Gay Folks

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I visit this board irregularly, but overtime I've seen the same type

of messages being posted. Some of the posters seem to be taking

Testosterone for other reasons besides hypogonadism. While others

have Kleinfelters, prolactinomas or like me - non-functioning

pituitary adenomas.

One common thread I've seen is that a lot of us are Gay. So, does it

have something to do with hypogonadism? Has anyone done studies on

this issue?

Here's my story in a nutshell -

Personally, as a child before puberty hit, I knew I was different. I

didn't know how different until much later on in life. Going through

school I was always on the small side - always placed in the front or

first in line. When I hit puberty and had my first orgasm at age 12,

I did develop, but I was never muscular like some of the other guys.

I also was not hairy. Yeah, I had some down below, but my chest was

bare and my face was just about bare. I was looking at my high

school yearbook picture today are saw how babyish my face looked. I

also didn't have much interest in the opposite sex, but in Gym class,

I would look at other guys (carefully) and saw how different they

were development wise - from me. That continued through College - I

really never had to shave. I would shave off some straggler hairs on

my chin or upper lip, but when I looked at male friends - they all

had thick beards and were hairy. I also thought my dick was small,

cause when flaccid, it would be tiny and sometimes even retract a bit

into my body. Other guys had long soft dicks. Oh - I was able to

get erect and thought it a respectable size - and it was I guess.

But when I looked at porn, all those guys had huge ones.

Anyway, when I finally came out to my self and met the guy of my

dreams (he had to be hairy), I still didn't think anything was wrong

with me. I just thought I developed slowly - I was younger looking

then other guys my age, my dick was normal, but my balls were on the

small size and were usually tender to touch. Since I never said

anything, the Doctors never thought about it. Over time I developed

a bit more - shaved more, but then I started to get depressed, get

chronic pain, trouble sleeping, arthritis, joint pain, muscle pain -

that the doctors couldn't figure out. My orgasms stopped. My libido

went downhill. I wasn't interested in Sex. I was a mess. Finally I

read an article about Steroid inhalers and Osteoporosis. I asked the

doctor about it. I had the DEXA bone scan. It was low. They tested

LH and FSH and T. All low. They did an MRI - I had a microadenoma

on my Pituitary. I was placed on Androgel. Because of my history,

my Endo still is not convinced that the Pituitary tumor is the source

of the problem - he - and I - think I've always had low

Testosterone. Why? I don't know. I'm not sure if I've ever been

tested for Kleinfelters, but I dont' think I have that - I think I

just didn't develop properly - that I was always borderline

hypogonadic.

So, even though I'm on androgel and my T is " normal " , I still have

all my other medical problems. Because of chronic pain, I've been on

a narcotic pain patch for over 2 years now. Without it I would not

be able to walk let alone have a reason to live.

I've also seen the common thread that a lot of us suffer from

mysterious medical maladies that the Docs cannot diagnose. So,I

would like to take a poll. Until I can figure out how to set up

voting buttons -

How many of us are Gay?

How many of are " diagnostic dilemmas?

thanks,

Ken