Now pneumonia

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Hi everyone, Just wanted to check in to let you all no what is happening since my stroke 4 weeks ago. Unfortunatly the stroke took all my left side,leg,arm,voice and some sight in both eyes i have just been told i can't drive anymore. I am now surrounded by wheelchairs, walking stick and lots of other aids and am still waiting to go to rehab. My doctors do not seem to think its going to get much better than it is.To really cap the lot i was rushed to hospital with sirens and flashing blue light on Friday having pains in my chest it seems i now have pneumonia on top of enerything else. Please dont think badly of me but is this now my life, friends come to visit me and they just sit and cry I WANT TO CRY but i keep being told to be strong that i will get over this BUT I DONT WANT TO its just to hard i had so much life left to live now its gone all in 4 weeks. I look at all the different tablets i have to take (19 ) and i dont want to take anymore, or do i take them all what a choice. I know i am feeling sorry for myself and that i wont do anything i am to much of a coward But i am so scared what is going to happen next I physicaly cant do anything or see most of what is going on. I am just going to hang on till i go to rehab its got to get better. I am so sorry to burden you all with this I was going to delete it but changed my mind Pleaseforgive my Jeanette UK

AIH 1998 cirrosis 2001