Short Update

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Hi Group! Yes is smilling. I am afraid to jinx myself if

I say too much about how GREAT I am feeling the last few days, but I

feel I owe it to the women, Caren, Jackie, and others who come here

who are confused sick and desperate. Jackie, ah, you sound so much

like I was....the denial, the not wanting to part with those breasts

you love, the illness, the struggle, the fight, the putting it

off...waiting another four months...oh yes been there done that.

Caren oh poor girl, I remember being where you are too, and I had the

shingles girl, I also had a positive EBV titer...makes no difference,

EBV is really another thing brought out by auto immune difficulties.

I am sure, really that it is your implants. Why is my head the

clearest it has been in a year and a half? I mean if it was stress

and depression(HA) wouldn't all that be worse after what I have been

through? How come at work I am suddenly able to concentrate, do

complex work on the comuter that even two weeks ago was such a

struggle? How can I go out on dates and feel like I am a real person

in a real world not a fogged out world? Why are my once arthritic and

achy feeling hands starting to feel normal again?

No I am not 100% but I can tell you this, had I ever felt like this

even one day with the implants I would still most likely have them.

I can go into a florescent lit store and not feel like I am going to

fall over. I am so happy the implants are gone....it was well worth

it to feel like a person in the real world again.

I am not so sure I won't have a relapse, but so far since Monday I

have seen improvement everyday.

Hang in there you guys...the worse parts may still be ahead, but the

sooner you end your fight and get the implants out the sooner you

will be on the road to where I am.....I cannot believe I am

stillawake after being up since 5:30 am...I did a hlaf an hour on the

stairclimber this morning, worked 8 hours, went walking all over the

hospital which is huge....went out tonight till 10 pm and have been

home cleaning up and burning some CD's on my computer...It is almost

12 midnight and I have to get to sleep so I can go to work in the

morning.

Oh yes...the scars are looking good. Not gone yet of course, but my

breasts are starting to look good, and I am much less concerned with

that anywyay. Once you start to get your health back none of that

other crap even matters.

I am thinking about all of you and hope you can come to terms with

your situations as I have day by day.

If tomorrow I am on here ranting and raving.....well, hey...lets not

think about it....I am happy to be feeling well.

Good luck