RE: About me - Lynne

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DonI honestly do not know why your Dr would say no more sex!!! I sure was never told that one and I believe that a whole lot of people here would be having marriage problems like me, if that were true. What is true is that tx caused me to have almost no libido; but, I was also married to a man who's usual libido was almost dormant as well. He made excuses for himself, like suggesting that my weight bothered him etc. But, the truth was - he didn't have much left and his pride would never have allowed him to go and see a Dr. about it.Gloria

Hi Lynne

Thank you very much for not getting offended by my post about alcohol use.

Many people who drink would have, or would have just shined me on, by saying what I wanted to hear.

When I was DX'd in 2008 with HCV, the very first thing the doctor told me was 'no more alcohol'.

The second thing was 'no glove, no love'. [i will leave you to figure that one out.]

Lynne, my whole world came crashing in on me in that one moment, sitting in that little room.

I havent drank alcohol for 30 years, but the DX of HCV, and no more love life, smacked me hard.

I never figured any disease that others caught would ever strike me too.

I was superman, and immortal, living at the speed of light....and have always been a very sexual being.

Next thing I knew my lady had booted me out of the house after many many years together.

She didnt want to catch HCV, and didnt want to watch me die.

She was my whole world.

A month later my lady's sister came to her house to die of HCV related liver cancer.

I helped Hospice her.

She died in my arms after spitting up a bucket of blood all over me.

I got slammed with what my fate could be too.

My mind broke, right then.

I had been DX'd with HCV, lost my lady, my home, my life, my sex life, and been given a first hand look at my possible future.

I was sooooooo scared. I felt sooooooo low.

I went back to my motel room, and tried to kill myself.

I woke up in the mental hospital, drugged to the gills, doing the 'shuffle' when I walked.

Thank God someone saved me.

When they set me free, I got on the internet and began to research.

I didnt know where my liver was, what it did, and knew nothing about HCV.....except that it was deadly, and had ruined my life.

I was only 57, and not ready to throw in the towel.

I began joining groups, asking questions, and reading everything that I could find about liver diseases, and HCV.

In the last two years I have gotten a college education from research, and from each of you all.

Knowing what I went through, and what I saw others going through, I made up my mind early on to help others by sharing what I learned, and giving folks as much love as I have in me.

- Newbies are freaking out.

- Those facing HCV TX are scared to death.

- Those doing HCV TX are suffering ordeals I cannot imagine.

- Non-responders want to curl up and die.

- Responders live the rest of their days in fear of the HCV comming back.

- Those with worse problems like transplant or cancer shatter my mind.

Every one of these folks need support, and love.

I just have to help, however I can.

I remember how I felt, and feel....alone, unloved, ignorant, and scared.

Lynne, I try not to come across too strong, or in any way offensive to people.

But I am a product of my experiances too.

I dont know everything.. ...yet... ..and I do fail every day.

But my heart is in the right place, Im sure of that.

I am also now on a path that I never imagined I would be on.

I am an old hippy musician, with little education outside of music, and making people dance.

Now I can help them dance the 'dance of life'.

The 'music' that comes out of me has no sound, but it impacts people stronger than any song I have ever performed.

The members of my new band are......all of mankind.

[Hey don, thats kinda poetic. LOL]

Anyways Lynne, thank you for not getting mad at me for comming across so strongly about alcohol use.

I do know about addictions, and how hard it is to beat those demons.

Been there, done that.

Please try to stop forever, if you can.

If we try to live right, we will live - alright.

love

don in ks

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Don, thank you so much for always being so open and sharing all your life's story's. From: ludichrist2000@...Date: Sun, 18 Jul 2010 17:31:36 -0700Subject: [ ] About me - Lynne

Hi Lynne

Thank you very much for not getting offended by my post about alcohol use.

Many people who drink would have, or would have just shined me on, by saying what I wanted to hear.

When I was DX'd in 2008 with HCV, the very first thing the doctor told me was 'no more alcohol'.

The second thing was 'no glove, no love'. [i will leave you to figure that one out.]

Lynne, my whole world came crashing in on me in that one moment, sitting in that little room.

I havent drank alcohol for 30 years, but the DX of HCV, and no more love life, smacked me hard.

I never figured any disease that others caught would ever strike me too.

I was superman, and immortal, living at the speed of light....and have always been a very sexual being.

Next thing I knew my lady had booted me out of the house after many many years together.

She didnt want to catch HCV, and didnt want to watch me die.

She was my whole world.

A month later my lady's sister came to her house to die of HCV related liver cancer.

I helped Hospice her.

She died in my arms after spitting up a bucket of blood all over me.

I got slammed with what my fate could be too.

My mind broke, right then.

I had been DX'd with HCV, lost my lady, my home, my life, my sex life, and been given a first hand look at my possible future.

I was sooooooo scared. I felt sooooooo low.

I went back to my motel room, and tried to kill myself.

I woke up in the mental hospital, drugged to the gills, doing the 'shuffle' when I walked.

Thank God someone saved me.

When they set me free, I got on the internet and began to research.

I didnt know where my liver was, what it did, and knew nothing about HCV.....except that it was deadly, and had ruined my life.

I was only 57, and not ready to throw in the towel.

I began joining groups, asking questions, and reading everything that I could find about liver diseases, and HCV.

In the last two years I have gotten a college education from research, and from each of you all.

Knowing what I went through, and what I saw others going through, I made up my mind early on to help others by sharing what I learned, and giving folks as much love as I have in me.

- Newbies are freaking out.

- Those facing HCV TX are scared to death.

- Those doing HCV TX are suffering ordeals I cannot imagine.

- Non-responders want to curl up and die.

- Responders live the rest of their days in fear of the HCV comming back.

- Those with worse problems like transplant or cancer shatter my mind.

Every one of these folks need support, and love.

I just have to help, however I can.

I remember how I felt, and feel....alone, unloved, ignorant, and scared.

Lynne, I try not to come across too strong, or in any way offensive to people.

But I am a product of my experiances too.

I dont know everything.....yet.....and I do fail every day.

But my heart is in the right place, Im sure of that.

I am also now on a path that I never imagined I would be on.

I am an old hippy musician, with little education outside of music, and making people dance.

Now I can help them dance the 'dance of life'.

The 'music' that comes out of me has no sound, but it impacts people stronger than any song I have ever performed.

The members of my new band are......all of mankind.

[Hey don, thats kinda poetic. LOL]

Anyways Lynne, thank you for not getting mad at me for comming across so strongly about alcohol use.

I do know about addictions, and how hard it is to beat those demons.

Been there, done that.

Please try to stop forever, if you can.

If we try to live right, we will live - alright.

love

don in ks

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