Feeling kind of rough today

[Guest guest]

Hi y'all,

For the past several days I've been experiencing a lot of pain

from my pseudocysts. I think the stress and apprehension of

" not knowing " is taking it's toll. Anyone who says stress doesn't

affect the pain is a nit whit, IMHO! I've been working on my SSDI

application and trying to lay low, but still having continual

problems with the local pain and now the back pain has started

up again.

This pain is quite different from the earlier CP pain. It is more

localized and precisely in the two areas where the cysts are

located. I have had to start back on my pain medications, the

duragesic patch with percocet for breakthrough, but the percocet

just isn't cutting it this time.

I was supposed to do a three day test this week for my CDE by

keeping a record of my blood sugars before and after each meal,

injecting calculated insulin based on the carbs for each meal,

and noting the post prandial results...but indulging in absolutely

NO EXERCISE for the three day test period. Exercise lowers

blood glucose, and they wanted to see the affect that the insulin

had to lower my blood glucose without any other contributing

factors. Well....I haven't been able to finish this test because I

haven't been able to eat the scheduled three meals a day and

snacks because I just don't have any appetitie with this blasted

pseudocyst pain. It's too bad, because at least I'm able to fulfill

the NO EXERCISE part of the test........I haven't felt like doing

much of anything...he, he, he!

Thursday I meet with my new gastroenterologist and find out

what the results of the ultrasound are, and what he proposes to

do about the pseudocysts. I'm getting tired and stressed out

about " not knowing " and just hope that whatever is decided, we

can go ahead and make some definite plans.

Speaking of plans.....I'm really pouting and feeling sorry for

myself because my husband, grandson and I were supposed to

go to the Adirondacks for a week in May for our annual timeshare

vacation and visit to see my dad, and anyway you look at it I don't

think we'll be able to go this year because of this impending

surgery. We'll either have to use the vacation time for surgery or

use it for recooperation, because I understand the recoop time is

weeks to months long. I'm so disappointed to miss this trip

again, (second time we've missed it because of my CP), and my

poor dad hasn't seen his only great-grandchild in three years

now. And I feel really guilty that my husband should have to use

his long awaited vacation time to hover over me in some hospital

bed, or worse, stuck at home hovering and having to do be in

charge of all the home responsibilities.

Well, I got that all off my chest, and I do appreciate anybody who

listened. I just had to let go of my self-pity and air my complaints

so I can turn my day around. I'll try to go find something to

occupy me that will turn my pout ... :-( ....into a smile again.....:-)

Thanks for listening.

With hope and prayers,

Heidi

Heidi H. Griffeth

South Carolina

Southeastern Representative

PAI, Intl.

Note: All comments or advice is personal opinion only, and

should not be substituted by professional medical consultation.

[Guest guest]

Heidi:

If anyone has deserved the right to " pout " you have! So pout! A

good ole feel sorry for myself day is certainly in order!

As far as SSD, from what I have seen, I can't think of anything else

you could possibly do. Try not to worry, easier said than done I

know.

Be good to yourself!

Kaye