Keeping in touch

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Hello everyone,

I am home again after another hospital stay. Got home Wednesday nite,

but today is the first day I have been out of bed longer than an

hour. Felt really bad when I came home. They had some of my meds

different this time, and I ended up going through withdrawl too.

YUCK! With all of it together, I end up in this altered state of

consciousness, depressed a little too. I just want to sleep forever.

Like when I open my eyes and realize I am awake again, and remember

what's going on, I just groan and try to curl up and make the hurt

and everything just go away again. My poor husband is trying to take

care of the girls, and working 12 hour night shifts, and getting

barely enough help from family. He is just exhausted and I feel so

helpless. I want to help him, but I can't even take care of myself,

let alone take over the girls so he can sleep. Finally today I was

able to get things together enough for him to rest. He really is my

saint, and knight in shining armor!

Hope I am not depressing everyone, it really just feels good to get

it off your chest.

My surgery is rapidly approaching, I am a bundle of nerves. I have

just two weeks and a few hours to go! I check in at 5:30 am Mon the

17th. I would ask all of you that pray, to please keep me in your

prayers both that day for a safe successful surgery, and in the mean

time for calm.

I hope you all are doing well. I am really feeling lonely, having not

been on the board as much as I would have liked to lately. Perhaps,

with better health I will be more able.

Best Wishes to each and all, Keri