tears :(

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Im sitting here with tears in my eyes and just want to reach in the computer and

pull all of you trew the screen. Today was my worst day so far, i felt close to

death, if there is such a feeling. Just dont understand how strangers can tell

me to be strong and that they love and care for me, and my husband decides to go

work 1000 miles away. I know were broke bu t come on, what ever hapened to trew

sickness and in health? He better hope he never gets sick, cuz I will leave him

sitting in his own shit for hours. I am so pissed off right now. Today Iwoke up

and felt like I had the worst flu ever. I locked me and my 2 year old in my room

and turned on cartoons and passed out for hours. Had to have my mom bring my son

to therapy, ( he has autism ) so has therpy a few times a week. the tax people

called me and told me my check was in and I hung up on them and did not even go

get it. Now I know Im sick cuz Ilove me some money. lol I just feel like the

shit of the world mom, and not a good enough wife for my husband to just

strugglr for 1 year and work at home instead of so far away?! I must say that I

love everyone that posts on here you make me feel better on my worst day. Aghh I

a m not going to quit Im strong, its just so hard with the kids. Please pray for

me and my babies. thank you Love yall le