PA/Re: too hard to tough it out

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I have to remind myself not to lean forward and when I sit not to

lean left and not hunch my shoulders like I am cold. I need a

recording and a level to know I am straight.

> >

> > All-Feeling very alone lately. Mostly I suppose as I am unable

to

> > complain and or discuss my maladies with family. I keep feeling

> like

> > something is wrong and I am not healing right. I can't explain

it

> > and I can not fix it. I am scared. First, I have the tingling on

> the

> > left side of my body including my face. I feel like I have a

sinus

> > infection inside my whole body. I feel a burning sensation on my

> > skin and inside my back. I see a neurologist on the 8th of

August.

> > As for my hardware, I feel my tailbone everytime I sit. I

> > always " feel " my hardware. Sometimes when I sit, unevenly as

both

> > cheeks do not hit the seat at the same time and all the way back

on

> > the seat, I get a sharp pain starting below the left hip line

and

> > runs down ward. In the center of my back I feel a fist of

hardness

> > and it hurts though Xrays show it is fine. I have water therapy

two

> > times a week and am doing PT exercises at home. The surgeon

tells

> me

> > to sit and or stand so that my trunk is resting over my hips ( I

> > tend to lean forward as it is more comfortable), his way puts a

> > stretch on my hips which is still uncomfortable. Do the hips

ever

> > stretch out? Anyway, I was quite crippled up on the left side

prior

> > to surgery and all of this is so new and raw to me. I have had a

> > MRI, CAT scan of the head and neck. I have had blood work done.

I

> am

> > three months post op and can not have a five minute conversation

> > without pain meds, if so I just want to scream that whatever it

is

> > is not important and that I hurt, endlessly hurt and I can not

make

> > it go away. So, I take another pain med and suffer it out

another

> > day. I don't mean to keep sounding so glum but geeezzz..I keep

> > looking and I just don't know what to do next so I am waiting

for

> > the nuero appt. Thanks for listening...

> >

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