a reorientation

[Guest guest]

hi everyone. i've been posting on here for about four months now,

sometimes obsessively, so i figured that i should post now about

some changes i've made in the past week.

after 4 months on a strict candida diet and supplement protocol,

i've decided to abandon most of it in favor of an approach that

incorporates ayurvedic diet guidlines and a 'wise traditions' style

of food preparation. i have reintroduced grains and honey, and am

focusing more on the manner and timing of my food consumption, as

well as other recommendations i learned of from reading s

Moritz's books.

i feel that the quality of my life is more important than

any 'regimine'. my social and personal life has completely

deteriorated- first because of my illness (which is not solely

candida-related, i have other problems), then because of my

inability to share meals with others and need to concentrate energy

on my diet and adhere to a strict supplementation schedule. my

partner calls my vitamin box 'the life support system'!

in all fairness, my candida diet was stricter than most. i have

extensive food allergies, with new ones constantly developing. this

has resulted in a diet mostly composed of cruciferous vegetables,

homemade yogurt, and turkey.

i can't live like this anymore. i must be able to find joy in my

daily activities, and this is impossible if i am constantly

monitoring my food intake, keeping a diary of my symptoms and

popping pills and mixing drinks. i will never get better if i am

miserable and isolated. i'm 24 years old and i have become a shut-in.

i know some of you have mentioned the danger of developing an eating

disorder from the strict diet, and i can attest to that! i never

want to count carbs or fat grams or protein, ever again. whatever

happened to enjoyment? i am trying to eliminate the voice that tells

me that a perfectly good and healthy food is 'bad'.

so, now i have been colon and kidney cleansing for the past couple

of weeks and am preparing for my first liver cleanse. i will keep

posting here (less frequently though. i need to get out more.) i

hope that everyone is doing well and enjoying their life, and i'll

keep y'all updated.

aliqaesong