I did it because I love you

[Guest guest]

I guess I am very luck with the friends....all my old friends from high

school have been great...they support me....I do have a few problems with

certain family members but as long as I blow off what they have said and

just kind of chuckle...we seem to do fine....I have made so many wonderful

friends here....I feel so lucky that way.....I have a wonderful relationship

with my father who use to really have an abusive problem...miracle's do

happen....My mother in law and I are now working on healing our

relationship.....but I don't believe she really knew what she was doing at

the time....she was always paranoid and saw things that really didn't

happen...but she got counciling help....and is much much better....so things

are going pretty good....just get down every once and a while....I am sure

many of us do...I do believe in time the Lord will help me with this.....He

has in all the other times....I think right now he just has things for me to

learn...I never believed that the lord allowed anything because he was

mean...on the contrary I believe he did it to help me learn things that

would make me grow and mature...just as any father would want for their

children. Thanks for listening to me...and thanks for your wonderful

letters of support...the Lord definately meant what he said when we were all

in this together.

Cyntha Landon

PS. Here is a poem I wrote for someone who had a sick and handicapped

child...

I did it because I love you

My child I didn't do it to be mean

I didn't do it to frighten you

oh how much I want you to know

how much I really love you

I saw you a special child

and knew you could handle illness

that you would strap it down

and tame it down to size

I also wanted a way to protect you

from all the evils in this world

to blind you from the hurt

and the cruelty of the world

I wanted you so much to return

to be by my side

and this I knew with surety

would keep you pure

So don't be angry

do not think your lot is cruel

blessings come in disguise

lessons learned in school

If you didn't have this lot

you wouldn't be as you are

you wouldn't be as beautiful

you really have gained more

So remember child

I love you so much

that this really is kind

to protect, to kiss, to love my child...

I did it because I love you