Thinking too hard -- was: The Zone

January 21, 2003

> I was taught this by a very smart, very successful WLS person. The

> rule of thumb for her is protein, food, vitamins, protein, food

> vitamins...... This goes on all day. Works for me!

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That's my same " plan " so maybe we listened to the same teacher ~smile~ even

beats most hungry days to the ground and when it doesn't then I have a yuck

day -- not yuck because I gave into the craving for fried chicken but yuck

because of how that made me feel physically (disagreement going on inside

sort of thing...)

I'm proximal and the same plan works, protein, food, vitamins -

protein/vitamins - vitamins/protein and food where appropriate but the focus

is on health and my ideal weight is a " feeling " not a number...

Oh great good ones who suffer themselves daily at the gym how do I get

back??? I made my way through the whole emotional inability to eat (but got

my protein and vitamins) am making my way back to some sort of regular days

and can't make myself get back to the gym -- not out of laziness (well, a

big part probably is...) but the feeling of just not wanting to do something

for myself... don't have winter gym cloths, don't want to buy any since we

only have a few weeks of winter weather, still I COULD do something at home

yet I don't -- wondering if Ceep knows some great info on " fear and

inability to mobilize... " and thoughts of ... " If I go back to normal things

then I am being disrespectful to my own feelings of mourning and sadness... "

(analytical or inability to compartmentalize...) and a WHOHA for she who

mentioned using her skills of dissociation -- I can do that, have honed

those over years of therapy so maybe just leaving long enough for the body

to go do what the body must go do and then coming back when the fear and

parilization sets in my comfortable chair in my comfort zone...

So many thoughts you all spur... still blank on doing for myself when

feeling of caretaking for others seem to be the only " action " thoughts I can

muster up.. *sigh*

Probably made no sense -- don't worry about it... just rambling

~denise

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