my recent silence

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--- Jan <pipersmama@...> wrote: Below is co-respondence

that will update you to the life changing events of the past weeks.

- the emergency surgery (colostomy) was

> necessary because steroids blew a hole in his colon

> -(A KNOWN SIDE EFFECT OF STEROID USE)

> he would have died if it was not repaired - but all

> of

> the conventional treatments in the hospital sucked

> the

> life out of him - high doses of steroids after

> surgery impeded healing - the wound opened up and

> spilled his intestines out - ivs with dextrose when

> he

> couldn't eat -......sugar

> fed the cancer - steroids wiped out the immune

> system

> - all the hard fought for ground we won with

> alternatives was lost to conventional medicine.

>

> > Oct. 2 - passed away quietly tonight just a few

> minutes

> >before midnight. I stayed with him all evening and

> >held his hand, read some scriptures to him, sang

> >amazing Grace again and again - it was his

> favorite.

> >I told him he didn't have to fight anymore, his job

> >was done, that we would be ok and I would see him

> >again, and he could 'run into the arms of Jesus'.

> >

> >His breathing kept changing, first very deep...then

> >slow and shallow til he was gone.

> >

> > and had both been with him over

> the

> >last day, both told him how much they loved him,

> and

> >that they would be 'ok' etc. Each spent some time

> >alone with their dad - I believe he heard them.

> >

> >I've called the cremation society - for direct

> >cremation which is what wanted. He wants a

> >simple memorial sometime in the future, but not a

> >traditional funeral.

> >

> >I don't know yet how to make the arrangements, but

> >will figure it all out.

> I'm so cold right now, I don't

> >think it's really sunk in yet.

> >

> >I met at the end of Sept. 1963 - 40 years is

> a

> >long time, but not long enough.

> >

> >thank you all for your love, prayers and concern.

> >

> >I don't know how to end this email - I'll just send

> >you my love, Jan