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Jan,

I have been going through something similar lately, or at least that is the way that mine started out any way. A cold, kind of like bronchitis that wouldn't go away, then I became so fatigued all the time, that I finally I had to be taken off of work. Long story short, I have been taken off work now permanently, and found out that not only is my Hepatitis out of remission after being clear a year, but I also have RA ( rhuematiod Arhtritis ), mono, and active hepatitis c again - viral load being over 6 and half million. Which before when I fist found out about the hep c, my viral load never reached a million copies or more. And I cleared the virus in the first 11 weeks. I am now preparing to start treatment again.

I guess my point to you, is to go in and get it checked as soon as possible. And try to get adequate rest in the mean time.

I will be praying for you and hopefully it's nothing more than a sever cold that won't go away. Take care of yourself.

And May God Bless you and your family

Love, hugs, and prayers

Marie

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Hi everyone..Remember when I said I thought my Hep was active again because I have not been feeling well?? Hey I am sick!! I have an awful chest cold right now..It is horrible..I went from my sinuses tothis crap..I have been sick for the past few months..I can't get rid ofit..Even taking antibotics does not work..I feel weak..feverish..sniffles..bad cough..YUCK!! Just thought I'd pop in and complain..SOOOO how is everyone doing today?? I think all those teens I had in here this past weekend left me a BUG!!

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Hello ..Thanks for the words of advice..I lost a dear friend Sunday night..I have been at the funeral home for the past 2 days and the night air made me even sicker..I am so exhausted.My throat hurts and burns...Ran fever for 3 days//I really do need to go back to my Hep Dr..I will have to call and see when I can go in.. Davies <davies@...> wrote: Jan, I have been going through something similar lately, or at least that is the way that mine started out any way. A cold, kind of like bronchitis that wouldn't go away, then I became so fatigued all the time, that I finally I had to be taken off of work. Long story short, I have been taken off work now permanently, and found out that not only is my Hepatitis out of remission after being clear a year, but I also have RA ( rhuematiod Arhtritis ), mono, and active hepatitis c again -

viral load being over 6 and half million. Which before when I fist found out about the hep c, my viral load never reached a million copies or more. And I cleared the virus in the first 11 weeks. I am now preparing to start treatment again. I guess my point to you, is to go in and get it checked as soon as possible. And try to get adequate rest in the mean time. I will be praying for you and hopefully it's nothing more than a sever cold that won't go away. Take care of yourself. And May God Bless you and your family Love, hugs, and prayers Marie -- [ ] Ok I'm sick Hi everyone..Remember when I said I thought my Hep was active again because I have not been feeling well?? Hey I am sick!! I have an awful chest cold right now..It is horrible..I went from my sinuses tothis crap..I have been sick for the past few months..I

can't get rid ofit..Even taking antibotics does not work..I feel weak..feverish..sniffles..bad cough..YUCK!! Just thought I'd pop in and complain..SOOOO how is everyone doing today?? I think all those teens I had in here this past weekend left me a BUG!! Jan Bring photos to life! New PhotoMail makes sharing a breeze. created by lysholm http://home19.inet.tele.dk/rani/ grafik by Gittan http://home.online.no/~bjot-rin/index.cfmJan

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Janet - I am so sorry for your loss - I know just how hard that can be on a person, not only mentally but physically. You know, I asked my Doctors how my Hepatitis C could come out of remission after over a year of being clear? As I knew that after a year I had only a 1% chance of it returning - I asked him what it something I did or wasn't doing. The best explanation he could give me was that I had physically and mentally over worked and stressed my body due to all the changes I had undertaken over the last year or so. I moved out to Denver about 8 months ago to oversee my Mothers care, but it has been pure hell since coming out - she has exhausted me being extremes, and I allowed her to do this. Although I have other siblings, no one else would help, they wanted nothing to do with her. NOt only is she physically sick, and Doctors say she will be lucky if she sees another Christmas, at the age of 65, I might add, but she is mentally ill and has been since 1971. With the mental illness, I have watched her go in and out of various mental institutions until they could get her back to a normal level with her medications, this alone took 5 months. She is diagnosed "manic depressive", which now I believe they call it bi-polar. See her go in and out of the episodes was the hardest thing I had to endure, somedays I would go to see her and she would know me and was kind, other days she would know but hated me and wish me to burn in hell. My Mother is very strong Catholic and loves us kids dearly, she has never even raised her voice to me, so this was hard to accept, and someday's she wouldn't know me at all.

I allowed her to completely control my happiness, sadness, moods, ect. I finally had to find a way to separate myself from her with love. I think I have finally done this, and now I have the treatment to face again.

All things happen for a reason this I know, but it seems this last year or so has been very difficult and I know that I just have to keep my faith and know that this is all apart of Gods grander plan for myself.

I guess what I am trying to say Janet, is this - through all the madness of everyday life and trials, try very hard to stay focussed on you and taking care of yourself. You know, without our health - we have nothing.

Whatever your faith my be or whatever higher power you have in your life - pray and ask for his help to get you through this loss, and then when you can go to the Doctor and take care of "Janet". Okay

I did want to ask you if the fevers you have been having - are they low grade? And along with your throat being soar, are your glands swollen?

Are you extremely fatigued?

Ok, well I am through with this book, sorry I wrote so much, hope I didn't offend you in anyway...

May God Bless You and Yours

Love, hugs and prayers

marie

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Hi everyone..Remember when I said I thought my Hep was active again because I have not been feeling well?? Hey I am sick!! I have an awful chest cold right now..It is horrible..I went from my sinuses tothis crap..I have been sick for the past few months..I can't get rid ofit..Even taking antibotics does not work..I feel weak..feverish..sniffles..bad cough..YUCK!! Just thought I'd pop in and complain..SOOOO how is everyone doing today?? I think all those teens I had in here this past weekend left me a BUG!!

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I am not offended in whatyou said..Thatis fine..I too took care of my mother before she passed..She had a brain tumor the size of a grapefruit before it was found..Once it was removed even though they said there would be no damage there was..She too would yell pitch fits..didn't know what she was doing and I was raised as an only child and had this to deal with on my own..Finally unfortunately I had to have her put in a nursing home because I could do no more..It was very hard and I was in a horrible marriage at the time..Now I am under stress so bad due to financial situations..Ikno weveryone has them but it is extremely hard on me righ tnow..I have never been this bad off and I will never get this bad off again..Not as Godis my witness will I ever be like this..It is way too stressful on me..I can't sleep..Don't eat much..It's bad..I do understand about the bi polar very much..It is a subject close to home..My fever was low grade but yet

there..I still do not feel well and can not go to the Dr righ tnow so I have to take what ever I have for it..I appreciate your talking to me though..It is very nice of you..I hope you continue to talk with me too..To all of the rest of you on here I MISS YOU!! WHERE ARE YOU?? DAVE!!! YOU ARE MIA AGAIN!! GET IN TOUCH! Again keep in touch..I wish you the best on treatment..When do you start or have you started? Davies <davies@...> wrote: Janet - I am so sorry for your loss - I know just how hard that can be on a person, not only mentally but physically. You know, I asked my Doctors how my Hepatitis C could come out of remission after over a year of being clear? As I knew that after a year I had only a 1% chance of it returning - I asked him what it something I did or wasn't doing. The best explanation he could give me was that I had physically and mentally over worked and stressed my body due to all the changes I had undertaken over the last year or so. I moved out to Denver about 8 months ago to oversee my Mothers care, but it has been pure hell since coming out - she has exhausted me being extremes, and I allowed her to do this. Although I

have other siblings, no one else would help, they wanted nothing to do with her. NOt only is she physically sick, and Doctors say she will be lucky if she sees another Christmas, at the age of 65, I might add, but she is mentally ill and has been since 1971. With the mental illness, I have watched her go in and out of various mental institutions until they could get her back to a normal level with her medications, this alone took 5 months. She is diagnosed "manic depressive", which now I believe they call it bi-polar. See her go in and out of the episodes was the hardest thing I had to endure, somedays I would go to see her and she would know me and was kind, other days she would know but hated me and wish me to burn in hell. My Mother is very strong Catholic and loves us kids dearly, she has never even raised her voice to me, so this was hard to accept, and someday's she wouldn't know me at all. I allowed her to completely control my happiness, sadness, moods, ect. I finally had to find a way to separate myself from her with love. I think I have finally done this, and now I have the treatment to face again. All things happen for a reason this I know, but it seems this last year or so has been very difficult and I know that I just have to keep my faith and know that this is all apart of Gods grander plan for myself. I guess what I am trying to say Janet, is this - through all the madness of everyday life and trials, try very hard to stay focussed on you and taking care of yourself. You know, without our health - we have nothing. Whatever your faith my be or whatever higher power you have in your life - pray and ask for his help to get you through this loss, and then when you can go to the Doctor and take care of "Janet". Okay I did want to ask you if the fevers you have been having - are they low grade? And along with your throat being soar, are your glands swollen? Are you extremely fatigued? Ok, well I am through with this book, sorry I wrote so much, hope I didn't offend you in anyway... May God Bless You

and Yours Love, hugs and prayers marie -- [ ] Ok I'm sick Hi everyone..Remember when I said I thought my Hep was active again because I have not been feeling well?? Hey I am sick!! I have an awful chest cold right now..It is horrible..I went from my sinuses tothis crap..I have been sick for the past few months..I can't get rid ofit..Even taking antibotics

does not work..I feel weak..feverish..sniffles..bad cough..YUCK!! Just thought I'd pop in and complain..SOOOO how is everyone doing today?? I think all those teens I had in here this past weekend left me a BUG!! Jan Bring photos to life! New PhotoMail makes sharing a breeze. created by lysholm http://home19.inet.tele.dk/rani/ grafik by Gittan http://home.online.no/~bjot-rin/index.cfm Jan Use Photomail to share photos without annoying

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Hi everyone..Remember when I said I thought my Hep was active again because I have not been feeling well?? Hey I am sick!! I have an awful chest cold right now..It is horrible..I went from my sinuses tothis crap..I have been sick for the past few months..I can't get rid ofit..Even taking antibotics does not work..I feel weak..feverish..sniffles..bad cough..YUCK!! Just thought I'd pop in and complain..SOOOO how is everyone doing today?? I think all those teens I had in here this past weekend left me a BUG!!

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thanks for the kind words and I am 100% behind you in spirit..I understand your situation too..When I was on Tx I was awful..Couldn't hardly go anywhere cause I would tire so easy..Stayed sick especially on shot night..Now I am not on TX and still stay sick..Not as much as I use to but I do get sick often and stay that way for months..I understand about your mom and you helping her..I went through pretty much the same too there..Now I have 2 teens at home to support..It is tough..I know you are a very giving person..I can tell that..You do have a big heart..Stop wearing it on your sleeve ok?? You will find a good man soon..I feel that you will..One that deserves you!! Remember that!! He will deserve you ..not the other way around!! Stay in touch..I enjoy our conversatins!! Davies <davies@...> wrote: -- [ ] Ok I'm sick Hi everyone..Remember when I said I thought my Hep was active again because I have not been feeling well?? Hey I am sick!! I have an awful chest cold right now..It is horrible..I went from my sinuses tothis crap..I have been sick for the past few months..I can't get rid ofit..Even taking antibotics does not work..I feel weak..feverish..sniffles..bad cough..YUCK!! Just thought I'd pop in and complain..SOOOO how is everyone doing today?? I think all those teens I had in here this past weekend left me a BUG!! Jan Bring photos to life! New PhotoMail makes sharing a breeze. created by lysholm http://home19.inet.tele.dk/rani/ grafik by Gittan http://home.online.no/~bjot-rin/index.cfm Jan Use Photomail to share photos without annoying attachments. Jan Bring photos to life! New PhotoMail makes sharing a breeze. Made by

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Janet,

I enjoy talking with you also. I know everything will work out, I just have to keep my faith, some days it is difficult though. I didn't realize I wear my heart on my shoulders - I guess because it has always just been such a natural thing for me, that is probably why I have been taken advantage of more than once in my life.. LOL

Know that I will be praying for things to get better for you, and I didn't realize you are raising to teens at home alone. That is so difficult, and then to have financial problems to boot. Things will get better Janet - God will not let your and your children suffer - I have to believe in that.

As far as a man in my life - I really don't care if I have one or not. When I was younger I always thought I had to have one in my life. However, as I have matured, I realize I don't need one - however, if I ever fall in love again, and he equally back, then so be it - but I am surely not our looking for it.

They say that it always happens when you least expect it - and there having a man in my life right now is the furthest thing from my mind. I have so much I have to get through and accomplished.

I just finished my first fiction novel and two others started, I love to write, you can probably tell that in these long letters I write you lOl.... Anyway, I thought I would have some extra time while on treatment to possibly get some work done on them and maybe get on published. Woohoo - wouldn't that be a blessing...

I wouldn't forget you girl - lets put it this way, you wouldn't have to struggle any longer....

Well Gal - I am still trying to get though this mail, and then try to get to bed half way early, boy have my sleeping habits changed. I think that is a part of the hep-c. I can't sleep very good at night and then sleep during the day. Gotta stop that habit, as I got to take on a job under the table so to speak to get a little money saved and some bills paid off

Gotta run for now

Take care of you

May God Bless You and yours

Marie

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Hi everyone..Remember when I said I thought my Hep was active again because I have not been feeling well?? Hey I am sick!! I have an awful chest cold right now..It is horrible..I went from my sinuses tothis crap..I have been sick for the past few months..I can't get rid ofit..Even taking antibotics does not work..I feel weak..feverish..sniffles..bad cough..YUCK!! Just thought I'd pop in and complain..SOOOO how is everyone doing today?? I think all those teens I had in here this past weekend left me a BUG!!

Jan

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Good morning ..How are you today?? I am having horrible probs with my sinuses today..I fell asleep on the couch last ight about 1:00..Woke up on it too..I heard my daughter say "Boy is she gonna be mad" I was too..I hadn't taken a bath yet..Still had on my clothes too..YUCK!! Yes your sleeping habits dochange on TX for sure..Although I always have probs sleeping..I have to take sleep aid or I am up till 3..I don'tlike that but I also have a daughter who is 18 and lives with her dad that calls me late after she gets off work to chat about her life..I alwats talk to her about it every night..So you write do yo??What kind of fiction about what?? Girl as many others my kife culd be a book..I was adopted at the age of 3..Raised as an only child to grow uo meet my bio parents and find out I had alot of siblings..Long life here too!! So how old are you ?? I am goin gto be 47 in April..Oh my I just realized I am getting close to 50!! YIKES!! I did not

have the panic attack at 30 but hey think I might at 50!! DAMN!! I laugh and say I am 109..I too write alot..Maybe we should talk to each other on our personal addy's..LOL..Get in touch and I hope you have a great St. PAtrick's DAy!! Oh and I pray you get publised too..YOu could use it!!! Davies <davies@...> wrote: Janet, I enjoy talking with you also. I know everything will work out, I just have to keep my faith, some days it is difficult though. I didn't realize I wear my heart on my shoulders - I guess because it has always just been such a natural thing for me, that is probably why I have been taken advantage of more than once in my life.. LOL Know that I will be praying for things to get better for you, and I didn't realize you are raising to teens at home alone. That is

so difficult, and then to have financial problems to boot. Things will get better Janet - God will not let your and your children suffer - I have to believe in that. As far as a man in my life - I really don't care if I have one or not. When I was younger I always thought I had to have one in my life. However, as I have matured, I realize I don't need one - however, if I ever fall in love again, and he equally back, then so be it - but I am surely not our looking for it. They say that it always happens when you least expect it - and there having a man in my life right now is the furthest thing from my mind. I have so much I have to get through and accomplished. I just finished my first fiction novel and two others started, I love to

write, you can probably tell that in these long letters I write you lOl.... Anyway, I thought I would have some extra time while on treatment to possibly get some work done on them and maybe get on published. Woohoo - wouldn't that be a blessing... I wouldn't forget you girl - lets put it this way, you wouldn't have to struggle any longer.... Well Gal - I am still trying to get though this mail, and then try to get to bed half way early, boy have my sleeping habits changed. I think that is a part of the hep-c. I can't sleep very good at night and then sleep during the day. Gotta stop that habit, as I got to take on a job under the table so to speak to get a little money saved and some bills paid off Gotta run for

now Take care of you May God Bless You and yours Marie -- [ ] Ok I'm sick Hi everyone..Remember when I said I thought my Hep was active again because I have not been feeling well?? Hey I am sick!! I have an awful chest cold right now..It is horrible..I went from my sinuses tothis crap..I have been sick for the past few months..I can't get rid ofit..Even taking antibotics does not work..I feel weak..feverish..sniffles..bad cough..YUCK!! Just thought I'd pop in and complain..SOOOO how is everyone doing today?? I think all those teens I had in here this past weekend left me a BUG!! Jan Bring photos to life! New PhotoMail makes sharing a breeze. created by lysholm http://home19.inet.tele.dk/rani/ grafik by Gittan http://home.online.no/~bjot-rin/index.cfm Jan Use Photomail to share photos without annoying attachments. Jan Bring photos to life! New PhotoMail makes sharing a breeze. Made by

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Janet - I know what you mean about the not sleeping till 3:00 or so in the morning, I do that every night, although I do have something to help me sleep, I just hate to take it because it makes me so groggy the next day.

Well I have gotten so more bad news, and if it were not for bad luck I would have none at all, I am really starting to believe that.

My Mother, whom I thought I had her settled and well for awhile, just became mentally ill again. It started again the day she found out about my biopsy, and now she is on her way by ambulance to the hospital where they will evaluate her and then send her to a mental hospital for God knows how long this time.

I have been trying so hard to keep her well, and now working on getting my problems worked out so that I may do chemotherapy again, I knew I was going to have to leave Denver in order to do so, as I can't get enough help to pay for my $650.00 for rent every month and all my other bills. But I was just feeling okay with leaving her, knowing she was in a good place and well taken care of and now this.

I am so lost and really don't know to do.

I guess with the Good Lord somehow things will work out.

I really hate to whine and complain, as I understand a woman by the name of "Bayla" is calling me a whinner on these groups and saying ugly things.

It use to be that these groups were for the sick and ones that needed a shoulder and some support. But things have changed so much just since this last year I have been gone.

But I do want to say to you Janet - that I have enjoyed meeting you, it's been a true pleasure, and I do appreciate you listening to me whine.

I hope that you get to feeling better sweetie, and know that I pray for you nightly....

Love, hug, and prayers

May god Bless you and your family

Marie

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Hi everyone..Remember when I said I thought my Hep was active again because I have not been feeling well?? Hey I am sick!! I have an awful chest cold right now..It is horrible..I went from my sinuses tothis crap..I have been sick for the past few months..I can't get rid ofit..Even taking antibotics does not work..I feel weak..feverish..sniffles..bad cough..YUCK!! Just thought I'd pop in and complain..SOOOO how is everyone doing today?? I think all those teens I had in here this past weekend left me a BUG!!

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myheart goes out to youbut Hon listen to me.There are some things youcan not change no matter what..You are not made out of stone either ok..You have your own breaking point..I had to go get some help quite a few years ago..Mental help that is..I thought I could handle anything and fix everything.Before i knew it I was an egg shell..I was fixing to crack..I was also told like i am telling you that you are NOT MADE OF STONE!! As far as you saying you whine..girl youhaven't heard me yet!! LOL..Whine..complain..fuss all you want to at me..That is why we are here..Sometimes people are meant to meet for one reason or another..Maybe it's because you and I have so much in common that we have met..I whine..bitch..complain and then Ihave the days that I alugh alot and try to share a laugh or two..Oh ok I got something for you to see..Go to morilee.com..Go to prom..then go to the 4th page..My 18yr old's prom dress is there..It is the white one with black at

the top..I bought her that dress.I have never been able to before but I alwsy said I'd get that one for her..I told her I did not care about the cost this year..It was expensive but do you know she hugged me in the store and thanked me so much for it.. if I had to go without eating for 2 weeks to do it again I would just for her..She works..goes to school..is in the band..She deserves this..Just thought i"d tell ya cause I am so proud of her and I'd like for you to seit..Just another part of my life..Your mother's destiny is already planned and no matter how you try you can not change it ..I do not mean to sound cold..I am just a beleiver that fate is fate..I am also a beleiver that when our tim ecomes to go to the other side it is so much better..We are always happy..Hey we are 30 over there..That's great..We meet our oved ones that have crossed over..So when you lok at it like that then it isn't so hard..My dad that raised me died exactly 27 years ago today..I am

still hurt but know he is alot better off..My bio dad died of cancer..It was heart breaking to see such a strong man go so weak..I hope this isn't depressing you..Did you ever think that the reason this is happening to you rmom is for you to get a better life? I knw it sounds odd to hear it but everything does happen for a reason even though you do not choose to ive better if you rmom is sick..I understand that ok??Geeeeeeez I hope all this rambling isn't scaring you..I am just saying what is coming from my heart ..As far as the asses that say they do not like whiners ..they whine too and feel someone has a worse problem than them so forget them..I am here foryou and always will be too ok?? Talk to me anytime and if you have messenger or AIM..I am jfw4359 at either of them ok..Just add me as a friend!! I love our talks ..See you are not alone in your grief..You stay in touch with me ok?? I'd love it and hey GOOD LUCK with your books!!

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Mothers care, but it has been pure hell since coming out - she has exhausted me being extremes, and I allowed her to do this. Although I have other siblings, no one else would help, they wanted nothing to do with her. NOt only is she physically sick, and Doctors say she will be lucky if she sees another Christmas, at the age of 65, I might add, but she is mentally ill and has been since 1971. With the mental illness, I have watched her go in and out of various mental institutions until they could get her back to a normal level with her medications, this alone took 5 months. She is diagnosed "manic depressive", which now I believe they call it bi-polar. See her go in and out of the episodes was the hardest thing I had to endure, somedays I would go to see her and she would know me and was kind, other days she would know but hated me and wish me to burn in hell. My Mother is very strong Catholic and loves us kids dearly, she has never even raised

her voice to me, so this was hard to accept, and someday's she wouldn't know me at all. I allowed her to completely control my happiness, sadness, moods, ect. I finally had to find a way to separate myself from her with love. I think I have finally done this, and now I have the treatment to face again. All things happen for a reason this I know, but it seems this last year or so has been very difficult and I know that I just have to keep my faith and know that this is all apart of Gods grander plan for myself. I guess what I am trying to say Janet, is this - through all the madness of everyday life and trials, try very hard to

stay focussed on you and taking care of yourself. You know, without our health - we have nothing. Whatever your faith my be or whatever higher power you have in your life - pray and ask for his help to get you through this loss, and then when you can go to the Doctor and take care of "Janet". Okay I did want to ask you if the fevers you have been having - are they low grade? And along with your throat being soar, are your glands swollen? Are you extremely fatigued? Ok, well I am through with this book, sorry I wrote so much, hope I

didn't offend you in anyway... May God Bless You and Yours Love, hugs and prayers marie -- [ ] Ok I'm sick Hi everyone..Remember when I said I thought my Hep was active again because I have not been feeling well?? Hey I am sick!! I have an awful chest cold right now..It is horrible..I went from my sinuses tothis crap..I have

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Hi Jan.. I've been having my troubles, too. My mom

went into the hospital again, and is now recuping at a

nursing home. I was sick, and actually got written up

at work last week for missing too much work. Things

are settling back to normal. Hanging in there with

you.... -dz-

--- Janet <jfw4359@...> wrote:

> I am not offended in whatyou said..Thatis

> fine..I too took care of my mother before she

> passed..She had a brain tumor the size of a

> grapefruit before it was found..Once it was removed

> even though they said there would be no damage there

> was..She too would yell pitch fits..didn't know what

> she was doing and I was raised as an only child and

> had this to deal with on my own..Finally

> unfortunately I had to have her put in a nursing

> home because I could do no more..It was very hard

> and I was in a horrible marriage at the time..Now I

> am under stress so bad due to financial

> situations..Ikno weveryone has them but it is

> extremely hard on me righ tnow..I have never been

> this bad off and I will never get this bad off

> again..Not as Godis my witness will I ever be like

> this..It is way too stressful on me..I can't

> sleep..Don't eat much..It's bad..I do understand

> about the bi polar very much..It is a subject close

> to home..My fever was low grade but yet there..I

> still do not feel well and can

> not go to the Dr righ tnow so I have to take what

> ever I have for it..I appreciate your talking to me

> though..It is very nice of you..I hope you continue

> to talk with me too..To all of the rest of you on

> here I MISS YOU!! WHERE ARE YOU?? DAVE!!! YOU ARE

> MIA AGAIN!! GET IN TOUCH! Again keep in

> touch..I wish you the best on treatment..When do you

> start or have you started?

>

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> X-ASN,X-ASH,X-AN,X-AP,X-AD ;

> Janet - I am so sorry for your loss - I know just

> how hard that can be on a person, not only mentally

> but physically. You know, I asked my Doctors how my

> Hepatitis C could come out of remission after over a

> year of being clear? As I knew that after a year I

> had only a 1% chance of it returning - I asked him

> what it something I did or wasn't doing. The best

> explanation he could give me was that I had

> physically and mentally over worked and stressed my

> body due to all the changes I had undertaken over

> the last year or so. I moved out to Denver about 8

> months ago to oversee my Mothers care, but it has

> been pure hell since coming out - she has exhausted

> me being extremes, and I allowed her to do this.

> Although I have other siblings, no one else would

> help, they wanted nothing to do with her. NOt only

> is she physically sick, and Doctors say she will be

> lucky if she sees another Christmas, at the age of

> 65, I might add, but she is mentally ill and has

> been since 1971. With the

> mental illness, I have watched her go in and out of

> various mental institutions until they could get her

> back to a normal level with her medications, this

> alone took 5 months. She is diagnosed " manic

> depressive " , which now I believe they call it

> bi-polar. See her go in and out of the episodes was

> the hardest thing I had to endure, somedays I would

> go to see her and she would know me and was kind,

> other days she would know but hated me and wish me

> to burn in hell. My Mother is very strong Catholic

> and loves us kids dearly, she has never even raised

> her voice to me, so this was hard to accept, and

> someday's she wouldn't know me at all.

> I allowed her to completely control my happiness,

> sadness, moods, ect. I finally had to find a way to

> separate myself from her with love. I think I have

> finally done this, and now I have the treatment to

> face again.

> All things happen for a reason this I know, but it

> seems this last year or so has been very difficult

> and I know that I just have to keep my faith and

> know that this is all apart of Gods grander plan for

> myself.

>

> I guess what I am trying to say Janet, is this -

> through all the madness of everyday life and trials,

> try very hard to stay focussed on you and taking

> care of yourself. You know, without our health - we

> have nothing.

> Whatever your faith my be or whatever higher power

> you have in your life - pray and ask for his help

> to get you through this loss, and then when you can

> go to the Doctor and take care of " Janet " . Okay

>

> I did want to ask you if the fevers you have been

> having - are they low grade? And along with your

> throat being soar, are your glands swollen?

> Are you extremely fatigued?

> Ok, well I am through with this book, sorry I

> wrote so much, hope I didn't offend you in anyway...

> May God Bless You and Yours

> Love, hugs and prayers

> marie

> -- [ ] Ok I'm sick

>

>

> Hi everyone..Remember when I said I thought my Hep

> was active again because I have not been feeling

> well?? Hey I am sick!! I have an awful chest cold

> right now..It is horrible..I went from my sinuses

> tothis crap..I have been sick for the past few

> months..I can't get rid ofit..Even taking antibotics

> does not work..I feel weak..feverish..sniffles..bad

> cough..YUCK!! Just thought I'd pop in and

> complain..SOOOO how is everyone doing today?? I

> think all those teens I had in here this past

> weekend left me a BUG!!

>

> Jan

>

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Dave..Bout time I hear from you..I knew something was wrong not to have heard anything..I've been keeping in touc with the group as much as I can..Floyd's daughter is down from Tenn..He has not seen her for 12 years..It was soemthing to see..She may be moving down after sxhool ends..Heis hoping so anyway.Sheis 14 so that means I have 1 more teenhere..Oh well they keep me young!! Stay with us DAve so we know how things are going and I am sorry to hear about your mom!!Dave <dhz920@...> wrote: Hi Jan.. I've been having my troubles, too. My momwent into the hospital again, and is now recuping at anursing home. I was sick, and actually got written upat work last week for missing too much work. Thingsare settling back to normal. Hanging in there withyou.... -dz---- Janet

<jfw4359@...> wrote:> I am not offended in whatyou said..Thatis> fine..I too took care of my mother before she> passed..She had a brain tumor the size of a> grapefruit before it was found..Once it was removed> even though they said there would be no damage there> was..She too would yell pitch fits..didn't know what> she was doing and I was raised as an only child and> had this to deal with on my own..Finally> unfortunately I had to have her put in a nursing> home because I could do no more..It was very hard> and I was in a horrible marriage at the time..Now I> am under stress so bad due to financial> situations..Ikno weveryone has them but it is> extremely hard on me righ tnow..I have never been> this bad off and I will never get this bad off> again..Not as Godis my witness will I ever be like> this..It is way too stressful on me..I

can't> sleep..Don't eat much..It's bad..I do understand> about the bi polar very much..It is a subject close> to home..My fever was low grade but yet there..I> still do not feel well and can> not go to the Dr righ tnow so I have to take what> ever I have for it..I appreciate your talking to me> though..It is very nice of you..I hope you continue> to talk with me too..To all of the rest of you on> here I MISS YOU!! WHERE ARE YOU?? DAVE!!! YOU ARE> MIA AGAIN!! GET IN TOUCH! Again keep in> touch..I wish you the best on treatment..When do you> start or have you started?> > Davies <davies@...> wrote: > v\:* {behavior:url (#default#vml);} > v\:* { BEHAVIOR: url

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> X-ASN,X-ASH,X-AN,X-AP,X-AD ; > Janet - I am so sorry for your loss - I know just> how hard that can be on a person, not only mentally> but physically. You know, I asked my Doctors how my> Hepatitis C could come out of remission after over a> year of being clear? As I knew that after a year I> had only a 1% chance of it returning - I asked him> what it something I did or wasn't doing. The best> explanation he could give me was that I had> physically and mentally over worked and stressed my> body due to all the changes I had undertaken over> the last year or so. I moved out to Denver about 8> months ago to oversee my Mothers care, but it has> been pure hell since coming out - she has exhausted> me being extremes, and I allowed her to do this.

> Although I have other siblings, no one else would> help, they wanted nothing to do with her. NOt only> is she physically sick, and Doctors say she will be> lucky if she sees another Christmas, at the age of> 65, I might add, but she is mentally ill and has> been since 1971. With the> mental illness, I have watched her go in and out of> various mental institutions until they could get her> back to a normal level with her medications, this> alone took 5 months. She is diagnosed "manic> depressive", which now I believe they call it> bi-polar. See her go in and out of the episodes was> the hardest thing I had to endure, somedays I would> go to see her and she would know me and was kind,> other days she would know but hated me and wish me> to burn in hell. My Mother is very strong Catholic> and loves us kids dearly, she has never

even raised> her voice to me, so this was hard to accept, and> someday's she wouldn't know me at all.> I allowed her to completely control my happiness,> sadness, moods, ect. I finally had to find a way to> separate myself from her with love. I think I have> finally done this, and now I have the treatment to> face again.> All things happen for a reason this I know, but it> seems this last year or so has been very difficult> and I know that I just have to keep my faith and> know that this is all apart of Gods grander plan for> myself.> > I guess what I am trying to say Janet, is this -> through all the madness of everyday life and trials,> try very hard to stay focussed on you and taking> care of yourself. You know, without our health - we> have nothing.> Whatever your

faith my be or whatever higher power> you have in your life - pray and ask for his help> to get you through this loss, and then when you can> go to the Doctor and take care of "Janet". Okay> > I did want to ask you if the fevers you have been> having - are they low grade? And along with your> throat being soar, are your glands swollen?> Are you extremely fatigued?> Ok, well I am through with this book, sorry I> wrote so much, hope I didn't offend you in anyway...> May God Bless You and Yours> Love, hugs and prayers> marie> -- [ ] Ok I'm sick> > > Hi everyone..Remember when I said I thought my Hep> was active again because I have not been feeling> well?? Hey I am sick!! I have an awful chest cold> right now..It is horrible..I went from my sinuses> tothis crap..I have been sick for the past few> months..I can't get rid ofit..Even taking antibotics> does not work..I feel weak..feverish..sniffles..bad> cough..YUCK!! Just thought I'd pop in and> complain..SOOOO how is everyone doing today?? I> think all those teens I had in here this past> weekend left me a BUG!!> > Jan

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