe it is the biofilm that you have to assault and break down especially wen you have the fungus as bad as we do. I also have a different theory than most in that I feel that the toxins that we experience are actually created by the infection itself. So when you break down the network of the biofilm, you will be getting rid of a lot of the toxins it creates. Anyway, know that I am with you in thought, and wish you well, whatever course you choose to take. LovePdiditOne more thought: I recently chose to try and do something positive to help in our battle with this illness. I decided to start a thread in the Lymebusters site and here is the link if you are interested in learning more.What State do you live in? I am posting my thoughts and explanation of what is going on with this in another thread in this forum. Don't know exactly where to put this topic so that all will see it, but hope people will take notice.

[Guest guest]

Cee Cee,

Just wanted to let you know that you must be cautious if you do hire a

'professional' company to heat your house. We were charged thousands of dollars

by Therma Pure and they ruined our wood floors throughout the house and failed

to heat the walls and the subareas at all; even when we complained. They

promised us they would heat the wall voids and subarea at the same time as the

rest of the house and never did. It was an expensive mistake for us to use them.

It cost of additional thousands to fix the floors afterwards. The sales person

talked big and made lots of lofty promises but they did horrible work... The

mites took refuse in the cool wall voids and subarea in response to the heat and

were not harmed at all. We were able to walk through the house the entire time

it was heated and did not even break a sweat since they failed to spread the

heat out well. They really should have tented the house. It was just like an

very expensive joke at our expense.

z3

>

> Cee Cee,

>

> Your post is so heartbreaking and I kept wishing I could offer words of

comfort and suggestions, but nothing I could say would ever be as meaningful or

helpful as this message from Pdidit. She has been a respected member of this

forum for quite sometime as you know, and, although she speaks from experience,

I sure wish she didn't. You will be in our prayers and perhaps more of us can

provide a measure of support to you each day. In the darkest days of our

battle, I had similar thoughts, but somehow, things got better for us. There is

hope.

>

> Pdidit,

>

> Your message is of strength, hope, courage, wisdom, and the warmth of a pure

and compassionate heart. Your observations and input have always been so

insightful, and you often shed new light and perspective - you give us hope! I

pray you reach total healing soon!

>

> Judy

>

>

> Re: So sick

>

>

>

>

>

> Hi Cee Cee,

>

> I can so relate to your condition and think of you often--I think the people

that hear the popping and cracking noises within their walls might just be in a

separate category, dealing with a different kind of airborne GMO bug and seem to

be the most sick with this illness. Think those who were sick before getting

morgellons have the most difficult time too, so there are many more hills to

climb before seeing the progress that others have experienced.

>

> I also think it has a lot to do with the fungus that might be building up in

your walls too. This is not an easy fix, especially if you live alone like I did

[and still do, essentially]

>

> It is an overwhelming feeling, when so many things are going wrong all at

once, plus I know how long you have been dealing with this--stands to reason

that it just wears you down--even explaining to people what you have already

done is overwhelming. So I can relate to how you are feeling. I too, felt as if

I was dying last year and if you saw a photos of me, you would agree. I couldn't

post for over a year and felt the same as you--that I had nothing to offer,

since nothing suggested that was helping others, was helping me.

>

> I found I had to do my own experiments...leaving cups out with different

things suggested to kill your particular organism , showed me--and is still

giving me more clues as to what works to kill it and how to beat this down. I

know this sounds like a daunting task, especially since you are so weak and

alone--believe me, I have been there.

>

> I will have to think about what the priorities are for you, since you are in

a difficult situation. Is there anyone who can help you with the high heating

idea? Do you have money to hire someone? If so, then you could use more of your

time to concentrate on YOU, and taking the steps to get rid of that fungus you

have inside your body. I am still battling this so I don't claim to have all the

answers for you...I still am eliminating the fungus, bacteria, insects etc as

this is a numbers game and ongoing battle. I have had the fungus so badly, that

it forms a resin type of film on my bathtub that I cannot remove!!! I do have

some things that have helped tho, which might be of interest to you. I have seen

tons of different fungus ooze out of me, ranging from yellow mustard looking

stuff, to brown, to orange. Some looks actually like algae and my nails were a

mess with this fungus and constantly looked like they were being eaten alive. My

nails look much better now and I can now go out without having to hide them but

it took an entire year to gradually get this out...my hands continue to shed but

this too, is much better.

>

> My head and the stages it has gone through have been a constant ongoing

nightmare...while some may see that just a few times of shedding would do the

trick, I think this depends on how long you have been sick and how many layers

of the onion you have to peel. I have been shedding skin for over two years now.

BUT, the skin I am shedding now is much thinner, in smaller pieces and I am now

starting to see that it has TOTALLY covered every hair shaft and can be scraped

off when using certain steps of things you put on your head..but this too also

happens in different stages of healing. I think I might have missed my

opportunity to scrape this off the other morning because I saw that it had

loosened somewhat, but hope that i am close to getting to this layer off for

good. We have to get this fungal manufacturing machine to stop in its track for

creating new layers.

>

> I am not telling you anything new when I say that this is not easy to

eliminate when you have it this bad, but I am seeing some progress and this

keeps my hope going strong...it is not fun nor an easy process--very painful but

I think if we keep at it, then we will prevail! GET MAD!!! Anger is not usually

my style, nor is it usually a good thing to keep inside, but if you unleash it,

it can be a tremendous energy booster to keep going and a motivator to win this

battle. Get mad that this has been a personal assault on your body that you are

no longer going to tolerate!! Don't let these perpetrators win!!!

>

> Another thing I have done is too get in prayer--some days I lived in

constant prayer and felt very close to death. I would light a candle and in

silence count whatever blessings I could come up with and then ask for answers

and guidance--and signs to show me if I was on the right track or not with

protocol. I would practice visualizing myself as I used to be, in whole mind and

body...how I wanted to look etc. For example, jogging with my body strong, hair

blowing in the breeze...actually try to 'feel' the experience yor are creating

in your mind. Try and think up your own scenarios that would please you. One

time when I was very weak and sick, I visualized the beach at night, with the

moon beaming down on it...each star sparkled brightly as it washed upon the

beach onto the sand...anything that will produce a good feeling in your body

will have a healing effect in itself.

>

> Remember to thank your body for working so hard with you to beat this

infection. Think of your healthy cells working in tandem with you for the

ultimate goal of all operating normally. I still do this and also think it is

important to keep asking for a positive energy to surround us...this helps I

think as well as asking God / Jesus or whatever your faith is, to surround you

with a positive white light and energy that protects you from all harm. But am

also believing that we have to co-create this positive energy by doing anything

you can think of to give you a happy thought. I created a list of words...yes,

just words, that would denote a positive energy. Make your own list...like the

word 'happy' --this only gives off positive thought and energy. Same with

'triumphant', 'rejoice'...use one of these words or words of your choice as a

mantra. This is hard to remember when feeling so sick, so write them down and

post them places!!! I believe this will help give you mental strength.

>

> I know we have a huge army of Angels and God on our side to help us through

this. What I noticed is that when herxing, or detoxing badly, you lose this

communication or connection because your thoughts are so hazy so there will be

days that you feel lost and alone. But try to remember that you are not really

alone--think BIG...you might feel alone in our dense small physical world, but

you are not really alone in the spiritual realm. So my advice would be to keep

practicing this, because I would have not made it this far had I not had gained

strength from spiritual communication, prayer and meditation. I still have my

days where I feel lost, but I am always boosted soon, with hope through prayer

and of course through the many wonderful people here and from other forum

members who want to see you get better! This is a blessing in itself.

>

> There is still a lot that is not clear to me yet, as it is an ongoing

process to unveil and unravel all of this. But I think it can be done and others

have given us hope. If you want to email me privately, maybe we could come up

with some steps to take to rid you of this fungus. I have some enzymes I have

just started that are specifically for biofilm that might be helpful for you. I

haven't posted this yet, since I just started them and I don't want to give

false hope and ill advice on something that may only work for a short period of

time. But my theory is that when you tear down a layer of the fungus, then you

also need to hit the infection at this time with an antibiotic, antifungal and

something to kill off any insects which may be forming and/or ready to hatch.

The biofilm harbors many of these organisms and when released, have to be

eliminated. The biofilm apparently can also create some of these new organisms,

according to what I have read and readily exchanges DNA to form new types of

pathogens. So I believe it is the biofilm that you have to assault and break

down especially wen you have the fungus as bad as we do. I also have a different

theory than most in that I feel that the toxins that we experience are actually

created by the infection itself. So when you break down the network of the

biofilm, you will be getting rid of a lot of the toxins it creates.

>

> Anyway, know that I am with you in thought, and wish you well, whatever

course you choose to take.

>

> Love

> Pdidit

>

> One more thought: I recently chose to try and do something positive to help

in our battle with this illness. I decided to start a thread in the Lymebusters

site and here is the link if you are interested in learning more.

>

> What State do you live in?

>

> I am posting my thoughts and explanation of what is going on with this in

another thread in this forum. Don't know exactly where to put this topic so that

all will see it, but hope people will take notice.

>

[Guest guest]

Wow, what a very kind thing to say Judy and thank you too Rose, for I see you

both are very warm and caring people as well and that is the wonderful thing

about sharing our stories and ways to get out of this mess--we are all in this

together, and it gives me strength, seeing the love and compassion of others and

well, just knowing you are here...!<B

I hope we can help Cee Cee in some way... I haven't heard from her yet, but know

how that goes when you are dealing with so much.

Am seeing cross eyed here I am so tired so off to bed...hope we all get a decent

night's sleep..

XX

pdidit

[Guest guest]

Love to CEE CEE Love to everyone having a hard time today!!!Comfort to all Prayer group would be nice ..Thank You Bill for reminding us of Love and God Blessing to Dear and Her Family may everyone feel a sense of comfort and the presence of God!!! R.From: "Goldstein@..." <Goldstein@...>bird mites Sent: Fri, December 3, 2010 12:47:22 PMSubject: Re: Re: So sick

Hi pdidit,

Cee Cee has been posting - I think yesterday. I've lost track of time here. I'm at the hospital waiting for my father-in-law to get out of recovery from surgery. Anyway, I know Cee Cee is not doing well (my prayers and best thoughts are with her). Others here too not doing well at all. It is just a mess... all of this. My heart goes out to Cee Cee and Cecilia, Sandy and others who are just suffering so terribly.

By the way, I tried to login with Lymebusters and for some reason it does not keep me logged in.

Re: So sick

Wow, what a very kind thing to say Judy and thank you too Rose, for I see you both are very warm and caring people as well and that is the wonderful thing about sharing our stories and ways to get out of this mess--we are all in this together, and it gives me strength, seeing the love and compassion of others and well, just knowing you are here...!<BI hope we can help Cee Cee in some way... I haven't heard from her yet, but know how that goes when you are dealing with so much.Am seeing cross eyed here I am so tired so off to bed...hope we all get a decent night's sleep..XXpdidit