Depression/Anxiety

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Hi gang-

Seeing lots of posts about depression and anxiety.

Must be another part of our symptoms that cycle. Iam

in that mode myself right now too. I have tries since

last night to shake it but nothing works. Im on Paxil

and Xanax and even those arent doing the trick. Im not

feeling suicidal or homocidal. Dont even have the

energy for that. Just feeling so empty and

discouraged. I have been off all abx for about 2 weeks

so I know its not from those. I really feel like I

have no control over any of my emotions at any given

time. I can be crying one minute and in a rage the

next over absoultly nothing. Im fighting with anyone

around me and then get depressed because I feel alone.

My kids arent real sure what to make of the whole

thing and are very careful about what they say and do

right now. The best way I can describe it is to say I

feel like a caged Tiger trying to escape. I pace the

floor cant sleep cant eat. And I just want to get in

the car and GO!! Anywhere but here and alone. I love

my kids and cant imagine life without them but feel so

inadequate as a mother right now. My son is taking on

the majority of the responsibility at home including

paying the bills. He is only 16. I am very blessed to

have such a wonderful young man but at the same time

feel I am robbong him of the best years of his life.

Sorry to ramble on but I know you guys understand and

wont growl for my whining and venting.

Thanks for being here and I love you all,

(MI)

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