Feeling so frustrated!!!!

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Hi everyone. i know I'm not on here much, as i don't have much time

to read all posts and such, but I just have to vent! I'm feeling

really frustrated right now with all of this PA crap! I feel like my

35 year old body has tripled in age, and I am in so much pain! I

feel like no one else understands it...my hubby is trying, bless his

heart, but it's still hard for him to understand that amount of pain

that is caused by having this settling in my elbows! Almost

everything I do, uses my elbows... I feel like I've gone from being

the fun, cuddly, wrestle with mommy, to being the mommy who does

nothing but cry in pain or yell hwen my 2 young boys want to play.

The amount of pills I have to manage seems outrageous....

I guess this flare up is just making me really mad, and I'm feeling

some self pity.... My RA put me on darvistat or something like it

for the pain, and that isnt doing crap...my elbows are so sore, and I

lost the use of my right index finger for a good day and a half over

the weekend....it's NEVER ben that bad---swelling or pain....

I need to sit and take time to do some research on ways to help the

family understand, means to make my life as a young mom of 2 young

boys more managable, and just things to help daily activities, esp

when I am in a bad flare up like I am now. I have no idea where to

look for these, but I will take time, once my littlest starts

preschool, and I have a few hours to just sit and look and not loose

my train of thought with it, every few minutes.

I'm usually not a complainer, because I believe there is always

someone out there who has it worse off than me... (my hubby's brother

is fighting terminal colon cancer, and has yet again been given the 6

month forecast, so I KNOW it could be a lot worse...) but I am just

soooo frustrated....

The meds right now arent helping the pain, and I feel that I am

looking down the road of having to do injections and the idea of

THAT, scares the heck out of me....but I guess my appt on the 15th

will determine that more.

Thanks for listening, and if anyone has any suggestions...I'll take

them!!!!

Hugs

Dawn