I blew it all the He%^& $%@$#

[Guest guest]

Ok, last night I was a chaperone at kids sleepover for my Martial Arts school

where I am employed. After completely blowing it on Christmas I thought for

sure New Years would be a different story. Yea RIGHT! I am 1 year and 3

months out....have gone from 334 to around 160-165.....it fluctuattes....and

have

been stuck around there since about month 10. I am so much healthier and life

is so much better, I can't even explain. What scares me is this.....

I have been soooo disciplined with eating habits, all low carb and high

protein. And if I splurged it was low carb ice cream instead of the real stuff.

This holiday season I BLEW IT!! I got into the sugar and crap soooo much

Christmas Day and last night. Popcorn, cookies, you name it, I at it. And

ALOT

of it over the course of the night. I even drank when I ate, which I never

do. And MAN can you eat the grub when you are washing it down at the same time.

I am soooo nervous that I have ruined everything. Eating all those carbs

just made me want more carbs. I have been so good so far, what do I do? I

probably consumed 3500 calories of sugar and crap and carbs last night. I out a

huge dent in the cookie plates of the 15 hour ordeal.

I am a very active person so I know I need alot of good protein to build

strength. Being a Martial Arts instructor is hard physical excersise. But how

much do I really need and how do I get over the mental anguish of screwing up so

bad??

Also.....how much can you all eat? Eating so much last night spooked me.

My little pouch can hold it down sometimes. I can eat alot at times and

other times not so much. I can eat a honking salad. Do you count calories???

Help me out here guys. Anyone else blow there holidays.......let's all lay it

out on the table here!

Missie