Hi All!

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Hi everybody - I've been away from the computer for a few days

because I haven't felt well. Last week was a very busy one and on

Friday morning I woke up with everything hurting me at once. I went

to PT shere she massaged my neck back and knees while I practically

sobbed. I was having horrific spasms in my " gluteus medius " , my

knees were acting up and I couldn't tun my neck for anything. I was

feeling a little better yesterday and managed to get out of bed and

go to PT again. She stretched me and told me that she has spoken

with the doc and they also feel that besides the chondrocalcinosis

in my knees that I also have IBS! Ha! Ha! I thought, " What the heck

does Irritable Bowel Syndrome have to do with my knees and back? " I

cracked her up, it is actually Iliotibial Band Syndrome!!! She said

that people prone to it are avid runners (certainly not me!) and

indivicuals with mechanical problems of their gait. So, I know I

need to suck it up here - I mean it is not a cancer diagnosis or

anything, but here I was trudging along thinking I am going to feel

better soon and boom...I have another thing wrong with me. I feel

sooooo defective!! Is there anything right in our bodies?? I feel

like my whole body is just wearing down before my eyes and I'll

never be able to catch up, almost like it is down hill from here. I

know I am depressing here today and I do apologize for that - I am

NOT looking for anything sympathy, if anything I wish I lived closer

to one of you so that you could slap some sense into me! I should be

thankful that I am not " too " depressed, since I know I am depressed?

Does that make any sense? OK, so the point of my post was to note to

Dianne in RI and Theresa in TX, whose is visiting in Connecticut, I

am not going to meet up tomorrow. The thought of sitting and driving

a car for any extended period of time isn't in my realm of

possibility at this time. I am sorry as I was looking forward to

meeting the two of you - I just feel that I have to stop pushing

myself to the degree that I do at times and take better care of

myself. I hope you understand. Thanks for letting me vent everyone -

and I hope to " chat " with all of you tomrrow night. If it turns out

anything like last Wednesday night, I'll be laughing before I know

it!! Take care!