Guest guest Posted December 29, 2001 Report Share Posted December 29, 2001 Hi, All, I'm still at home and away from my computer regularly (until after New Year's) so I won't be able to respond much until then. But count me in among those of you who have had it suggested to you that you are so invested in the pay-off of being chronically ill that your mind just isn't letting your body get better. It came from a non LLMD physician, but it was our home family doc whom I've known for many years, so it was very hurtful to hear that he thought that was a possibility. I can't imagine anyone who would choose to be ill w. Lyme, and I truthfully don't see any payback in it for me. But even having to protest such an idea at all makes it sound like you're in denial ab. it (and takes so much energy). I've been sick for 7 years (5 before Lyme was dx'd) and I've been working on my doctorate as I can and doing everything I can think of to get well, including " thinking positive " and humor and alternative stuff and living life as fully as I possibly can. This doc knows me reasonably well, but doesn't know a lot ab. my current life in grad school. I just feel so exhausted and defeated when I have to face this question. If I am keeping myself sick for the payoff, I sure don't know how I'm doing it. Thank you for listening. I know many of us have had it suggested to us that we are somehow getting something out of being sick, so we don't get better. I guess I have to remember that a doc may take this angle when they can't " fix " your illness. Healing and good wishes to all, Marie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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