Turning Inward and Faith

[Guest guest]

HI all:

I have been interested in many messages lately where people have shared

how their faith and belief sustain them. I remember that when I was the

most ill during the earlier treatment periods when I was on 3 abx at once

and having cardiac-herxheimers, and so forth - I made a promise to myself

that I would continue to read my spiritual literature no matter what

happened. Sometimes my eyes would really limit me and sometimes my brain

was so foggy and non-comprehending that I would not remember the next day

what I was read. But I have continued and will continue with this even

after I have improved how even much I am going to.

It was a real turning inward - as the energy levels were not available for

outward activity it was as if there was only this Core or Center there

under the pain and the fright that would respond to the words of Truth. I

was also amazed to find that on nights when I had trouble sleeping and

especially when I was frightened in the night a repetition of the 23rd

Psalm became important to me. Not just repeating but a profound meditation

on the meaning of every phrase - and this eventually had a calming and

assuring effect as the Truth of this Spiritual song penetrated into me.

Nor do I discount the possibility of healing from the Higher Power Who is

always with us and working irrespective of our receptivity - this even

thought I have lost one daughter to Kidney failure and a wife with advanced

MS. It is not up to me to decide what is and is not possible - I wouldn't

be so egocentric to deny something beyond my own understanding.

I appreciate all those testimonies of faith and the power it brings to each

of us.

Peace and better health to all:

-GLEN