Re: 2 bad days-school and death my godchild whom i never met/OT

[Guest guest]

Algebra was probably not the easiest class you should of taken your

first time back to school especially since you are still adjusting to

your new medications.

And all the mess with the buses ect. got you very frustrated--next

time make a dry run before hand.

You know you must not try and do too much at once--working and going

to school on your first day would be too much for anyone to handle.

So stop beating yourself up about this and try and figure out a way

to make your time work for you. See if you can drop this class and

pick up a easier one to start with.

Are you still taking your vitamins too?? Are you taking any adrenal

support?? You really need both of these supplements to go with your

armour so you can be in tip top shape to handle these stresses.

And the baby that is a blow---it's always is a blow to lose a child

no matter what age. I feel for you and your friends.

Life is always one thing after another. WE all need to learn how to

cope and handle it. Take one stress at a time and work through a way

to deal with it.

Take extra vitamins at times of heavy stress. Get more sleep and eat.

Being stuck on the bus is when in your back pack you should carry

food for emergencies--water, apple, sandwich. Always be prepared.

This was one of those terrible days that all of us have at sometime

in our life. Many of us have terrible months and years of stresses.

We have to figure out a fix, a day of repair--seeing something to the

end will help us get though tough times.

Get enough sleep--that is the KEY as well as Food!!! take care tina

[Guest guest]

take a deep breath *hugs*.. i know what you mean about best friends kids..

ive been not pregnant for years now.. my friends kids mean the world to me

2 bad days-school and death my godchild whom i

never met/OT

> i've had a very hard time the past two days. i posted twice in my

> other group today...once this morning and once this afternoon.

> here's what's been happening with me. i need support and prayers. i

> may not be able to give much for a little while.

>

> firt post:

> hi guys, here's a simplified version of my day yesterday.

>

> i waited for my bus to take me to class. it never showed up. i

> thought it broke down. i found out later i was waiting at the wrong

> place.

>

> i walked to another street, called the bus terminal and got info so

> i could get to class. thank goodness it wasn't extremely cold

> because I was outside for a long time with a 20 llb pack on my back.

>

> i got to school with time to spare. my algebra teacher seems like

> she will be great.

>

> already lost first day in class though. don't understand much of

> anything.

>

> i stayed after class and talked to the teacher. i will get a tutor.

> she will help me.

>

> i missed my bus to get me back to work. okay so I get on another one-

> -same one that got me to school--thinking it would take me almost

> right next to where i live--just in time for hubby to pick me up and

> take me to work.

>

> well, come to find out that bus doesn't always go to that road i

> needed to go...only some of them do. called and left a message on my

> hubby's cell phone to go to work without me. i wouldn't make it in

> time. he was scheduled at 4:00--me at 5:00. his cell phone battery

> was not charged.

>

> the bus driver tells me to get off bus and wait in this one spot for

> another bus which will take me within 1 block of my job.

>

> I get on the bus and within 5 min. we are rear-ended. everyone is

> okay, but we are stuck...have to wait for police. 45 min. later we

> are on our way. driver drops me off.

>

> okay...then i have to cross an extremely busy intersection. All the

> walk/stop lights for pedestrians are broken. each side has like 5

> lanes of traffic.

>

> i am afraid i will get hit...feel like i'm frogger trying to cross

> the road. after 15 min. of waiting and walking to the best location,

> i finally cross.

>

> get to work 10 min. late, run to bathroom and change my clothes. we

> are busy.

>

> i am starving. i nibbled on nuts and raisins at school...so i eat

> whatever I can at work (instead of the tuna that's in my

> backpack)...a biscuit (full of cheese that I'm allergic to), some

> mashed potatoes (full of milk that I'm allergic to), and later 2

> fried chicken fingers.

>

> i am slow, slow, and feel sick. finally finish working and come home.

>

> i start on my algebra homework. After the first 4 problems, I'm

> lost. it takes my husband 30 minutes to explain something to me.

>

> i got mad and frustrated...very upset and emotional. we went to Wal-

> Mart at 2 a.m. and took a break then I went to bed.

>

> my body hurts. my mind hurts. today is my only day off and i have

> like 80 algebra problems to do. they are due by tomorrow when i have

> class. i am just going to do my best and that's it.

>

> i'm already thinking of dropping the class and saying forget

> it...forget ever thinking you're gonna graduate from college. but i

> don't want to give up.

>

> anyway, my endo said my body was not ready to go back to school.

> maybe he's right. maybe i should have listen. Or not?

>

> i don't get tested for dyscalculia and ADD until next week.

>

> i'm gonna call the campus today and try to get a tutor. My mind is

> mush.

>

> sorry guys...i just needed to vent.

>

> i don't feel any better physically after sleep. it certainly was not

> restorative last night.

>

> i'm just gonna try my best this morning to wade through this and be

> good to myself.

>

> that's for listening. Sheila

>

> 2nd post:

>

> you heard about my day yesterday. well, this morning, i got up, had

> my coffee, and I tackled my algebra which I barely understood. Kemal

> was trying to tutor me for about an hour.

>

> anyway, i took a break and went to check my e-mail. had a letter

> from our best friend of 8 years (we went on vacation with him and

> his fiancee this summer...they got married on the beach & we stood

> up with them). his wife is my best girlfriend. we see each other all

> the time. we are also starting a business together...we are in

> planning stages.

>

> anyway, the message was that yesterday morning (while I was having

> my " bad day " dealing with missing buses, first day of school, etc),

> his wife had a miscarriage.

>

> i feel devasted...been crying and crying. we were the godparents.

> they asked us when they were trying to conceive 6 or 9 months ago.

> we were just at their place last week celebrating.

>

> we don't have children, so this godchild was very important to us.

> our friends are our family. our best friend's parents are parents to

> us...we are very close to them. also yesterday, his father was

> injured on the job. his brother is like our brother...thank God he

> just arrived safely from a European trip.

>

> anyway, we called them and they asked us to come over. She is fine

> physically, and they both are very brave...trying very hard to look

> to the future.

>

> we were all hugging each other and talking, but i feel such

> emptiness inside...i feel unbelievably foggy...in a daze. every

> single part of my body hurts. i guess this little god-child was the

> closet i ever came to having a child.

>

> i know many of us with this disease (Hashi's) have never conceived.

> i know many with this disease (Hashi's) have miscarriages. it's so

> heart-breaking.

>

> i know crying will get the pain out and that's good.

>

> after we left their place we had to go to the grocery store to pick

> up some things. the store in next to our apartment complex. while we

> were in the store, the police came in. they were looking for

> someone. not sure what happened, but there were probably over a

> dozen police cars around the store and going by our apt. complex.

> there was a helicopter in the sky searching for someone.

>

> never in all my years of living here have i seen more than 3 cop

> cars at once...and i've never seen them in the sky.

>

> we ran to our car. then we grabbed our stuff and ran into our

> apt...not knowing if someone was lurking around.

>

> adrenaline surges from the fear.

>

> i feel like i can't think...hearing buzzing in my head. that has

> happened for years and years when i get under severe stress.

>

> when i went to the bathroom, i heard pounding in my ears...this also

> happens when my stress level gets very high. i don't know what it is.

>

> i just want to go to bed and not get up for a long time. i have

> nothing left inside of me.

>

> anyway, i can't write or think anymore. have to go for tutoring in

> the morning, then my class. those of you who pray, keep me and Kemal

> and our friends in your prayers, please. hugs, sheila

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

I am so sorry to hear about your situtations that are going on in your life

right now- I will pray for you, Kemal and your friends and family- I hope things

get better for you all- I am very sorry your friend had a miscarriage. that is

very sad. I also dont have kids and several years ago had a miscarrage and I was

very sad becuase I wanted a child very badly- I will keep your friend in my

prayers- It is very hard to let go of a baby that goes to heaven. God bless You

and your family. keisha

Kemal And Sheila Kalajdzic <kemalandsheila@...> wrote:i've had a very hard

time the past two days. i posted twice in my

other group today...once this morning and once this afternoon.

here's what's been happening with me. i need support and prayers. i

may not be able to give much for a little while.

firt post:

hi guys, here's a simplified version of my day yesterday.

i waited for my bus to take me to class. it never showed up. i

thought it broke down. i found out later i was waiting at the wrong

place.

i walked to another street, called the bus terminal and got info so

i could get to class. thank goodness it wasn't extremely cold

because I was outside for a long time with a 20 llb pack on my back.

i got to school with time to spare. my algebra teacher seems like

she will be great.

already lost first day in class though. don't understand much of

anything.

i stayed after class and talked to the teacher. i will get a tutor.

she will help me.

i missed my bus to get me back to work. okay so I get on another one-

-same one that got me to school--thinking it would take me almost

right next to where i live--just in time for hubby to pick me up and

take me to work.

well, come to find out that bus doesn't always go to that road i

needed to go...only some of them do. called and left a message on my

hubby's cell phone to go to work without me. i wouldn't make it in

time. he was scheduled at 4:00--me at 5:00. his cell phone battery

was not charged.

the bus driver tells me to get off bus and wait in this one spot for

another bus which will take me within 1 block of my job.

I get on the bus and within 5 min. we are rear-ended. everyone is

okay, but we are stuck...have to wait for police. 45 min. later we

are on our way. driver drops me off.

okay...then i have to cross an extremely busy intersection. All the

walk/stop lights for pedestrians are broken. each side has like 5

lanes of traffic.

i am afraid i will get hit...feel like i'm frogger trying to cross

the road. after 15 min. of waiting and walking to the best location,

i finally cross.

get to work 10 min. late, run to bathroom and change my clothes. we

are busy.

i am starving. i nibbled on nuts and raisins at school...so i eat

whatever I can at work (instead of the tuna that's in my

backpack)...a biscuit (full of cheese that I'm allergic to), some

mashed potatoes (full of milk that I'm allergic to), and later 2

fried chicken fingers.

i am slow, slow, and feel sick. finally finish working and come home.

i start on my algebra homework. After the first 4 problems, I'm

lost. it takes my husband 30 minutes to explain something to me.

i got mad and frustrated...very upset and emotional. we went to Wal-

Mart at 2 a.m. and took a break then I went to bed.

my body hurts. my mind hurts. today is my only day off and i have

like 80 algebra problems to do. they are due by tomorrow when i have

class. i am just going to do my best and that's it.

i'm already thinking of dropping the class and saying forget

it...forget ever thinking you're gonna graduate from college. but i

don't want to give up.

anyway, my endo said my body was not ready to go back to school.

maybe he's right. maybe i should have listen. Or not?

i don't get tested for dyscalculia and ADD until next week.

i'm gonna call the campus today and try to get a tutor. My mind is

mush.

sorry guys...i just needed to vent.

i don't feel any better physically after sleep. it certainly was not

restorative last night.

i'm just gonna try my best this morning to wade through this and be

good to myself.

that's for listening. Sheila

2nd post:

you heard about my day yesterday. well, this morning, i got up, had

my coffee, and I tackled my algebra which I barely understood. Kemal

was trying to tutor me for about an hour.

anyway, i took a break and went to check my e-mail. had a letter

from our best friend of 8 years (we went on vacation with him and

his fiancee this summer...they got married on the beach & we stood

up with them). his wife is my best girlfriend. we see each other all

the time. we are also starting a business together...we are in

planning stages.

anyway, the message was that yesterday morning (while I was having

my " bad day " dealing with missing buses, first day of school, etc),

his wife had a miscarriage.

i feel devasted...been crying and crying. we were the godparents.

they asked us when they were trying to conceive 6 or 9 months ago.

we were just at their place last week celebrating.

we don't have children, so this godchild was very important to us.

our friends are our family. our best friend's parents are parents to

us...we are very close to them. also yesterday, his father was

injured on the job. his brother is like our brother...thank God he

just arrived safely from a European trip.

anyway, we called them and they asked us to come over. She is fine

physically, and they both are very brave...trying very hard to look

to the future.

we were all hugging each other and talking, but i feel such

emptiness inside...i feel unbelievably foggy...in a daze. every

single part of my body hurts. i guess this little god-child was the

closet i ever came to having a child.

i know many of us with this disease (Hashi's) have never conceived.

i know many with this disease (Hashi's) have miscarriages. it's so

heart-breaking.

i know crying will get the pain out and that's good.

after we left their place we had to go to the grocery store to pick

up some things. the store in next to our apartment complex. while we

were in the store, the police came in. they were looking for

someone. not sure what happened, but there were probably over a

dozen police cars around the store and going by our apt. complex.

there was a helicopter in the sky searching for someone.

never in all my years of living here have i seen more than 3 cop

cars at once...and i've never seen them in the sky.

we ran to our car. then we grabbed our stuff and ran into our

apt...not knowing if someone was lurking around.

adrenaline surges from the fear.

i feel like i can't think...hearing buzzing in my head. that has

happened for years and years when i get under severe stress.

when i went to the bathroom, i heard pounding in my ears...this also

happens when my stress level gets very high. i don't know what it is.

i just want to go to bed and not get up for a long time. i have

nothing left inside of me.

anyway, i can't write or think anymore. have to go for tutoring in

the morning, then my class. those of you who pray, keep me and Kemal

and our friends in your prayers, please. hugs, sheila