Guest guest Posted September 6, 2006 Report Share Posted September 6, 2006 Sorry , I'm just going to tell you how wonderful you are. Your daughter and J- are so fortunate that you have invested so much in determining the cause of her medical problems, and how to treat and chelate safely. This is a love story if I ever heard one. Your job isn't finished when school starts, btw. Today is a momentous occasion for me too. My dd just started University, with her boy friend. I'm way behind you. I haven't chelated her yet!! It's taken me 18 years to trace her (serious) allergy problems to mercury and now I'm chelating myself so that I can get better enough to work on chelating a moving target, and maybe the boy friend too. The hollow feeling when the kids go off is real difficult for me too. It's like I worked so hard, so that they can leave? Why did I do that? The biggest one will be in two years when my son goes to University. He tells me he is going to the US. I can't travel, and I feel more comfortable in Canada. I'll miss him so. Best to you J > > Forgive the interruption with an OT discussion, but we have a momentous occasion. We are sending J- off to school today. A small rural public school, small class, 18 kids. I know millions of people do this everyday, but I am having a hard time with it. > > Good teacher, young, well-educated, experienced, with all the qualities I think of when I think of a good teacher, firm, fair and caring. I wondered when I sent my dd off to kindergarten at 4 (what was I thinking) whether teachers had any clue of what was involved in the amount of love and work and worry that had gone into that short period of time. I thought they did, but am sure with this one, noone could begin to know. > > I cried every morning for three weeks when my dd started kindergarten. I literally didn't know what to do with myself, totally unprepared for the empty feeling her going to school would leave me. She skipped off without so much as a backward glance, which I took as a good sign of her ego but almost resented her for being so independent. I half way wanted her to cling to me and refuse to go but despite my best efforts she would not. She was ready. > > Same with this one, she refuses to allow us to see her off. Told us she will go alone, thank you very much anyway, politely, she says with all the confidence you hope for in a child starting off on their first day of school. > > Yesterday she calmly picked out her clothes and nonchalantly packed her book bag with her school supplies. She is only making an effort to conceal her glee at being rid of our constant influence for the sake of our feelings. She is ready. > > We have had a front row seat to a miracle here, from a child who would have needed a 100 page IEP to a child who passed her entrance exam with flying colors, impressing the school and their psychologist, both of which have no clue as to what has transpired here over the last 2 1/2 years. > > It is said that a good parent holds them close and then lets them go, easy for the first part, but oh how hard the second part has always been for me. I hate it, fight it every step of the way. > > I am so grateful for all her accomplishments, I know she's ready, took every precaution to ensure her success. I know, I know this is what we worked so hard for, hoped and prayed so much for, but why oh why do I feel so bad? I see people breath sighs of relief when their kids/grandkids go off to school and I really wish I could be one of them. > > Where did all the time go? Wasn't it just yesterday when this daughter of my daughter came into this world looking like she was going to make someone pay dearly for disturbing her from a place of great comfort? She did. She is quite someone to reckon with and I find myself worrying a little for the teacher. > > Please, someone tell me how silly/stupid I am. > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 6, 2006 Report Share Posted September 6, 2006 > Please, someone tell me how silly/stupid I am. > Not me. I'm still hoping n's school will do something unforgiveable so I can homeschool him again. Isn't it so great that they are easy to miss now? Nell Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 6, 2006 Report Share Posted September 6, 2006 Sorry, can't tell you that you are either silly or stupid. Rather, need to congratulate you on what a great parent you are and hope the rest of us can have your type of success. Cochran <Ladyshrink111@...> wrote: Forgive the interruption with an OT discussion, but we have a momentous occasion. We are sending J- off to school today. A small rural public school, small class, 18 kids. I know millions of people do this everyday, but I am having a hard time with it. Good teacher, young, well-educated, experienced, with all the qualities I think of when I think of a good teacher, firm, fair and caring. I wondered when I sent my dd off to kindergarten at 4 (what was I thinking) whether teachers had any clue of what was involved in the amount of love and work and worry that had gone into that short period of time. I thought they did, but am sure with this one, noone could begin to know. I cried every morning for three weeks when my dd started kindergarten. I literally didn't know what to do with myself, totally unprepared for the empty feeling her going to school would leave me. She skipped off without so much as a backward glance, which I took as a good sign of her ego but almost resented her for being so independent. I half way wanted her to cling to me and refuse to go but despite my best efforts she would not. She was ready. Same with this one, she refuses to allow us to see her off. Told us she will go alone, thank you very much anyway, politely, she says with all the confidence you hope for in a child starting off on their first day of school. Yesterday she calmly picked out her clothes and nonchalantly packed her book bag with her school supplies. She is only making an effort to conceal her glee at being rid of our constant influence for the sake of our feelings. She is ready. We have had a front row seat to a miracle here, from a child who would have needed a 100 page IEP to a child who passed her entrance exam with flying colors, impressing the school and their psychologist, both of which have no clue as to what has transpired here over the last 2 1/2 years. It is said that a good parent holds them close and then lets them go, easy for the first part, but oh how hard the second part has always been for me. I hate it, fight it every step of the way. I am so grateful for all her accomplishments, I know she's ready, took every precaution to ensure her success. I know, I know this is what we worked so hard for, hoped and prayed so much for, but why oh why do I feel so bad? I see people breath sighs of relief when their kids/grandkids go off to school and I really wish I could be one of them. Where did all the time go? Wasn't it just yesterday when this daughter of my daughter came into this world looking like she was going to make someone pay dearly for disturbing her from a place of great comfort? She did. She is quite someone to reckon with and I find myself worrying a little for the teacher. Please, someone tell me how silly/stupid I am. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 6, 2006 Report Share Posted September 6, 2006 ----- Original Message ----- From: lindajaytee Today is a momentous occasion for me too. My dd just started University, with her boy friend. I'm way behind you. I haven't chelated her yet!! It's taken me 18 years to trace her (serious) allergy problems to mercury and now I'm chelating myself so that I can get better enough to work on chelating a moving target, and maybe the boy friend too. Congratulations! and I'm sorry, I know how you feel. 18 year olds are a lot more slippery than a 3 year old for chelation, that's for sure, but I have faith you'll get the job done. The hollow feeling when the kids go off is real difficult for me too. It's like I worked so hard, so that they can leave? Why did I do that? The biggest one will be in two years when my son goes to University. He tells me he is going to the US. I can't travel, and I feel more comfortable in Canada. I'll miss him so. This is exactly it, exactly how I felt, lost sight for a few moments that the reason for all this was so she could have a life and she does. Today was hard. She did marvelously and said she was definitely going back tomorrow. Whew. Then she promptly feel asleep on the way home. I'm better now, but oh how I am going to miss her. Tomorrow was library and lunch and manicure day, ahhhhhh. I'd ask my daughter to have another one, but honestly, I don't think I would make it through. I may just have to go back to working at my office and eat lunch with adults, not nearly as interesting, that's for sure. Thanks for the nice thoughts, , and helping make a rough day a little easier, thanks to all of you, Best to you J > > Forgive the interruption with an OT discussion, but we have a momentous occasion. We are sending J- off to school today. A small rural public school, small class, 18 kids. I know millions of people do this everyday, but I am having a hard time with it. > > Good teacher, young, well-educated, experienced, with all the qualities I think of when I think of a good teacher, firm, fair and caring. I wondered when I sent my dd off to kindergarten at 4 (what was I thinking) whether teachers had any clue of what was involved in the amount of love and work and worry that had gone into that short period of time. I thought they did, but am sure with this one, noone could begin to know. > > I cried every morning for three weeks when my dd started kindergarten. I literally didn't know what to do with myself, totally unprepared for the empty feeling her going to school would leave me. She skipped off without so much as a backward glance, which I took as a good sign of her ego but almost resented her for being so independent. I half way wanted her to cling to me and refuse to go but despite my best efforts she would not. She was ready. > > Same with this one, she refuses to allow us to see her off. Told us she will go alone, thank you very much anyway, politely, she says with all the confidence you hope for in a child starting off on their first day of school. > > Yesterday she calmly picked out her clothes and nonchalantly packed her book bag with her school supplies. She is only making an effort to conceal her glee at being rid of our constant influence for the sake of our feelings. She is ready. > > We have had a front row seat to a miracle here, from a child who would have needed a 100 page IEP to a child who passed her entrance exam with flying colors, impressing the school and their psychologist, both of which have no clue as to what has transpired here over the last 2 1/2 years. > > It is said that a good parent holds them close and then lets them go, easy for the first part, but oh how hard the second part has always been for me. I hate it, fight it every step of the way. > > I am so grateful for all her accomplishments, I know she's ready, took every precaution to ensure her success. I know, I know this is what we worked so hard for, hoped and prayed so much for, but why oh why do I feel so bad? I see people breath sighs of relief when their kids/grandkids go off to school and I really wish I could be one of them. > > Where did all the time go? Wasn't it just yesterday when this daughter of my daughter came into this world looking like she was going to make someone pay dearly for disturbing her from a place of great comfort? She did. She is quite someone to reckon with and I find myself worrying a little for the teacher. > > Please, someone tell me how silly/stupid I am. > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 6, 2006 Report Share Posted September 6, 2006 , I am behind, having had computer issues that made every post this morning a major undertaking. I see from your post to that you made it through the day. Congratulations! I think your experience underscores how so much of what we do is about ourselves, and not just about the kids. It is easy to lose sight of that sometimes! Best, and when you go to the library, head straight for the fiction section (or whatever section tickles your fancy). Anne > > Forgive the interruption with an OT discussion, but we have a momentous occasion. We are sending J- off to school today. A small rural public school, small class, 18 kids. I know millions of people do this everyday, but I am having a hard time with it. > > Good teacher, young, well-educated, experienced, with all the qualities I think of when I think of a good teacher, firm, fair and caring. I wondered when I sent my dd off to kindergarten at 4 (what was I thinking) whether teachers had any clue of what was involved in the amount of love and work and worry that had gone into that short period of time. I thought they did, but am sure with this one, noone could begin to know. > > I cried every morning for three weeks when my dd started kindergarten. I literally didn't know what to do with myself, totally unprepared for the empty feeling her going to school would leave me. She skipped off without so much as a backward glance, which I took as a good sign of her ego but almost resented her for being so independent. I half way wanted her to cling to me and refuse to go but despite my best efforts she would not. She was ready. > > Same with this one, she refuses to allow us to see her off. Told us she will go alone, thank you very much anyway, politely, she says with all the confidence you hope for in a child starting off on their first day of school. > > Yesterday she calmly picked out her clothes and nonchalantly packed her book bag with her school supplies. She is only making an effort to conceal her glee at being rid of our constant influence for the sake of our feelings. She is ready. > > We have had a front row seat to a miracle here, from a child who would have needed a 100 page IEP to a child who passed her entrance exam with flying colors, impressing the school and their psychologist, both of which have no clue as to what has transpired here over the last 2 1/2 years. > > It is said that a good parent holds them close and then lets them go, easy for the first part, but oh how hard the second part has always been for me. I hate it, fight it every step of the way. > > I am so grateful for all her accomplishments, I know she's ready, took every precaution to ensure her success. I know, I know this is what we worked so hard for, hoped and prayed so much for, but why oh why do I feel so bad? I see people breath sighs of relief when their kids/grandkids go off to school and I really wish I could be one of them. > > Where did all the time go? Wasn't it just yesterday when this daughter of my daughter came into this world looking like she was going to make someone pay dearly for disturbing her from a place of great comfort? She did. She is quite someone to reckon with and I find myself worrying a little for the teacher. > > Please, someone tell me how silly/stupid I am. > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2006 Report Share Posted September 7, 2006 , thank you for this lovely post. Your granddaughter is off to a great start! René > > Forgive the interruption with an OT discussion, but we have a momentous occasion. We are sending J- off to school today. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2006 Report Share Posted September 7, 2006 Thanks to everyone who posted on list and off and helped me through a really hard day. I'm going to save all the posts for when I feel weepy today. Or when I entertain thoughts of just going to get her for our regular Thursday activities. I found myself wishing yesterday that they had little mini cams in the school so you watch them on the computer, am I hopeless or what? Who would get anything done? She did call me and told me about her day (the kids are really nice and recess is her favorite) and reassured me that she would be over on Friday for her usual sleepover. She also told me I should try and not worry so much, that she is fine. I'll try. You know you are really bad when a 5 year old starts giving you advice. Anybody ever figure out a way to actually do that, quit worrying? Thanks, again, [ ] Re: Momentous occasion , I am behind, having had computer issues that made every post this morning a major undertaking. I see from your post to that you made it through the day. Congratulations! I think your experience underscores how so much of what we do is about ourselves, and not just about the kids. It is easy to lose sight of that sometimes! Best, and when you go to the library, head straight for the fiction section (or whatever section tickles your fancy). Anne > > Forgive the interruption with an OT discussion, but we have a momentous occasion. We are sending J- off to school today. A small rural public school, small class, 18 kids. I know millions of people do this everyday, but I am having a hard time with it. > > Good teacher, young, well-educated, experienced, with all the qualities I think of when I think of a good teacher, firm, fair and caring. I wondered when I sent my dd off to kindergarten at 4 (what was I thinking) whether teachers had any clue of what was involved in the amount of love and work and worry that had gone into that short period of time. I thought they did, but am sure with this one, noone could begin to know. > > I cried every morning for three weeks when my dd started kindergarten. I literally didn't know what to do with myself, totally unprepared for the empty feeling her going to school would leave me. She skipped off without so much as a backward glance, which I took as a good sign of her ego but almost resented her for being so independent. I half way wanted her to cling to me and refuse to go but despite my best efforts she would not. She was ready. > > Same with this one, she refuses to allow us to see her off. Told us she will go alone, thank you very much anyway, politely, she says with all the confidence you hope for in a child starting off on their first day of school. > > Yesterday she calmly picked out her clothes and nonchalantly packed her book bag with her school supplies. She is only making an effort to conceal her glee at being rid of our constant influence for the sake of our feelings. She is ready. > > We have had a front row seat to a miracle here, from a child who would have needed a 100 page IEP to a child who passed her entrance exam with flying colors, impressing the school and their psychologist, both of which have no clue as to what has transpired here over the last 2 1/2 years. > > It is said that a good parent holds them close and then lets them go, easy for the first part, but oh how hard the second part has always been for me. I hate it, fight it every step of the way. > > I am so grateful for all her accomplishments, I know she's ready, took every precaution to ensure her success. I know, I know this is what we worked so hard for, hoped and prayed so much for, but why oh why do I feel so bad? I see people breath sighs of relief when their kids/grandkids go off to school and I really wish I could be one of them. > > Where did all the time go? Wasn't it just yesterday when this daughter of my daughter came into this world looking like she was going to make someone pay dearly for disturbing her from a place of great comfort? She did. She is quite someone to reckon with and I find myself worrying a little for the teacher. > > Please, someone tell me how silly/stupid I am. > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2006 Report Share Posted September 7, 2006 , you're not silly. Your post made me cry. I think we, with our special kids, can appreciate them more than parents of ordinary kids. You have worked harder than parents of " ordinary kids " to help her become all she can be. What wonderful work you have done that those who are with her now have no idea what she used to be like. Hugs to you and good job! Wyndie > > > > > Forgive the interruption with an OT discussion, but we have a > momentous occasion. We are sending J- off to school today. A > small rural public school, small class, 18 kids. I know millions of > people do this everyday, but I am having a hard time with it. > > > > Good teacher, young, well-educated, experienced, with all the > qualities I think of when I think of a good teacher, firm, fair and > caring. I wondered when I sent my dd off to kindergarten at 4 (what > was I thinking) whether teachers had any clue of what was involved > in the amount of love and work and worry that had gone into that > short period of time. I thought they did, but am sure with this one, > noone could begin to know. > > > > I cried every morning for three weeks when my dd started > kindergarten. I literally didn't know what to do with myself, > totally unprepared for the empty feeling her going to school would > leave me. She skipped off without so much as a backward glance, > which I took as a good sign of her ego but almost resented her for > being so independent. I half way wanted her to cling to me and > refuse to go but despite my best efforts she would not. She was > ready. > > > > Same with this one, she refuses to allow us to see her off. Told > us she will go alone, thank you very much anyway, politely, she says > with all the confidence you hope for in a child starting off on > their first day of school. > > > > Yesterday she calmly picked out her clothes and nonchalantly > packed her book bag with her school supplies. She is only making an > effort to conceal her glee at being rid of our constant influence > for the sake of our feelings. She is ready. > > > > We have had a front row seat to a miracle here, from a child who > would have needed a 100 page IEP to a child who passed her entrance > exam with flying colors, impressing the school and their > psychologist, both of which have no clue as to what has transpired > here over the last 2 1/2 years. > > > > It is said that a good parent holds them close and then lets them > go, easy for the first part, but oh how hard the second part has > always been for me. I hate it, fight it every step of the way. > > > > I am so grateful for all her accomplishments, I know she's ready, > took every precaution to ensure her success. I know, I know this is > what we worked so hard for, hoped and prayed so much for, but why > oh why do I feel so bad? I see people breath sighs of relief when > their kids/grandkids go off to school and I really wish I could be > one of them. > > > > Where did all the time go? Wasn't it just yesterday when this > daughter of my daughter came into this world looking like she was > going to make someone pay dearly for disturbing her from a place of > great comfort? She did. She is quite someone to reckon with and I > find myself worrying a little for the teacher. > > > > Please, someone tell me how silly/stupid I am. > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2006 Report Share Posted September 7, 2006 , the love you feel for your granddaughter leapt out of your post when I read it. Your family is lucky to have you, and we're lucky to benefit from your journey and the contributions you make here. Thank you and good luck sending her off to school, in Illinois Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2006 Report Share Posted September 7, 2006 Oh, Rececca...you want somebody to say how silly you are? OK, that would be me. As another grandparent, I've earned the right to say it like it is! But is " silly " a bad thing? No..it's just another acromnym for " grandma " !!! You're baby girl just walked out that door and didn't hide her face in your skirt. She walked into her classroom, hung up her backpack and probably said something to the effect of " Hi! I'm J-Nichole, and THIS is how we're going to do things around here...! " That self assured little princess is " there " because you saw her through those days of 100 page IEPs. You found the right path to heal her body and move toxins out of her brain. Your own dd allowed you to be a part of their lives and embraced your knowledge and research, and encouraged that special bond with your grandaughter. Without that unique connection, your thousands of hours of searching for answers, for that right combination of supplements and for the correct chelator, would have been in vein. You obviously did the same great job when you raised her. My best to you, your dd and your little Princess, J-Nichole! Now go continue being a little weepy and emotional... it's more than a right of passage, you've earned it!!! -Trish > > Forgive the interruption with an OT discussion, but we have a momentous occasion. We are sending J- off to school today. A small rural public school, small class, 18 kids. I know millions of people do this everyday, but I am having a hard time with it. > > Good teacher, young, well-educated, experienced, with all the qualities I think of when I think of a good teacher, firm, fair and caring. I wondered when I sent my dd off to kindergarten at 4 (what was I thinking) whether teachers had any clue of what was involved in the amount of love and work and worry that had gone into that short period of time. I thought they did, but am sure with this one, noone could begin to know. > > I cried every morning for three weeks when my dd started kindergarten. I literally didn't know what to do with myself, totally unprepared for the empty feeling her going to school would leave me. She skipped off without so much as a backward glance, which I took as a good sign of her ego but almost resented her for being so independent. I half way wanted her to cling to me and refuse to go but despite my best efforts she would not. She was ready. > > Same with this one, she refuses to allow us to see her off. Told us she will go alone, thank you very much anyway, politely, she says with all the confidence you hope for in a child starting off on their first day of school. > > Yesterday she calmly picked out her clothes and nonchalantly packed her book bag with her school supplies. She is only making an effort to conceal her glee at being rid of our constant influence for the sake of our feelings. She is ready. > > We have had a front row seat to a miracle here, from a child who would have needed a 100 page IEP to a child who passed her entrance exam with flying colors, impressing the school and their psychologist, both of which have no clue as to what has transpired here over the last 2 1/2 years. > > It is said that a good parent holds them close and then lets them go, easy for the first part, but oh how hard the second part has always been for me. I hate it, fight it every step of the way. > > I am so grateful for all her accomplishments, I know she's ready, took every precaution to ensure her success. I know, I know this is what we worked so hard for, hoped and prayed so much for, but why oh why do I feel so bad? I see people breath sighs of relief when their kids/grandkids go off to school and I really wish I could be one of them. > > Where did all the time go? Wasn't it just yesterday when this daughter of my daughter came into this world looking like she was going to make someone pay dearly for disturbing her from a place of great comfort? She did. She is quite someone to reckon with and I find myself worrying a little for the teacher. > > Please, someone tell me how silly/stupid I am. > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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