For Ian

[Guest guest]

Hi Deb,

Your remark about being in an abusive marraige and thinking suicide made me

remember I, too thought of that but knew I had to protect my children. It

strikes me as funny now that we protect our children by putting ourselves out

there in harms way and then we think of suicide rather than murder the lout.

Glad you are out of that relationship too. It took me a long time, but I

finally decided I was strong enough too. One of the Newsletter articles I read

mentioned that autoimmune diseases were caused by not handling stress well, I

think maybe it is from living with way TOO MUCH stress, regardless of how

it is handled.

Sorry for unloading, my horoscope today said to say what is in your heart.

I did.

Janet in Ca

[Guest guest]

Hi Ian,

Sorry to hear of your recent heartbreak. Hold fast to that light you

always have shining and know we are here if you need to talk.

Peace,

Jenn in Arkansas

P.S. Not sure if you've heard of Nightwish, a Finnish band, but

they're pretty rocking.

-- In , " viking_warlock "

<viking_warlock@...> wrote:

>

> Hi Betz,

>

> I haven't been too well of late and I am not keeping up with the

> posts as I usually do. Some bar-steward has stolen quite a lot of

my

> spoons and they are going to have to pay, but then again so am I

with

> more spoons. You will be glad to know that I have taken to

listening

> to some old 80's heavy metal just to get me in the fighting mood.

> Trust to be precise a french band, they are very angry, problem is

I

> can't get the English version so all the lyrics are in French.

> People are beginning to think I am a lunatic, but of course you

> people already know that I am way past that. Oh well at least I'm

> learning a new language as I listen. Les Mort Dansant, Instinct de

> Mort, there's a link there I know, leaning towards the dark side.

> Whoops, just put Witchfynde on, they're Black Metal. I think it's

> just a sign of the times.

>

> The Enbrel is working to a degree, but is not yet the miracle I was

> hoping for. Just when you think you are getting some relief this

> chameleon disease rises like some primordial phantom of romance to

> stab you in the back and neck and wrist and ankle and knee, have I

> missed anywhere!!! My energy levels are waning, brain dis-

engaged.

> The only thing left to do is laugh, but that don't half hurt my

ribs.

>

> Bought two new pairs of spectacles today, buy one get one for free,

I

> said you buy one get one for free, or BOGOFF as we say over here.

> £5000!!!! I said !!!! I know I should have told them to BOGOFF.

> They are varifocals, doesn't life just get better and better!!

>

> On a lighter note, I had a fight with one of my son's last night,

> he's trying to harm himself and we already have suicide in the

family

> on my wife's side. I had to have him arrested so I knew he was

> safe. It's suprising what pain you can suffer when you believe

it's

> for the good fo your child, I held him down with one of my other

sons

> for 15 minutes. I hate to see them suffer. I didn't sleep a wink

all

> night. My tablespoons have turned to teaspoons and my molehills to

> mountains. I love my children to death, to have him arrested was

> heart-breaking to say the least, in fact I'd say soul destroying.

>

> Keep the light shining

> Ian.

>