Stuck at Denial

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Hello everyone! I was diagnosed about 7 months ago with PA. I have

been affected from my neck all the way down to my hips. The newest

symptom I have is a rash it started on my left arm just above the

elbow then went to my right arm just below the elbow and now it's on

my chest. I've been going to a healthclub since last October and my

muscles seem to be getting weaker instead of stronger so I kind of

stopped going a few weeks ago. Do any of you think the rash and the

muscle weakness are part of the PA? Do I need to get more testing

done? I know that I'll probably end up on some kind of drug in the

future but am not ready to go there yet.

I read the post on grief and I seem to be stuck in the denial

stage. I just have been going about my daily life all of these

months acting like nothing has changed except I'm always in a lot of

pain. I feel like I'm getting ready to move to another phase of the

grieving but I wonder how does one except that things have really

changed when your family can not seem to be able to grasp it at all

in any way.

Still figuring things out for myself.

Leanne