Re: 1 day to WLS

[Guest guest]

, .... huge hug to you. You didn't get " carried away " kiddo.

You told it like it is... nothing wrong with speaking from the heart. Those of

us who's quality of life also became severely impaired as a result of MO ...

know what you've gone through ... why you made this choice ... we " KNOW " ...

and we understand.

will be thinking of you/me during my walk today.... so grateful that I " can "

walk again.

Skinny wishes from Mandy in CA

275/141/126

[Guest guest]

Mandy,

I know EXACTLY what you are feeling..

I too am having WLS tomorrow and having many of the same questions.

Last night it all became clear. I cannot lose weight on my own.. I have been a

disaster and

failure at it. I keep gaining weight.

Last night dh and I were spending " quality " time together. It was a disaster...

because of my extreme back

pain and weight. DH has never complained about my wieght.. as he married me at

195lbs.. but now I am 262 lbs.

Yes.. I want to be as socially acceptable as possible... but that isn't my main

motivation.

I want to enjoy my life to the fullest.

I want to chase my son in the park and take him to amusement rides.

I want to live long enough to see him have a family of his own.

Bottom line is ....

I want to feel good about myself, confident about myself, and proud of myself.

Mandy.. I will see ya on the other side!

K - Ft Lauderdale, Fl

Mommy to Noah 10/14/02

Surgery Date: 12/2/03

262/262/115 ( I am short.. 5' )

1 day to WLS

Hey all,

Tuesday is the big day. I guess all the nerves are getting the best of me.

Is re-arranging our stomachs really the last measure to being thin? Maybe it

was in God's plan for us to be big so we can do what he put us here for... I

know it's a horrible thing to say, but I'm wondering if this is something I

can deal with for the rest of my life. I had about 10 " last meals " because

none

could actually be the LAST. My poor body is about to be tortured all for the

sake of being socially accepted. Yes health is an important issue but that's

what doctors and medicine are for. To control health problems. This is a

huge decision. I've been gung ho for the past 6 months. Today hit me like a

ton of bricks. In one day I put muy life on the line. I get a breathing tube

to help me breathe. A catheter to help me pee. I can breathe and pee fine

now. Do I really want to mess with that? *shrug* Sorry to vent. It figures

I

would have second thoughts the day before.

~Mandy

[Guest guest]

I can't imagine any god wanting people to suffer with arthritis so bad

that they can't even get up off the toilet without help or sleep apnea

to where you have to sleep with some machine hooked up to you or peeing

yourself all the time because of incontinence or not being able to walk

more than 10 feet without stopping to catch your breath or being stuck

in a wheel chair because your knees can't hold your weight any longer or

giving ANYONE this disease, for that's what it is a disease that makes

you lose control over your emotions, your eating, and can sometimes cost

you your very life. I can't imagine that at all....of course that's just

my opinion.

Whether or not I was " supposed to be " overweight, fat, obese whatever

you want to call it, I chose my own destiny by having the surgery

because I knew I'd die if I didn't. I don't care one whit about being

" socially accepted " I just want to live life, not watch it waste away.

Sorry if I got carried away. This is just the way I felt about my

surgery.

T.

Lap RNY 6/20/03

432/313/170

Houston, Dr. Adam Naaman

Visit my homepage at http://users3.ev1.net/~leeds/

" I will find my way, I can go the distance. I'll be there someday if I

can be strong, I know every mile will be worth my while, I would go most

anywhere to fell like I belong. "

[Guest guest]

Mandy, I think we can all feel what you're feeling. It seems at some point

before surgery, these thoughts come up and BIG doubt. Someone else said it

all, make a list of reasons why you wanted this in the first place. For me,

primary was I didn't want to die, and I didn't want to lose my feet to

Diabetes. Scads of other health problems too that it will help. But now on

the other side, I'm so happy. Every minute of every day I'm relieved that I

have a second chance. Now the positive thoughts have taken over, and I know

that I'll be better medically, but not I'm excited too about quality of

life, feeling good about myself, doing so many things that were so hard to

do. Make that list, and for most of us it is extensive.

Joan C, Calif.

LAP RNY 11/18/03

Dr. Higa, Fresno, CA

282/275/260/???

1 day to WLS

Hey all,

Tuesday is the big day. I guess all the nerves are getting the best of

me.

Is re-arranging our stomachs really the last measure to being thin? Maybe

it

was in God's plan for us to be big so we can do what he put us here for...

I

know it's a horrible thing to say, but I'm wondering if this is something

I

can deal with for the rest of my life. I had about 10 " last meals "

because none

could actually be the LAST. My poor body is about to be tortured all for

the

sake of being socially accepted. Yes health is an important issue but

that's

what doctors and medicine are for. To control health problems. This is a

huge decision. I've been gung ho for the past 6 months. Today hit me

like a

ton of bricks. In one day I put muy life on the line. I get a breathing

tube

to help me breathe. A catheter to help me pee. I can breathe and pee

fine

now. Do I really want to mess with that? *shrug* Sorry to vent. It

figures I

would have second thoughts the day before.

~Mandy

[Guest guest]

some part of me wept inside when I read your note to us .

I too remember feelings of not being able to lose weight on my own... and

even if I did succeed .... keeping the weight off was " disaster " etc. The the

cool thing is, and you will not understand this until your a few weeks out...

... some part of me wept ... not with sadness , but with joy ... FOR

YOU. In a few short weeks ... all of that is " disaster talk " is going to

change, in ways you could not have imagined.

I can't wait to read your upcoming posts /// ...

Skinny wishes from Mandy in CA

275/151/126

[Guest guest]

you'll do great tomorrow, mary k. it'll be the beginning of leaving the excess

weight behind. it's (more than) possible to revolutionize

your quality of life.

lori h.

> I too am having WLS tomorrow and having many of the same questions.

>

> Last night it all became clear. I cannot lose weight on my own.. I have been

a disaster and

> failure at it. I keep gaining weight.

> Last night dh and I were spending " quality " time together. It was a

disaster... because of my extreme back

> pain and weight. DH has never complained about my wieght.. as he married me

at 195lbs.. but now I am 262 lbs.

>

> Yes.. I want to be as socially acceptable as possible... but that isn't my

main motivation.

> I want to enjoy my life to the fullest.

> I want to chase my son in the park and take him to amusement rides.

> I want to live long enough to see him have a family of his own.

>

> Bottom line is ....

> I want to feel good about myself, confident about myself, and proud of

myself.

>

>

> K - Ft Lauderdale, Fl

> Mommy to Noah 10/14/02

> Surgery Date: 12/2/03

> 262/262/115 ( I am short.. 5' )

>

[Guest guest]

I think everyone has been where you are...I kept thinking to myself,

if my stomach is going to be smaller, why can't I do it myself and

just eat less...the fact is I had tried everything by the time I was

28, and I was tired of my weight going up and down...I made poor

decisions and I was ready to take what I thought was a drastic

measure for a better quality of life...not just for me, but for my

family...I remember when I went for pre-op 3 days before my surgery,

the nurse(who had the surgery 8 months before) looked at my four year

old and told him, " your mommy is going to have so much energy, all

for you " . That was when it hit me that I was doing the right

thing...I have never regretted having this surgery done...I truly

feel blessed and like I finally have my life back...and I finally

feel like an active participant in it...Good Luck!!!

Hannah

open RNY

9/29/03

288/235/???

> Hey all,

>

> Tuesday is the big day. I guess all the nerves are getting the

best of me.

> Is re-arranging our stomachs really the last measure to being

thin? Maybe it

> was in God's plan for us to be big so we can do what he put us here

for... I

> know it's a horrible thing to say, but I'm wondering if this is

something I

> can deal with for the rest of my life. I had about 10 " last meals "

because none

> could actually be the LAST. My poor body is about to be tortured

all for the

> sake of being socially accepted. Yes health is an important issue

but that's

> what doctors and medicine are for. To control health problems.

This is a

> huge decision. I've been gung ho for the past 6 months. Today hit

me like a

> ton of bricks. In one day I put muy life on the line. I get a

breathing tube

> to help me breathe. A catheter to help me pee. I can breathe and

pee fine

> now. Do I really want to mess with that? *shrug* Sorry to vent.

It figures I

> would have second thoughts the day before.

>

> ~Mandy

>

>

>