Worries as Surgery Date Approaches

[Guest guest]

So glad I have this group to vent to. My surgery is scheduled for

Oct. 12th. As the date gets closer, I worry more. I will only have

enough time at work to get paid for about 3 weeks. So money is a

worry. But, one thing that has really been on my mind lately is my

job. I am an RN in Neonatal ICU. You would think working with premies

that there wouldn't be too much physical demand. The last few nights

(12 hour shifts) I worked, we were very busy. Sometimes we have to

move equipment to make room for patients, etc. anyway, the physical

demand of those past few nights really did me in. Thank goodness I

had 4 nights off to try to revive. My point of all this whining is

that I'm afraid I won't be able to return to my job because of all

this. If I can't do this job, I don't know what I'd do--have done

this for most of my 29yrs as a nurse. I also worry about how much

mobility I will lose. I am having my fusion extended to L5 (original

fusion T3-L1 with Harrington rod in 1976). My husband doesn't say

much when I try to express how I feel to him. Sometimes, I feel that

I'm an inconvenience to him although I don't think he really feels

that way. But, as I've been laying around taking pain meds for the

past few days, I feel like he thinks I'm just lazy. Thanks for

allowing me to express my feelings. This group has been so supportive

and I appreciate all of you. Janet in SC