TO Shirley

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 10/16/2003 1:20:28 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

rjlind@... writes:

Shirley, I went in to read your message and there was nothing

there,,,did I miss something or do something wrong? Jean

Hi you NightOwl too. Are you worried about your daughter and that is why you

aren't sleeping. I am worried about my daughter too. Her blood test showed

that she is high in her ANA which is a sign of Lupus. Her hair has started to

fall out and she has bumps that itch on her scalp. She is 34 and I am very

concerned about her. She has growths in boths of her ovaries too. The doctor

doesn't know if they are cyst or tumors. The doctor is having her have an

echo of her ovaries every three months. I had ovarian cancer so I am very

concerned for her having growths in both ovaries. She has other health problems

Jean and when I add them all up I get very upset. I noticed that you are up

late

and I thought maybe you couldn't sleep because you are worried about . I

tried to sleep but all I could do was pray and cry. It seems it is one

illness on top of another for my daughter. She has multiple illnesses. It

breaks

my heart.

I don't know what I am doing wrong when I try to send the e-mail from Jim and

his wife. He had the pancreatectomy and islet cell transfer and this is the

first time I have heard from them in a very long time. There pc was out and

they have been very busy with his surgery. He is so much better since he had

the surgery. They wanted me to forward their message to the group. I will

find out tomorrow what I am doing wrong. I can't imagine what is wrong since I

send mail that way all of the time. Maybe I am just tired.

I know that is still so sick and I want you to know that I really care

about her, her family and you. I realize what you must live with every day of

your life. I would rather be ill any day than have my daughter ill. I will

continue to pray since the Lord always answers my prayers. He has brought me

out of so much so I know he hears my prayers. Shirley

[Guest guest]

Hi Shirley, Yes, I am a nite owl...or sometimes I think I am just

afraid to go to bed, afraid what mite happen if I am not up and

ready to take off whenever that call comes. Who know?? Its not a

good feeling tho and I know it does no good, but YES, I do worry

about and her family constantly and sit and go over the same

things in my mind as to what I can do. I know in my mind that it

does no good, but it doesnt matter, I cant stop it.

Im so sorry to hear about your daughter also. No matter how old

they get, we will always worry and you have good cause to worry.

Why did we think all those so simple things were the biggest

disasters of the world when they were young. Now we know what real

problems are and when they are grown we have no control over what

road they choose to travel.

Sorry, I am rambling, see how my mind works? Maybe the men in white

coats will be at my door soon. If you dont hear from me for a

while, you will know they got me. Seriously, I know all my

thinkings and worrying wont help anything, but I cant turn it off

like I can a radio. They just stay with me as I know they do with

so many of you.

My thoughts are with you all and I am in this site several times a

day. Seems like this disease has become my life too, and I have

learned so much from being in here and reading all the posts from

all of you who have gone thru so much.

Thanks so much for caring about . And I in turn care for your

daughter and what happens to her. I hope you will keep me

informed. Keri wrote the most sincere, caring letter to thru

me. I do believe Keri is one of Gods Angels here on earth. I get

tears thinking of it and of her. I know she is going thru a lot

herself and she took the time out to do this for . I have taken

the letter over to 's, and hope it can reach her heart and mind

and lead her to do something. I havne had a response yet. I never

see her, I just have to leave things in the door. But it is all I

can do.

I will stop rambling now and wish you a pain free day and hope you

can have many more. Love, Jean