hiya

[Guest guest]

Jeanette, my heart goes out to you. Maybe time will tell you why she

did it. Be patient with yourself and with her. I hope you have people

around you to hold and comfort you. Stay close to them.

Much love,

Sophie

[Guest guest]

Jeannette: Oh, how my heart goes out to you. I am so sorry that you are feeling such profound pain. What a sad loss for you. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and that I will be adding you and your family to our prayer list. May you feel the comfort of our dear Lord as I lift your name to Him.

If you need to talk, you can write to me privately.

Love and prayers -

gina

[Guest guest]

Dear Jeanette,

My heart goes out to you, I can imagine the pain you must be going through. About 7years ago, my husband's younger sister also committed suicide. It's a terrible, awful thing for the family members to endure, but you will come through this & you will be ok, Mike deals with it by believing his sister "went to a better place". Don't feel guilty-there is nothing you could have done to prevent this from happening. Just take care of yourself & cherish the beautiful memories you have of your sister. You are in our thoughts & prayers. Sharon S. & Mike-upstate N.Y.

Jeanette Carpenter <jeanette_cuk@...> wrote:

Hi, At the moment i am hurting so much and i dont know what to do, i am sorry to say that it is not because of my liver but because on Monday night my twin sister commited suicide. Her name was and she didnt know how much she was needed. I miss her so much it hurts every time i look in a mirror i see her. We were identical, no one knows why she did it and the coroner said that the police might have to get involved because there are a lot of suspicious circumstances ie a very large amount of money has gone missing in the last couple of days of her life and no one knows were it is. Please when you have a spare moment can you give us a thought. Hugs Jeanette UK

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[Guest guest]

Jeanette,

I am so incredibly sorry to hear about your sister. I cannot even

imagine (and hope I never can) the pain you must be going through.

How incredibly tragic. Please know you are in my thoughts and

prayers.

Please know also that if your sister did truly commit suicide and it

was not foul play, there was really nothing you could have done to

prevent it. I say this because I have been there. You guys should

feel very honored because this is something I do not share with

anyone. Only my family and very closest friends know how very close

I came to taking my own life. Even my daughter and stepdaughter do

not know and I hope they never do. I am a very smart lady and I

knew that if I really wanted to die, there would be absolutely no

way they could stop me. They might have been able to postpone my

plans for a bit, but they could do nothing to stop me if I decided

it was my day to die. I thank God every day that I did not follow

through, that I finally admitted how badly I needed help. When I

think about the pain I would have caused my loved ones had I taken

my own life, knowing that I came so close causes me tremendous pain

and guilt. When I hear of someone taking their own life, it always

makes me stop and think that it could very easily have been my

family going through the tremendous pain of knowing a loved one took

their own life. At this point, I cannot ever imagine doing ANYTHING

to cause those I love pain. However, when I was at that place in my

life, I really couldn't care less about the amount of pain that my

committing suicide would cause those I love. It wasn't that I

wanted to cause them pain. It wasn't that I didn't know how very

much they loved me. It was just that at that point, I was not

capable of dealing with my own pain, so I certainly was not able to

think of the pain I was causing them. I don't know if any of this

makes sense to anyone, but I hope my words have been helpful rather

than hurtful.

Take care,

W

[Guest guest]

Jeanette, my heart is broken for you. This is tragic! Ohhh, it is truly a sad day for you and your 'normal' has been changed forever. My husband is a facilitator of a group called The Compassionate Friends. It is a support group for those of us who have lost children, siblings, grandchildren. I compile the newsletter each month for our local chapter.

Interestinly enough, The Compassionate Friends (TCF) began in Coventry, England in 1969. There are many chapters in England, and if you would like and one day, feel up to it, I would be happy to find a chapter and see if there is one in your area. If you feel up to it, too, there is a website. It is http://www.compassionatefriends.org I hope you will find some comfort there. There are fliers for siblings, parents, many many areas that are available to the public.

Dear Jeanette, please know that this intense pain will become softer as time passes, yet the memories will linger forever. One day, you WILL wake up and your FIRST memory of your sister will be a happy one, not the tragic one you now hold in your heart.

The hole that is in the middle of your being is seen by many, even though many don't know it exists.

My heart goes out to you.

Debby, CA

[ ] Hiya

Hi, At the moment i am hurting so much and i dont know what to do, i am sorry to say that it is not because of my liver but because on Monday night my twin sister commited suicide. Her name was and she didnt know how much she was needed. I miss her so much it hurts every time i look in a mirror i see her. We were identical, no one knows why she did it and the coroner said that the police might have to get involved because there are a lot of suspicious circumstances ie a very large amount of money has gone missing in the last couple of days of her life and no one knows were it is. Please when you have a spare moment can you give us a thought. Hugs Jeanette UK

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[Guest guest]

Hi Jeanette,

My prayers are with you!!!

Love K

[Guest guest]

Jeanette, My love and prayers are with you, the pain will subside and the memories will take over. God Bless terri Jeanette Carpenter <jeanette_cuk@...> wrote: Hi, At the moment i am hurting so much and i dont know what to do, i am sorry to say that it is not because of my liver but because on Monday night my twin sister commited suicide. Her name was and she didnt know how much she was needed. I miss her so much it hurts every time i look in a mirror i see her. We were identical, no one knows why she did it and the coroner said that the police might have to get involved because there are a lot of suspicious circumstances ie a very large amount of money has gone missing in the last couple of days of her life and no one knows were it is. Please when you have a spare moment can you give us a thought. Hugs Jeanette UK

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[Guest guest]

Jeanette,

I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. My heart goes out to you. We

lost our nephew to suicide many years ago. Although we still miss

him, time does help in distancing the pain. I will keep you in my

thoughts and prayers.

nne

> Hi, At the moment i am hurting so much and i dont know what to do,

i am sorry to say that it is not because of my liver but because on

Monday night my twin sister commited suicide. Her name was and

she didnt know how much she was needed. I miss her so much it hurts

every time i look in a mirror i see her. We were identical, no one

knows why she did it and the coroner said that the police might have

to get involved because there are a lot of suspicious circumstances

ie a very large amount of money has gone missing in the last couple

of days of her life and no one knows were it is. Please when you have

a spare moment can you give us a thought. Hugs Jeanette UK

>

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> With you can get a bigger mailbox -- choose a size that

fits your needs

[Guest guest]

Dear Jeannette,

I am so sorry. I didn’t know you had

a twin sister. You are in my thoughts tonight,

[ ] Hiya

Hi, At the moment i am hurting so much and i dont know

what to do, i am sorry to say that it is not because of my liver but because on

Monday night my twin sister commited suicide. Her name was and she didnt

know how much she was needed. I miss her so much it hurts every time i look in

a mirror i see her. We were identical, no one knows why she did it and the

coroner said that the police might have to get involved because there are a lot

of suspicious circumstances ie a very large amount of money has gone missing in

the last couple of days of her life and no one knows were it is. Please when

you have a spare moment can you give us a thought. Hugs Jeanette UK

With you can get a bigger mailbox -- choose a size that fits

your needs

[Guest guest]

Jeanette...just read your post....What absolute tragedy....there are no

words that I can say that can ever make things right again.

I have just gotten up from my knees where I asked God to please send to

you and your family comfort and solace.

I have known sorrow and grief, but can't even image what yours must be

like.

Please know that my prayers are for you and I extend my deepest sympathy

and my warmest love.

Take care of yourself jerry

[Guest guest]

Jeannette,

I'm so sorry to be so long in responding to your post about your sisters death. I'm just catching up on e-mails. I am so sorry for your loss. I know there are no words that can describe how devastated you must feel. I can only say I'm thinking of you and praying for you.

Again, I'm so sorry for you loss.

[Guest guest]

hey everybody,

I am new here. For the past five years (oh, most definately more,

this is when I actually started doing something about it.) I have

suffered from Candida. It comes out my eyes and ears(! ) along

with an array of other wonderful symptoms. Just recently, I have

realized what exactly I must do to heal myself. Which is eat

nothing but beans, lentils, most veggies, white organic meat (and

shellfish), water and herb tea...(sigh). I react to everything.

Its really nice to finally find somewhere I can be understood.

marni

[Guest guest]

Hi Marni,

What most people with long-term candida are missing is feeding their good

bowel bacteria with inulin. If they did that the bowel candida would be

kept under control. There's more info on it on my website:

http://members.shaw.ca/duncancrow/inulin_prebiotic_probiotic.html

Duncan Crow

>

>

> hey everybody,

> I am new here. For the past five years (oh, most definately more, this

> is when I actually started doing something about it.) I have suffered from

> Candida. It comes out my eyes and ears(! ) along with an array of other

> wonderful symptoms. Just recently, I have realized what exactly I must do

> to heal myself. Which is eat nothing but beans, lentils, most veggies,

> white organic meat (and shellfish), water and herb tea...(sigh). I react

> to everything.

>

> Its really nice to finally find somewhere I can be understood.

>

> marni

[Guest guest]

Hi Marni,

I was just wondering how you realized it was coming out of your eyes and

ears. What are the symptoms? Thanks!

Curious,

Anne

On 12/22/03 6:42 PM, " Marni " <me2marn@...> wrote:

> hey everybody,

> I am new here. For the past five years (oh, most definately more,

> this is when I actually started doing something about it.) I have

> suffered from Candida. It comes out my eyes and ears(! ) along

> with an array of other wonderful symptoms. Just recently, I have

> realized what exactly I must do to heal myself. Which is eat

> nothing but beans, lentils, most veggies, white organic meat (and

> shellfish), water and herb tea...(sigh). I react to everything.

>

> Its really nice to finally find somewhere I can be understood.

>

> marni

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

When it comes out of my eyes - there is a deep pressure behind my

eye-ball, feels like its pushing my eye-ball out! It comes out as a

pearly color and in perfectly round balls (if you take one from each eye

and try to stick them together, they wont mush together - they will keep

their roundish formation.). At first I thought I had an eye infection,

but no. I can feel it roaming around and sometimes it sits right over

top of my iris and temporarily blinds me. When I eat something I'm

not supposed to have - it runs - like I am crying my eyes out. And its

really sticky. (if I eat white flour, my eyes puff out immediately

and they hurt - turn red and burn very badly - then they start to run

and the pressure is unbearable. Actaully, if someone says " there isn't

any white flour in here " I know they are wrong if I react this way.)

My ears - I did an ear candeling and it wasn't wax that came out! It

was a different color - different discharge... kinda like,...uhm, really

dry cottage cheese - without moisture.....I know this is a little

obscure, but I'm trying to liken it to something .. else ... maybe I

will get back to you on the ear thing....

marni

canda wrote:

> Hi Marni,

> I was just wondering how you realized it was coming out of your eyes and

> ears. What are the symptoms? Thanks!

>

> Curious,

> Anne

>

> On 12/22/03 6:42 PM, " Marni " <me2marn@...> wrote:

>

> > hey everybody,

> > I am new here. For the past five years (oh, most definately more,

> > this is when I actually started doing something about it.) I have

> > suffered from Candida. It comes out my eyes and ears(! ) along

> > with an array of other wonderful symptoms. Just recently, I have

> > realized what exactly I must do to heal myself. Which is eat

> > nothing but beans, lentils, most veggies, white organic meat (and

> > shellfish), water and herb tea...(sigh). I react to everything.

> >

> > Its really nice to finally find somewhere I can be understood.

> >

> > marni

> >

> >

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

wow, thanks Duncan! I will most certainly be reading up on inulin.

Because I react to wheat, is it still okay to take this?

thanks again, marni

Duncan Crow wrote:

>

> Hi Marni,

>

> What most people with long-term candida are missing is feeding their good

> bowel bacteria with inulin. If they did that the bowel candida would be

> kept under control. There's more info on it on my website:

> http://members.shaw.ca/duncancrow/inulin_prebiotic_probiotic.html

>

> Duncan Crow

>

> >

> >

> > hey everybody,

> > I am new here. For the past five years (oh, most definately more,

> this

> > is when I actually started doing something about it.) I have

> suffered from

> > Candida. It comes out my eyes and ears(! ) along with an array of

> other

> > wonderful symptoms. Just recently, I have realized what exactly I

> must do

> > to heal myself. Which is eat nothing but beans, lentils, most veggies,

> > white organic meat (and shellfish), water and herb tea...(sigh). I

> react

> > to everything.

> >

> > Its really nice to finally find somewhere I can be understood.

> >

> > marni

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Duncan,

Im just wondering if you can take inulin with the Yeast Buster's Kit?

This includes olive oil, caprylic acid, bentonite, and psyllium (im

sure you already know this...). thanks, marni

Duncan Crow wrote:

>

> Hi Marni,

>

> What most people with long-term candida are missing is feeding their good

> bowel bacteria with inulin. If they did that the bowel candida would be

> kept under control. There's more info on it on my website:

> http://members.shaw.ca/duncancrow/inulin_prebiotic_probiotic.html

>

> Duncan Crow

>

> >

> >

> > hey everybody,

> > I am new here. For the past five years (oh, most definately more,

> this

> > is when I actually started doing something about it.) I have

> suffered from

> > Candida. It comes out my eyes and ears(! ) along with an array of

> other

> > wonderful symptoms. Just recently, I have realized what exactly I

> must do

> > to heal myself. Which is eat nothing but beans, lentils, most veggies,

> > white organic meat (and shellfish), water and herb tea...(sigh). I

> react

> > to everything.

> >

> > Its really nice to finally find somewhere I can be understood.

> >

> > marni

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

> Hi Duncan,

> Im just wondering if you can take inulin with the Yeast Buster's Kit?

> This includes olive oil, caprylic acid, bentonite, and psyllium (im

> sure you already know this...). thanks, marni

Hi Marni,

I see no reason why not. Actually, inulin does not interfere with any

therapy I know of, and it may help more than you'd think. Psyllium is

cellulose, which is usable by some clostridia strains. This is how

bacteria are used to convert cellulose to sugar.

Duncan Crow

[Guest guest]

Hi ,

I am sorry to hear about the ice cold water. That is terrible. That

makes me cringe just to think about it.

I don't know too much about the tens unit, but I have heard good

things about it. I am sure there is others on the list that have

experience with it.

I am not doing so good. I am ready to chop my foot off. I am

sleeping worse than I was before my surgery. My painful foot, calf

and hip are waking me up all through the night.

My wonderful Doc made a house call yesterday. He had been in Montana

for a conferance on the ADR. He says that they are seeing what I am

going through with some of the patients that are having ADR. Not

alot of them just a small percentage. I guess I am one of the lucky

ones. Anyways he stopped to check up on me on his way back from this

conferance. Saved me a trip to his office. He has put me on

Neurontin for 2 weeks. And if I don't improve then he will do a

mylogram(sp?).

I am going to stay positive as best I can though. A good attitude

goes a long ways.

I hope everyone is doing the best they can. This is a long hard road

we walk. I am grateful for the support and friendship of you all.

Take care and be safe,

Katrina in Idaho

> hi everyone hope u all are doing good.

>

>

> so i went to PT today and next week he is going to try a TENS unit

on

> me. Does anyone have experience with this? I'm hoping it helps

if

> even a little bit. Since 2 weeks ago ( my mothers boyfriend

thought it

> would be " funny " to throw ice cold water on my back.. ha funny yea

ok

> not funny) any ways since then my right leg has pain and is numb

all

> the time now. and im back on meds. well im off to bed

>

> Hi Janine i hope your doing ok. and Katrina how are you doing?

>

> g'night

>

>

[Guest guest]

At 02:12 AM 8/5/05, you wrote:

>hi everyone hope u all are doing good.

>

>

>so i went to PT today and next week he is going to try a TENS unit on

>me. Does anyone have experience with this?

My insurance bought me a tens. Paid too much for it. They paid about

$700 you can buy them for $200 on Ebay. Mine will sometimes break up the

pain, and sometimes it doesn't. It's another tool in the toolbox. The

Doctors Unit would pulse, that seemed to help, mine is constant. I

haven't used it for about a month. IK found out that being outside in 90 +

degrees, the goo that holds the pads to your skin basically turns to jelly

and melts. I ruined 4 pads that way. Indoors in AC it's fine

though. Good luck, Dave