Re: HI all, an update on me- to selma

[Guest guest]

thank you for your post. Lyme can put you in a deep, dark dismal

existence. I had acually given up a few times before I started Samento

Cats claw, and then moved on to the protocol.

It's painful to look back at the dissolution of my marriage, loss of

friends who were 'too busy' for me, my family watching on in horror.

What I've come to regret is when I took my anger out on my loved ones,

and when I've said or done things that I just can't take back.

However, I also have alot of forgiveness for myself. Some of my

friends have been coming around more and I've been seeing my family

more often, and I've explained to them that that sick and mentally and

emotionally anguished person is not the real me(that is, inside). When

they see how I am now, they seem to understand that for the most part.

To get that understanding means alot.

There are really only a couple of people in my life who really

understand and get it even though they are not sick. They see the real

me under that blanket of anger and despair.They stick around during

those aweful sick days. Those two people are my earth angels.

I really appreciate your post. thanks to you and all on this list who

listen! much love bunnibaby

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> Beautiful post, Bunni, I'm still smiling! So glad for you.

>

> CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

>

> You'll probably still have ups and downs like everyone else, but

> you'll know when the average curve is going upwards. It's a beautiful

> path, but still a difficult one, in the pshychological side. Hope

> you'll have somebody to help you on that point too.

>

> It's wonderful to feel you can get your life back, that you were NOT

> lazy as you thought but that you were actually very sick, that you

> can give and receive love again because you'll have energy for that,

> and so on. It'll be a slow process, but you'll get EVERYTHING back, I

> do hope for you!! And maybe even more, because you know now the value

> of life.

>

> I'm still on the upward curve, and still finding out I'm gaining

> life, slowly but steady! My upward curve started almost a year ago,

> in April 06, I almost found it was going to end, but not yet. It's a

> slow and long process.

>

> I do repeat to you all that are still suffering: Guys, you are NOT

> lazy. You are just sick. You're not able to give NOW, you're sick,

> but you will be, when you feel better. This is so true. I couldn't

> even give a cuddle to my cat, because that consumed my energy.

>

> My cat suffered from my lyme, he got next to zero cuddles for about a

> year or so. I had to keep my energy to my daughter and husband and

> myself. It's sounds ridiculous, but IT IS NOT! Now I'm in a mcuh

> better relation with my cat too!!

>

> It's so true what you say about respecting yourself. I understand

> every word!

>

> His herbs did help to give my life back, probably even saved my life.

> NOw I'm through a 'psycho' healing process, I'm trying to get out of

> the profound fears, of the pshychological trauma, the abyss that this

> disease caused to me and my family. I didn't realize how profound

> this was, unfortunately Buhner's herbs can't help me on that!!

>

> Congratulations again, and welcome to the journey back to health!

>

> Selma

>

[Guest guest]

Bunnibabe,

Glad to hear from you again. I found this first phase of getting well

from our bodies (lyme) very difficult to accept on the pshychological

side. Even more than while I was very sick. It's like getting out of

a shell and finally starting to realize what had happened to me

during my most sick weeks/ months.

I was not sick for long, but it was enough long to have created deep

wounds in my family.

I just posted something about tapping and EFT (answering Meg who

asked for help against depression). EFT has been a wonderful tool for

me in these 'post lyme days'. It's not post-lyme really, but I feel

like I'm out of the lyme-hole, if you see what I mean.

EFT sounds like 'cheap pshychology' but I feel it's a powerful tool

to help healing on other levels than our body. We need help there,

because what some of us lived was horrific.

You're fortunate to have got real friends. And more than that, as

even real friends can't understand, they feel hopeless. These people

that sticked to you are real 'angels', like you said!!

It's great that you can get contacts to your family back again. In

your case, I see that lyme did 'permanent' social damage (marriage),

sorry to hear that...

I hope you continue your journey to healing! How long have you been

on the protocol?

Selma

>

> thank you for your post. Lyme can put you in a deep, dark dismal

> existence. I had acually given up a few times before I started

Samento

> Cats claw, and then moved on to the protocol.

>

> It's painful to look back at the dissolution of my marriage, loss of

> friends who were 'too busy' for me, my family watching on in horror.

> What I've come to regret is when I took my anger out on my loved

ones,

> and when I've said or done things that I just can't take back.

>

> However, I also have alot of forgiveness for myself. Some of my

> friends have been coming around more and I've been seeing my family

> more often, and I've explained to them that that sick and mentally

and

> emotionally anguished person is not the real me(that is, inside).

When

> they see how I am now, they seem to understand that for the most

part.

> To get that understanding means alot.

>

> There are really only a couple of people in my life who really

> understand and get it even though they are not sick. They see the

real

> me under that blanket of anger and despair.They stick around during

> those aweful sick days. Those two people are my earth angels.

>

> I really appreciate your post. thanks to you and all on this list

who

> listen! much love bunnibaby

>

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