HI BERT HERE... :)

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HI EVERYONE,

JUST CHECKING IN......STILL NOT FEELING GOOD AT ALL, I AM STARTING TO FEEL THE EFFECTS OF THE LAST FEW DAYS OF PUSHING MYSELF SO HARD! NOT TO MENTION I WAS ALREADY FEELING CRAPPY WHEN I WAS PUSHING MYSELF......

I HAVE BEEN REALLY HARD ON MY KIDS TODAY....YELLING A LOT, THE PAIN GOT THE BETTER OF ME, I JUST DON'T HAVE THE STRENGTH OR ENERGY TO REPEAT MYSELF SOOOOOOO......MUCH!!!! IT SEEMS LIKE THE LITTLEST THINGS(that i should be able to handle with no problem)

GET THE BEST OF ME!!!! I AM JUST NOT WITH THIS.....THESE MEDS. KEEP ME SO DOPED UP THAT ITS HARD TO DRIVE, FOCUS, OR EVEN CONCENTRATE. I AM SUCH A BUSY MOM. I THINK I REALLY NEED SOMEONE HERE TO HELP WITH REGULAR HOUSEHOLD STUFF; AND TO RUN MY ERRANDS, SO I CAN JUST CONCENTRATE ON MY KIDS AND REST.....BUT MOSTLY SLEEP, SLEEP, SLEEP!!!!!

HUBBY AND I HAVE DISCUSSED IT A LITTLE, BUT THE MONEY PART OF IT, DOESN'T FIT INTO OUR BUDGET(OF COURSE). I WAS THINKING ABOUT ASKING MY HEALTH INS. IF THEY WOULD PAY FOR ANYTHING LIKE THAT? DOES ANYONE KNOW? I HAVE BLUE CARE NETWORK.

I AM ALSO CHECKING INTO ACCUPUNCTURE.....

I AM SORRY THAT I HAVE BEEN SO DOWN FOR ABOUT A WEEK AND A HALF NOW, BUT I JUST FEEL LIKE I AM GETTING WORSE, AND ITS REALLY WORRYING ME.....

THE SLEEPING PILLS HELPED, AND THE OTHER MEDS. ARE HELPING VERY VERY LITTLE......BUT I GUESS MAYBE THEY NEED MORE TIME TO WORK?

THE WEAKNESS IS AWFUL, TRYING TO OPEN A MAYO OR JELLY JAR; EVEN DOING DISHES, STAIRS....GOSH, I JUST LOOK AT THE STAIRS NOW AND GET DISCOURAGED!!!! I AM HANGING IN THERE THOUGH......

THANKS FOR YOUR EAR,

HOPE YOU ALL HAD A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS......

I DID HAVE A HAPPY ONE, BUT HONESTLY I AM GLAD ITS OVER.....

I KNOW I SOUND LIKE A GRINCH! (sorry)

TAKE CARE EVERYONE,

SEE YA LATER,

LOTS OF LOVE AND HUGS.....

**HAPPY**HOLIDAYS**

**AND WARM HUGS**

Bert.