Going Crazy

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Dear Cristina,

First I want to give you a big HUG from a moma who has a 17 yos that continues

to do the same thing... I can't tell you how to make it not happen I just want

to let you know that you are not alone dear one.

I've been looking for answers since our son was 13 months old... It's been a

long time. When it's good it is so very good. Windows open for short periods

of time I can pretend he is " normal " then the windows " slam " down quickly. I

too am very tire and have a breaking heart.

I've been told it's like living with an alcoholic you never know when they

will come in drunk and all hell will break loose.

Let me tell you a bit about out son. He is very high functioning verbally

there fore people think he is healthy and normal. He can barely do math maybe a

third or forth grade level. He hates to learn at least the way most children

learn. He learns what he wants to learn he picks up tidbits here and there.

The said thing in his life now is that he is realizing other his age are

moving on and he is not. He wants to drive and there is no way we will permit

that.

He is our fourth child so we have parented other children. We have two that

have already graduated from college and one in college. Our baby will never go

to college. I'm rambling on and on, sorry. I'm probably way off topic by now .

We are trying medications that I hate but the quality of his life is so poor,

all he wants is to not be happy and normal. I'm thankful that when he does get

angry he never wants to hurt me. He is angry at the world and wants to bash in

walls not people. After the anger ends he is so sorry and remorseful.

It's good to talk and share or we would go crazy...

Blessings,

Mimi

Cristina Pittman <arapittman@...> wrote:

We have had such a difficult week with my son who has AS. He is completely

out of control. Yelling, throwing things, telling us he doesn't like us,

telling us this is the house from down there (to him it means hell), and many

more chaotic things. My husband and I stood at the kitchen with him sending us

to our room. He kept yelling he is the boss and we do not let him do anything

he wants. We were speechless!!! We can't take it anymore. We can't even have

people over our house. This afternoon my family came to eat dinner with us they

travelled 30 miles to get here and Nicolas told them all to leave yelling on the

top of his lungs. Of course my family left about 5 minutes after this happened.

He slams the door from his room in front of our faces and my family's response

is give him a good spanking. I know they are trying to help, but it's not

working. I feel like screaming and crying. Why is this happening to our

children? My son is only six years old and

yesterday he said he is killing himself with the big ant that is pinching his

body. I feel so bad for my baby. I watch him how painful his world is and I

feel helpless. He is our only child and we began seeing an infertility doctor to

see if we can have another baby, but I do not know if we can handle it. We do

not know if AS is genetic will we have another baby with AS. Although we would

love the baby I do not want them to suffrer like Nicolas. He is so lonely!

Well, I am going to try to regroup myself for another tomorrow. What insanity

:-( We are hurting so much right now I do not know how we will get to his

teenage years.

Thanks for hearing me out. If feels good to cry and write.

God Bless

Cristina