walking is not what it is cracked up to be!

[Guest guest]

I am a couple of months shy of my 2 year anniversary and I desperately would

like to say that I am so much better etc etc., but I am not and it really upsets

me. Some issues were resolved with the surgery but my main issue of walking any

distance is the same as pre-surgery. It seemed better at first but now I can't

walk a half a block before my hips lock up and then I can't really move. With

a cane it is much easier to walk so obviously that's what I do. The walking

poles are amazing. With them I feel like a person without problems. I don't

know or understand the mechanics but walking with those poles must realign or

align my spine so there is no feeling of locking up through my hips. All well

and good but I went through surgery so I could walk without locking up and that

ain't exactly the way it is. When I saw Dr. Rand last year he said I might be

leaning forward slightly so I imagine it is worse if walking is a symptom of

tilting forward. I keep putting off making the appointment because it is a

hellish train ride to get there and I don't want to know that my choice is

either living this way or more surgery. I am at the end of a doctoral program

and I have so much work to do plus I have to do an internship for a year if I

get selected and I can't fit surgery in but I want to feel more fit, which I do

not feel.

i must apologize for such a long kvetching session but most people just don't

understand, and my husband just gets kind of mad because my last surgery was

supposed to fix everything...

anyroad as the Beatles used to say, thanks for being here.

Avis