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Hi, Im , 45 single mom, have an 8 yr old daughter. I have been

chronically ill for over 15 years, dx with Fibro about 10 ago, but I

always felt that it was something more. I had half my thyroid

removed due to a questionable lesion, a year ago, and take bovine

thyroid for that. " thats an entirely long drawn out topic in itself "

for another time. My main problems (besides the pain and fatigue)

are mood swings,confusion,serious visual problems that my doctor

doesnt even believe, hearing problems, (mainly processing the

incoming) overall brain fog, horrible depression and generalized AND

social anxiety. I also have sporatic facial numbness, tingling of

the limbs, bone pain, knee joints pain,. I take tramadol two a day,

which enables me to function. I'm broke, unemployed, trying to file

bankruptcy so i can keepmy house, (im dreaming there) and I have lost

all my friends, my fmaily members all think Im just crazy and lazy,

and I really have no one to turn to. I live in central Illinois, and

I found a specialist online, Dr. Christ in Springfield, Mo. that Im

going to try to get an appt with. I was tested years ago, but I know

that regular testing is not reliable for a tru dx. I need HELP and

Support. Ive read a bunch about rife and the salt/C protocols but I

really dont know where to start. I have a child to raise and i can

barely afford to feed us right now. This illness has caused me to

lose everything. Any info/words of encouragement would be

appreciated.

I posted this same message on a couple other lyme groups, so

this is my 3rd group. I am trying to compile as much info as I can

before I decide if I want to try to pay for an expensive Doctor. Its

terrible confusing to try to process all these options. Theres the

salt/c--the bruhner protocol-the rifing-antibiotics on and on. What

scares me the most i think, is the herxing thats going to happen

regardless of what I do. I live alone with my 8 yr old child, and It

just scares me having to go through all this alone. Another question

is, are there people that have done all these things without an

actual positive blood test of some kind. Ok thats a stupid question,

but, i keep thinking, im 99% sure i have lyme, but what if its not,

does it really matter? I have gotten to the point that i dont trust

doctors, or anybody else unless they are sick too. I mean 15 years

of playing ring around the rosie with doctors that are absolutely

uneducated, and family that are absolutely uncaring. Sorry, Im just

overwhelmed. I do know that us sickies are alot more educated on

this subject than most doctors, so I am very open minded and welcome

any and all advice that i can get from you nice people. thanks for

listening.