emotional scars of revision

September 2, 2008

Dear G,

Oh, how I relate to that long time friend making such a comment that

you can't find a comeback.

I had two such disasters. I had one sister who basically took a

sabbatical when I had surgery. She was

my best friend. One day she is there, the next she's not, literally.

I kept asking for her but she was

nowhere to be found for the next few weeks and when she did show she

was emotionally untouchable.

I mourned the loss of her. One of my other sisters was there for me

at least for the first few months then one day she sent an email that

threw me into the depths of despair. That was the clincher that made

me get therapy and antidepressants. She was rude, mean and spiteful

stating because I was in pain, I was making everybody else life hell

and if I didn't watch it I would lose everybody in my life. After the

shock wore off, I opted to just not speak to her of anything

emotionally or pain related at all. Our relationship was just on the

pleasantry level, right where she wanted it. Some part of our

relationship died that day and has never been the same since as much

as I try to say she reached her limit and she tried her best, I still

was very angry and still mourning the loss of the first. Funny, after

two years of therapy and time and distance, it is still really hard

to talk about. The losses are tough but ladies, consider this, we as

individuals in our lives and together as a force are tougher. VC

Quality Assurance Manager-Cadra Product

SofTech, Inc.

59 Composite Way, Suite 401

Lowell, MA 01851

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