Re: feeling really really sad over suicide.

[Guest guest]

A friend of the family's committed suicide on Friday. I just don't understand

it.

I have been sick for over 16 years not knowing what was wrong and yes there were

times when I felt totally so hopeless. How can I live like this from bed to the

kitchen or bathroom back to bed. Now feeling worse, because abx are doing it's

thing. I'm herxing and feeling like s**t! Can't stop crying. I know it will

get better, but not today.

This lady friend was told by a physician that she had cervical/ovarian cancer.

Same thing her mom died of. So she got all her affairs together and decided to

end her life. She had no symptoms, she was in no physical pain, she seemed fine

- well except for what the doctor had told her.

So last Thursday night she took a bunch of pills went to bed and waited for her

life to end. She woke up the next morning - she was still alive! So she waited

for her husband to leave for work. Found a gun and finished it.

Her husband came home around 5ish and grabbed the mail outside, went inside and

found his wife dead.

The saddest part was that a few days later he opened the envelope from the lab.

She was negative for cervical/ovarian cancer.

I'm herxing and I am totally sad/crying at such a senseless loss. I just can't

wrap my brain around this.

It just is hurting so badly, she was only 52. So senseless!

Thanks for letting me unload,

Jeannie

[Guest guest]

J--

I'm sorry for your pain. My SIL took her life four years ago--it was completely

unexpected--she was only 48--left behind 2 gorgeous young girls--still can't

believe she is gone. Now when I look back at where she vacationed each summer

and her symptoms, I truly wonder if she had Lyme all along--was diagnosed with

fibromylagia a few years prior--I know not everything is Lyme, but I do wonder

if she could have been helped if she had just stayed with us for awhile

longer.........

I can't imagine the emotional and/or physical pain that one must reach to feel

that death is the only way out...........it is a true loss!

Mira

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[Guest guest]

Absolutely horrible loss Jeannie. I will pray for you and those who

loved her. What a tragic, horrible loss. I bet that doctor barely bats

an eyelash at what he triggered... But it's done now isn't it.

I also suffered horribly... for me it was 18 years ago it started but

was diagnosed 8 years into that. I still suffer at times. I held on

during my misdiagnosed years (cfs,fibro) because I just hoped that

someday there would be a treatment or even a cure. I found treatment and

I have a life now out of bed even out of the house! It wasn't easy

especially in the beginning but it was worth it. My life isn't easy but

easier than it was but when it hit my brain it got harder... much easier

to give up..more suffering. I got close one time but got to the hospital

before I did anything. Your friend must have really been traumatized by

her mother's dying... to witness such suffering. Mental pain and

suffering is so much worse than physical...

Hugs,

Jen

Lymie parents, 5yo Lymie/Aspie

On 11/10/2010 6:18 PM, Jeannie wrote:

>

> A friend of the family's committed suicide on Friday. I just don't

> understand it.

>

> I have been sick for over 16 years not knowing what was wrong and yes

> there were times when I felt totally so hopeless. How can I live like

> this from bed to the kitchen or bathroom back to bed. Now feeling

> worse, because abx are doing it's thing. I'm herxing and feeling like

> s**t! Can't stop crying. I know it will get better, but not today.

>

> This lady friend was told by a physician that she had cervical/ovarian

> cancer. Same thing her mom died of. So she got all her affairs

> together and decided to end her life. She had no symptoms, she was in

> no physical pain, she seemed fine - well except for what the doctor

> had told her.

>

> So last Thursday night she took a bunch of pills went to bed and

> waited for her life to end. She woke up the next morning - she was

> still alive! So she waited for her husband to leave for work. Found a

> gun and finished it.

>

> Her husband came home around 5ish and grabbed the mail outside, went

> inside and found his wife dead.

>

> The saddest part was that a few days later he opened the envelope from

> the lab. She was negative for cervical/ovarian cancer.

>

> I'm herxing and I am totally sad/crying at such a senseless loss. I

> just can't wrap my brain around this.

>

> It just is hurting so badly, she was only 52. So senseless!

>

> Thanks for letting me unload,

> Jeannie

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thank you to those who responded to my email. When you are home alone and

feeling crappy and something bad like this happens, it nice to know there are

people who support you.

Again thank you.

Jeannie

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Re: [ ] feeling really really sad over suicide.

A friend of the family's committed suicide on Friday. I just don't understand

it.

I have been sick for over 16 years not knowing what was wrong and yes there were

times when I felt totally so hopeless. How can I live like this from bed to the

kitchen or bathroom back to bed. Now feeling worse, because abx are doing it's

thing. I'm herxing and feeling like s**t! Can't stop crying. I know it will

get better, but not today.

This lady friend was told by a physician that she had cervical/ovarian cancer.

Same thing her mom died of. So she got all her affairs together and decided to

end her life. She had no symptoms, she was in no physical pain, she seemed fine

- well except for what the doctor had told her.

So last Thursday night she took a bunch of pills went to bed and waited for her

life to end. She woke up the next morning - she was still alive! So she waited

for her husband to leave for work. Found a gun and finished it.

Her husband came home around 5ish and grabbed the mail outside, went inside and

found his wife dead.

The saddest part was that a few days later he opened the envelope from the lab.

She was negative for cervical/ovarian cancer.

I'm herxing and I am totally sad/crying at such a senseless loss. I just can't

wrap my brain around this.

It just is hurting so badly, she was only 52. So senseless!

Thanks for letting me unload,

Jeannie

[Guest guest]

My heart goes out to you. Its always sad when you know someone is making

bad choices. But remember you are NOT to blame. And where there is life

there is still hope!

A big hug to you!

www.lyme-resource.com

You can lead a person to a fact, but you can't make them think! -

> Re: [ ] feeling really really sad over suicide.

>

> A friend of the family's committed suicide on Friday. I just

> don't understand it.

>

> I have been sick for over 16 years not knowing what was wrong

> and yes there were times when I felt totally so hopeless.

> How can I live like this from bed to the kitchen or bathroom

> back to bed. Now feeling worse, because abx are doing it's

> thing. I'm herxing and feeling like s**t! Can't stop

> crying. I know it will get better, but not today.

>

> This lady friend was told by a physician that she had

> cervical/ovarian cancer. Same thing her mom died of. So she

> got all her affairs together and decided to end her life.

> She had no symptoms, she was in no physical pain, she seemed

> fine - well except for what the doctor had told her.

>

> So last Thursday night she took a bunch of pills went to bed

> and waited for her life to end. She woke up the next morning

> - she was still alive! So she waited for her husband to

> leave for work. Found a gun and finished it.

>

> Her husband came home around 5ish and grabbed the mail

> outside, went inside and found his wife dead.

>

> The saddest part was that a few days later he opened the

> envelope from the lab. She was negative for cervical/ovarian

> cancer.

>

> I'm herxing and I am totally sad/crying at such a senseless

> loss. I just can't wrap my brain around this.

>

> It just is hurting so badly, she was only 52. So senseless!

>

> Thanks for letting me unload,

> Jeannie

>

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