Guest guest Posted December 18, 2003 Report Share Posted December 18, 2003 i am so madd at myself since i got hurt at work i have gone from 409 to a wopping ugly 447.. i almost started crying.. i am a active person until i got hurt.. i felt like screaming but i was in a room of hot yummy sexy sweaty men .. so i new that would even worse in the presence of these men at the gym.. but good lord.. i need this blankety blank surgry so bad.. i am so sick of myself... at least the 24 hour fitness has a scale to hold my wieght.. beats the hay and feed i went to prior.. so embarressing being so blasted fat.. do you all feel or use to feel like regressing and hermit in your inner room, i donot even want to leave my home , but i have to work to by my fast food... lol.. well i am done griping.. thank you to who ever reads this .. Starlet in ojai california presently aT A WOPPING 447.2 POUNDS DARRNNIITT.. _________________________________________________________________ Make your home warm and cozy this winter with tips from MSN House & Home. http://special.msn.com/home/warmhome.armx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 18, 2003 Report Share Posted December 18, 2003 Starlet - I soooo relate to your anger. I've gained about 15 lbs since I decided to have surgery. I can't believe that knowing the surgery is coming I'd actually GAIN weight. Then again, knowing my struggle with food over the years, is it really any wonder? Well, I saw the surgeon last week, and got a date. She would like me to lose 15-20 lbs. before my operation so the lap will be easier (shrik my liver down). I think I can do it. Compassion and understanding and putting one foot in front of the other seems to be the key. I love reading the posts here too. They validate all the feelings I have. Be kind to yourself and stay on the path to the solution....even when it doesn't exactly look like the path. Take care. Jayne Lap RNY 3/12/2004 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 18, 2003 Report Share Posted December 18, 2003 starlet, it's a challenge for me too, but a little self forgiveness goes a long way, hunny. where are you in your wls process? lori h. > > i am so madd at myself since i got hurt at work i have gone from 409 to a > wopping ugly 447.. i almost started crying.. i am a active person until i > got hurt.. i felt like screaming but i was in a room of hot yummy sexy > sweaty men .. so i new that would even worse in the presence of these men at > the gym.. but good lord.. i need this blankety blank surgry so bad.. i am so > sick of myself... at least the 24 hour fitness has a scale to hold my > wieght.. beats the hay and feed i went to prior.. so embarressing being so > blasted fat.. do you all feel or use to feel like regressing and hermit in > your inner room, i donot even want to leave my home , but i have to work to > by my fast food... lol.. well i am done griping.. thank you to who ever > reads this .. > Starlet in ojai california presently aT A WOPPING 447.2 POUNDS > DARRNNIITT.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 18, 2003 Report Share Posted December 18, 2003 Starlet, I'm sure many of us can empathize with your feelings. Since the surgery, I've been so happy. I wondered why, and it was because I had hope again. Being overweight for me is ugly, hopelessness, after trying to get it off for 34 years. I secluded myself too much, except for my immediate family. It took 11 long months to get the surgery, but here I am. Yes, as Lori asked, where are you in your wls process? Joan LAP RNY 11/18/03 Dr. Higa, Fresno, CA 282pre-op/275surg/245/140 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 19, 2003 Report Share Posted December 19, 2003 !!!!!!!!!!!do i know what you mean!!!!!!!!! girl, let me tell you something, I think everyone feels like that in some way or another. I had to leave my job because of my weight, and i'm only 285 lbs @ 5'8. sometimes i think that i have the most embarrassing story of all. I'm a certified health and fitness specialist, a certified personal trainer and a cardiovascular trainer, amateur bodybuilder 4th place in 1994 and i let my weight get away from me also. after i gained the first 30lbs i jumped on one of my own programs that i had my clients on and i failed. since then it's been 4lbs a week and now i'm 285 from 185. talk about not practicing what you preach! trust me when i say i ain't the best person in world to take advice from but all i can say is do something it about it asap! good luck! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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