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Hello Everyone,

My name is and I have an eight year old son with AS. I am up in the

middle of the

night becuase I cannot sleep after todays events. I'm looking for some much

needed

support and found your group doing a search. The past two and a half weeks of my

life

have been extreamly chalenging and stressful. The major stressors are the

holidaies, a trip

14 hour drive (one way) home for a week long trip and a major plumbing disaster

in my

home. Then today I recieved a letter from my son's psychologist saying that we

were

loosing our standing appt due to missing the last three appts. I was so mad.

Last week we

were on a trip that had been planned for months and the office was told that we

would be

out of town weeks ago. The week proior to that I was told The Dr would be out of

town

herself so we did not go. I did miss the week before that becuase my son was

sent home

sick from school. I called the office that day, but it was not 24 hours in

advance so I have

to pay a $50.00 fee. $50.00 x 3 weeks is so much money!!! Money I do not have

and do

not feel I should have to pay. At least not the last two weeks.

Here the real problem. My son really needs these sessions. He has been talking

about

hurting himself and hateing school and life. We have just taken him out of the

horrible

public school he was in to start homeschool him. That has helped alot in the

short term

but in the long term I am scared about his self hate. He never talked like that

until he had

been at the mercy of those awful kids and crappy school!! I don't know what I am

looking

for. Just someone who understands where I am comming from. It took me so long to

find a

therapist to work with and then months to get in and more months to get a

standing apt.

Now that we have lost that I'm not sure what to do next. I'm so sad, and I feel

all alone in

this. My husband not much help. It's like he expects me to deal with everything

having to

do with our kids and our home no matter what. All he feels he needs to do is

earn money

and put out the trash.

My 2 year old is also high need and has a 12 month developemental delay in

speech (ST),

9 month cog delay, Sensory processing problems (OT) and 12 month gross motor

delay

(PT). He has therapy 3 times a week, my 8 year old has OT once a week and had

behavioral

therapy once a week as well until now.

I'm tired, sad, lonely, and most of all burnt out. I tried to see a councelor

for myself and

had to bring my 2 year old as I have no real support system. The therapist was

fine with

his comming at first but then one session about 6 weeks ago said " I think it

would be best

if you got a sitter for our sessions from now on. "

I wanted to say something like " Well Duh!!! No really? Do you think I would

willingly bring

my 2 year old with me if I had a freakn choice?!?!? " But I didn't. I just

cancled my next few

appt's and have been looking for help, and a new councelor ever since.

Thank you for reading/listening.

Sincerely,