Feeling Hopeless

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I feel very hopeless here, and please forgive me list friends, I don't want

to bring anyone else down with me, but I am really believing that lyme is an

incureable disease, with very little hope for even transitory relief of

symptoms. It took me four years to get an accurate dx, and I when I finally

got that I thought NOW I can get some treatment and get out of this

mess! I don't think that's going to happen. I managed to get to see what

seems to be the only LLD in Texas, but I'm not getting anywhere there

either. I'm on 100mg of doxy twice a day which we all know is doing

nothing. I've given up on my primary doc who wants nothing to do with my

lyme, and has referred me back to insurance managed rhuemy who gave me

methotraxate the last time I was there. She determined that I have

rhumatoid arthuritis and fibromyalgia. I'm sure if I go see her again she'll

be very cold and irked that I didn't take here prescription, which I didn't

because I had learned that steroids are bad for lymies.

On the other hand, even if I was able to get all the big gun meds, I still

feel it's hopeless.

I see on this list, many folks talking about pic lines, IV vitamin c, and

all the other meds, and please please forgive me, I mean no offense in the

world, but it looks like in spite of all the above mentioned treatments and

any others known to man, ( I'm a really new subscriber), but I just don't

ever see anyone saying they are cured, feeling good, and back to their

normal lifestyle. Am I mistaken? Is there any hope?

If anyone can contradict my view I would be thrilled. If there is a cure,

someone please tell what it is? At this point I feel it's useless to waste

any more time, energy, and money to go to any doctors. I think I'd better

resign myself to being almost bedfast or at least housebound, and in

constant pain,etc. I seem to be here in tears night and day over it. I

guess that will pass when I get myself truly resigned to it, but it sure is

a difficult thing to do.

I apologize for being a whiney crybaby, and I give many thanks to all of

you on this list for letting me vent my distress. I know you have your own

pain and trouble and don't need to hear someone else's, and I send you my

best wishes and prayers.

Barbara