What

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Happened to the egroups?????? I was having a hard time getting in

here but I think I have it figured out now.......

Not much new to report.....I am still up and down. My mind plays lots

of tricks on me!

My head is tons better but I am still so achey...don't know why. I

must report that my sleep has improved immensly....something I

attribute to the stress the implants and the unknown put me under. I

always felt frustrated and used to wake up 20 times a night. Now I

seem to sleep really soundly. I slept 15 hours straight, not sure

what that was about, but I have got alot going on in my life right

now and I may be looking at some big changes, like moving to another

state and getting married. It is still up in the air right now, but

it seems god has put an incredible man in my life.....I feel lucky

and blessed, but also stressed as he has not seen my scars or my

breasts yet. He told me he didn't care if I had no breasts, that he

loves me, and would love me no matter what...this is a real mind blow

for me. It seems almost too good to be true.

Also, I am concerned about why my darned feet still hurt so much! AH!

ok so it hasn't been so long yet...it should get better...but I have

been bad as far as eating lately.....I mean I am eating healthy but I

have been eating some sweets(brownies) and I am drinking coffee

again. OOPS...well, I can't do this strict diet thing, I just don't

seem to be able to stick to it..it is so hard...especially since I am

working out again and when I work out I get so darned hungry.

WHat really has me concerned now is my self confidence. I have always

been a very sexual, self confident woman and now I am worried that I

am going to feel uncomfortable....insecure...this is the hardest

thing now...the rest is getting easier.

Ok well, anyone have any ideas on why the pain in my hands and feet

is not going away yet? I mean I am glad my head is better as that

really is the worse symptom....but the pain is pretty irritating to

say the least! PLUS my chest muscles still hurt from explant and that

was 7 weeks ago...I really want to start doing chest exercises but I

cannot even go there yet...ah...frustrating!

Ok I will stop now...the group seems a little quiet lately. I hope

everyone is doing well..hope your feeling better Patty.any ideas

about this pain crap I would appreciate it. I wish there were more

women posting about this stuff..but it seems as people get better

they put this behind them and move on with life...can't say I blame

them though..it gets old dwelling on this stuff...however I plan on

always giving people updates and hope, it is along hard road, but I

am proof that it can be overcome...one tiny step at a time